AND NOW ITS MONDAY AM

AAAH, I AM TIRED TODAY, I HAVE TO GO TO THE DOCTOR OR ELSE ID SLEEP TIL NOON.

ALL THESE DOCTOR APPTS ARE EATING UP MY LIFE.
ANYWAYS I KEEP THEM IN YACHTS MANSIONS AND VACATIONS NOT TO MENTION THEIR BLEACHED BLOND WIVES TRIPS TO SALONS TO BE BEAUTIFUL.

EVERY DOCTOR I HAVE MET HAD A WIFE LIKE THAT. AND THE DIVORCES I WATCHED !! THEM DOCS GET THE MONEY WHACKED OUTTA THEM AND THEY START TO CHARGE MORE TO COVER IT.

AND ALL THE DOCTORS I WORKED WITH WERE SO EASILY MANIPULATED BY CLEVER WOMEN INTO MARRIAGE. THANK GOD I ESCAPED THAT TRAP.

BECOMING A DOCTOR I MEANT. HAHAH SOCIAL WORKERS HARDLY EVER DIE RICH OR MAKE ENOUGH TO ATTRACT ANYONE EXCEPT A HOMELESS MAN.

ALL THIS IS TONGUE IN CHEEK OR HAVE YOU GUESSED?

MOST DOCTORS DO START OUT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE OR TO MAKE THEIR MILLIONS THE BEST ONES DO BOTH.

WITHOUT A DOCTOR I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE DIED SOONER, SINCE I WAS NOTED TO HAVE A LEAKY VALVE IN MY HEART AND THEY CAREFULLY MONITOR IT FOR ME.

THEY GAVE ME PILLS TO SLOW MY BLOOD PRESSURE ALTHOUGH MY PRESSURE RAN 110 OVER 70 AND PULSE AT 55 TO 60 ALL MY LIFE . NOW MY PRESSURE CANT BE 110 OVER 70 WITHOUT THE PILLS THANKS PILLS YOU HAVE MADE ME REGULAR. THE ONLY TIME MY PRESSURE JUMPS UP IS WHEN THEY PUMP MY ARM UP TO 200 AND THE PAIN DRIVES IT UP. I TELL THEM I ONLY NEED THEM TO GO TO 175 BUT THEY NEVER LISTEN. A VESTED INTEREST IN PROVING MY PRESSURE IS HIGHER THAN IT IS.

MY CHOLESTEROL IS GOOD BUT I TAKE THOSE PILLS TOO DOCS ORDERS BUT THEY ALWAYS KNOW BEST.
I HAD A READING OF 150 THAT IS GREAT READING AND MY TRIGLYCERIDES WERE GOOD TOO. I KNOW HOW TO READ MEDICAL CHARTS I HAD TO READ THEM TO DIAGNOSE MENTAL PROBLEMS IN A HOSPITAL. BUT ONE DOC I HAVE REFUSES TO LET ME SEE MY CHART LIKE ITS A SECRET. HIS HELPERS ORDER ME TO COME IN FOR TESTS AND REFUSE TO TELL ME WHY.
EVEN THOUGH A LAW HAS BEEN PASSED THAT I HAVE A RIGHT TO COPIES OF ALL MY RECORDS I HAVE A HARD TIME GETTING THEM FROM THIS ONE DOC. HIS HELPERS HAVE FULL CONTROL OVER HIM AND PATIENTS. THE TAIL IS WAGGING THAT DOG.
OKAY TIME FOR MY HISTORY LESSON: WHEN I WAS A KID MY MOM ONCE LIVED IN THIS HOUSE THAT HAD DIRT FLOORS. WE OWNED OUR OWN HOUSE, BUT MY UNCLES AND AUNT WANTED IT SO THEY FILED COURT DOCUMENTS SAYING THEY NEEDED MONEY TO HELP ME AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER.
WE DIDN'T GET A CENT THEY KEPT ALL THE RENT FROM IT, WHEN MY MOM FILED A COURT ORDER WE EACH GOT A CHECK FOR 7.00 AFTER A COUPLE OF YEARS OF RENTING IT OUT WHERE THEY TOOK EVERY CENT THEY COUNTERED WITH USING THE MONEY TO MAKE REPAIRS WHAT REPAIRS? IT WAS AN ADOBE HOUSE WITH ELECTRICITY AND A WOOD STOVE FOR HEAT WHEN WE GOT IT BACK ALL OUR FURNITURE WAS GONE AND THE FRONT ROOM FLOOR HAD BEEN RIPPED OUT AND WAS ON THE DIRT. MY MOM HAD THE FLOOR REPLACED I CANT REMEMBER WITH WHAT BUT WE HAD LINOLEUM OVER WHATEVER IT WAS.

OUR WALLS WERE CALSOMINED EACH SPRING THERE. AND I LOVED THE WINDOWS MADE FOR SITTING ON AND LOOKING OUTDOORS. WE HAD A WOOD STOVE IN THE KITCHEN AND THAT WAS THE ONLY HEAT I REMEMBER HAVING. WE USED EMPTY WINE BOTTLES TO PUT HOT WATER IN AND WRAPPED THAT IN A RAG TO WARM OUR FEET IN BED.

