MY TEENS

I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS A TEEN AT 13 I FELT REALLY CLUMSY AND STRANGE, I HAD A GIRLFRIEND I WAS WITH ALL THE TIME AND SHE DEFINED MOST OF OUR ACTIONS SINCE SHE SEEMED TO KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON I LET HER LEAD ME .

I REMEMBER ONE TIME MY UNCLE WHO LIKED TO DRINK WINE ALWAYS HAD A BOTTLE HIDDEN BEHIND THE COUCH ONE DAY I TOOK THE BOTTLE AND DRANK A WHOLE LOT OF WINE IT WAS PURPLE AND VERY SWEET I CAN'T REMEMBER EXACTLY HOW MUCH I DRANK BUT IT WAS ENOUGH TO CAUSE ME TO THROW UP IN MY BEDROOM, UGH. MY AUNT ASKED ME IF I HAD DRUNK SOME WINE I SAID YES THAT I FOUND IT AND IT TASTED LIKE GRAPE JUICE SO I DID.

YUCK I DID NOT EVER WANT TO DRINK ALCOHOL AGAIN, BUT ONCE WHEN I WAS 16 MY FRIENDS AND I WERE AT PETER'S HOUSE, HE WAS THE SON OF A WEALTHY ARTIST IN SANTA FE AND HE HAD PET MONKEYS AND IT WAS NEW YEARS EVE SO WE DECIDED TO DRINK A BOTTLE OF CHAMPAGNE THAT PETER FOUND OF HIS MOMS SO I HAD ONE GLASS AND IT WASN'T ALL THAT GOOD.
I HAD SEVERAL BEST FRIENDS WHO WERE BOYS JOHNNY , CHARLES , MICHAEL AND PETERWHO HAD A GERMAN LAST NAME AND HAD A VERY HIGH FOREHEAD AND SORT OF REDDISH THIN HAIR. MY BEST GIRLFRIEND WAS MERTA. WE ALL HUNG OUT TOGETHER . BUT IT WAS MOSTLY JOHNNIE , CHARLES AND MIKE I RAN AROUND WITH.

MIKE TOOK ME TO THE SNOWBALL FORMAL AND I HAD A CRUSH ON BOBBY AND MIKE WAS SO SWEET HE ASKED ME IF I WANTED BOBBY TO TAKE ME HOME I SAID NO I CAME WITH YOU I GO HOME WITH YOU. POOR MIKE HE HAD A CRUSH ON ME ALL MY TEENS I JUST SAW HIM AS A BEST FRIEND. AND HE ALWAYS TREATED ME WITH UTTER RESPECT. I ALWAYS LOVED BOBBY. BUT WE SAW EACH OTHER NOT TOO OFTEN AS HIS MOM KEPT HIM REALLY BUSY. THAT WAS OK.

WE DID THINGS LIKE SING OPERAS, PLAY THE PIANO AND HANG OUT LISTENING TO MUSIC USUALLY CLASSICAL, WE WENT TO BALLETS, MOVIES AND ETC. THEY TAUGHT ME ABOUT THE CLASSICAL LIFE IT WAS GREAT, AND WE NEVER HAD ANY SEXUAL ACTIVITY WE JUST DID STUFF FOR FUN. WE DIDN'T EVEN DISCUSS SEX IT WASN'T NEEDED. WE DID A FEW NAUGHTY THINGS LIKE ONCE JOHNNY STOLE SOME CONDOMS AT A DRUG STORE, AND TOOK THEM AND FILLED THE WITH SUGAR AT A RESTAURANT AND LEFT THEM HAHA.
A SCHOOL MATE OF MINE SAID A RUMOR HAD STARTED THAT WE GOT CONDOMS AND I DID ALL THE BOYS... FARTHEST THING FROM THE TRUTH WE NEVER DID THAT STUFF.
WE USED TO PLAY HOOKY AND GO TO THE INDIAN RUINS AND TO THE RESERVATIONS AND AT TIMES WE SHOPLIFTED INDIAN JEWELRY FRO TRADING POSTS AND TOOK IT TO THE RESERVATIONS AND GAVE IT TO THE INDIANS WE THOUGHT WE DID GOOD. THOSE TRADERS STOLE THAT BEAUTIFUL ART FOR NOTHING AND SOLD IT FOR A FORTUNE. IT WAS A ROBIN HOOD THING WE DID TWICE.
WE THOUGHT IT WAS NOBLE. WE WERE KIDS WITH VALUES . WE KNEW HOW BADLY THE INDIANS HAD BEEN RAPED.
THEY WERE SO POOR .
I STILL FEEL A DEEP ACHE IN MY HEART ABOUT THE INDIANS IN AMERICA AND HOW BADLY THEY WERE TREATED I SAW IT FIRST HAND. HUNGER AND POVERTY WERE SO GRIM.
AND I HAD SUFFERED FROM HUNGER AS A CHILD. I KNEW WHAT THAT MEANT.
WELL AS I GREW MY FRIENDS WERE EVEN CLOSER TO ME, AND WHEN ANY GUYS TRIED TO DATE ME THEY PROTECTED ME FROM THEIR HORNY HANDS HAHA. ONE GUY BEGGED CHARLES TO INTRODUCE US HE SAID I WAS THE MOST ATTRACTIVE GIRL HE'D EVER SEEN. WELL, CHARLES REFUSED TO DO SO, AND UNLESS YOU WERE INTRODUCED TO SOMEONE IT WAS CONSIDERED A CHEAP THING TO RELATE TO A STRANGER THEY WERE NOT GOING TO LET ME BE CHEAP.
THAT IS A PAGE OUT OF MY TEENS .
IT WAS NOT A BAD TEENHOOD. I DID HAVE A RUNIN WITH MY SOCIAL WORKER THOUGH AT AGE 16 WHEN SHE TOLD ME I HAD TO WORK AND EARN MY OWN LIVIGN BUT SHE WOULD CONTINUE TO BOSS ME AROUND THAT WAS WHENI DECIDE TO GO ON MY OWN. IF I HAD TO EARN MY OWN LIVING WHY DID I NEED HER?
SO I LEFT.