I CAN REMEMBER ALL MY LIFE MY UNCLES AND AUNT SUING US FOR THIS HOUSE MY GRANDFATHER LEFT US, THEY SAID HE ONLY LET US HAVE IT BECAUSE HE DIDN'T WANT US KIDS TO BE HOMELESS BUT BY LAW THEY WERE THE ONLY HEIRS ENTITLED TO THE PROPERTY. THIS WAS AN ONGOING HASSLE MY ENTIRE LIFE MY MOM WORRIED ABOUT LOSING OUR HOUSE AND HAVING TO HIRE LAWYERS ALL THE TIME. I GUESS THAT IS WHERE MOST OF OUR MONEY WENT PAYING LAWYERS TO KEEP OUR HOME. WE WERE SO POOR AND ALL OF OUR UNCLES AND AUNT WERE QUITE WEALTHY. GREEDY PEOPLE.

OUR LIVES WERE SO STRESSED AND OUR POOR MOTHER BARELY GOT BY . SHE MARRIED OUR STEP FATHER OUT OF NEED FOR INCOME AND HIS INCOME WAS SPORADIC AT BEST.

WE SPENT MANY RIDES ON THE ROAD IN HIS TRUCK DRIVING DAYS WE RODE IN THE BACK OF THE SEMIS HE DROVE AND HE WOULD LEAVE THE BACK END OPEN AND WE HUNG OUR LEGS OUT AND ATE WHATEVER FRUITS HE WAS DELIVERING ALL THE WAY I REMEMBER EATING SO MANY BANANAS THAT I'M NOT VERY FOND OF THEM ANYMORE. IN PRESENT TIMES WE WOULD HAVE BEEN CONSIDERED ABUSED NEGLECTED KIDS BY THIS MAN AND IN TIME OUR RELATIVES MANAGED TO DO JUST THAT THE ONLY PROBLEM WAS ONLY OUR AUNT WOULD TAKE OUR SISTER IN HER HOME THE REST OF US WENT INTO FOSTER CARE FOR MANY YEARS.

I WAS GLAD FOR MY SECOND HOME IT WAS VERY STABLE AND I WAS ALLOWED FREEDOM TO EXPLORE MY SURROUNDINGS AND HANG OUT WITH MY ONE BEST FRIEND. I EXCELLED IN SCHOOL WITH STRAIGHT A'S AN NO ONE WHO EVEN CARED HAHA.
I USED TO LIKE TO WALK DOWN THIS LITTLE STREAM ON GARCIA STREET AND I THINK CANYON ROAD THERE WAS A BRIDGE OVER IT AND I WENT INTO THE STREAM BED TO WALK AND WADE AND IN WINTER I SLID ON THE ICE. IT WAS BEHIND MANY LOVELY HOUSES AND I WOULD LOOK AT THEM AND SEE THE PRETTY GRASS YARDS THAT WENT DOWN TO THE STREAM. AFTER A BIG RAIN IT WOULD REALLY LOAD UP WITH WATER AND THAT WAS A LOT OF FUN TOO BUT YOU ALWAYS HAD TO WATCH FRO BROKEN BOTTLES IN STREAMS BECAUSE SOME IDIOTS ALWAYS THREW THEM IN THERE AND IT CUT OUR FEET. ANYTIME IT RAINED IN SUMMER I WOULD GO OUT TO PLAY IN IT.
THEY HAD NO SEWERS WATER OVERFLOW WAS HANDLED BY LITTLE DITCHES ALONG THE STREETS A VERITABLE FUN AND HAZARD FILLED PLAY GROUND FOR US IN OUR BARE FEET . WE ALL WENT BAREFOOT ALL SUMMER WHAN WINTER CAME WE WOULD HAVE OUTGROWN OUR SHOES. AND WE HAD TO WEAR THOSE DARNED RUBBER BOOTS TO KEEP OUR FEET FROM GETTIGN WET ALL WINTER IN THE SNOW. PROBLEM? THEY WERE TOO SMALL TO GO OVER NEW SHOES AND WE FORCED THEM IN CAUSING MISERY AND BREAKS IN THE RUBBER AND LEAKS INTO OUR FEET.

BUT WE LIVED THROUGH ALL THIS. AND HERE I AM AND THERE ARE MY SIBS ONLY ONE BROTHER HAS DIED... JUNIOR HE WAS THE SWEETEST GENTLEST PERSON I HAVE EVER KNOWN. HE WAS MODERATELY RETARDED. BUT HE WORKED AT A JOB AND HAD A HOME HIS OWN BLESS HIS HEART.

WHEN I LEFT HOME AT MY TENDER AGE I LEFT AND ABONDONED ALL THEM BEHIND BECAUSE THEUR REMINDERS OF MY BAD TIMES KEPT ME AWAY.
I ONLY SAW THEM ALL AT MAMAS HOUSE AFEW TIMES AND AFTER I MARRIED, ONLY ONCE FOR HER FUNERAL . I WAS 23 WHEN SHE DIED AND I HAD 2 TINY BOYS. EVERYONE THOUGHT THEY WERE TWINS BECAUSE THEY WERE SO CLOSE IN AGE. I HAD THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN.

ALL BLOND TOWHEADS AND HAD EITHER BLUE OR GREEN EYES OR A HAZY GREEN AND AMBER.