Monday, December 29, 2008

ANOTHER DAY WE GET FROM GOD

I AM SO HAPPY!! I WOKE UP ALIVE AGAIN. WHEN YOU ARE IN YOUR 70'S EVERY DAY IS A GIFT. I CHECK ON DAD EVERY MORNING TOO HES 77 AND HES HAD 1 STROKE SO I MAKE SURE HES GONNA WAKE UP AS WELL.
TODAY IS MONDAY AGAIN, AND WE DONT HAVE TO GO TO WORK. FOR ABOUT 56 YEARS I HAVE WORKED IN MY LIFE, WITH A FEW TIMES OFF TO HAVE 4 KIDS.
I REMEMBER WHEN MONDAY MORNING WAS SO BAD THAT I FELT BAD ALL DAY SUNDAY ABOUT GOING TO WORK. I FINALLY GOT A JOB WHERE I COULD WORK 4-10-40'S AND I GOT MONDAYS OFF.
THEN I WAS HAPPY.
THE SUN IS SHINING AND ITS COLD OUT. IT FROZE LAST NIGHT.
HARD TO BELEIVE IN HOT ARIZONA HUH?
I DO LOVE THIS WEATHER ITS ALMOST LIKE SACRAMENTO EXCEPT IN SUMMER THE NIGHTS DO NOT COOL DOWN.
BUT WINTERS ARE A LOT ALIKE ALTHOUGH IN SACTO IT RAINS A LOT MORE IN WINTER AND NEVER AT ALL IN SUMMER. HERE IT RAINS WHEN THE RAIN GODS CHOOSE IT AND WE HAVE THUNDER AND LIGHTENING IN SACTO YOU DONT GET THE T&L.

MOST PEOPLE HERE ARE FRIENDLY ALSO SAME AS SACTO. WE MET 2 SYRIAN FAMILIES AT THE HEALTH STORE CALLED SPROUT'S LAST WEEK WHEN WE SHOPPED FOR OUR TURKEY AND CHRISTMAS FOODS. WELL THES E WERE THE NICEST PEOPLE I HAD MET IN AWHILE. THEY HAD LOVELY FRIENDLY CHILDREN WHO REALLY LIKED TO TALK TO US AND THERE WERE 2 BABIES AS WELL AND THEY WERE ADORABLE. THE MOMS WERE DRESSED IN CULTURAL GARB WHICH WAS PRETTY.
I IMAGINE ITS HEAVEN HERE COMPARED TO SYRIA AND ALL THEIR MESS THERE.
I PRAY WE CAN KEEP OUR PLEASANT LIVES FOR A LONG TIME TO COME. ALTHOUGH THIS DEPRESSION IS HURTING A LOT OF PEOPLE IN THE US . I APPROVE OF OBAMAS IDEA TO RUN THINGS LIKE ROOSEVELT DID WHEN WE LIVED THRU THE OTHER BAD DEPRESSION. GOD IT WAS BAD WE WENT HUNGRY AT TIMES WHEN I WAS A CHILD. THE PLAN IS TO USE THE TAX MONEY TO CREATE WORK FOR UNEMPLOYED FOLKS AND MAKE OUR COUNTRY BETTER BY CREATING PROJECTS THAT REALLY HELP OUR COUNTRY AS ROOSEVELT DID.
AND WE REALLY NEED A RETURN TO REAL HONEST VALUES AND MORALS WHICH ARE THE BASIS OF A HEALTHY COUNTRY AND ECONOMY. THE LESS THEIVES IN GOVERNEMENT THE BETTER THINGS ARE FOR EVERYONE.
ANYWAY I NOTICE MANY CHILDREN HERE ARE BEING TAKEN TO CHURCH AND SEEM TO RESPECT ELDERLY FOLKS.
NOT TAT WE DONT HAVE OUR LOCAL CRIMINALS BUT THEY HAVE A GREAT PROGREAM HERE IN ARIZONA , THEY GATHER A TASK FORCE FROM THE WHOLE STATE AND CLEAN UP CRIME ONE TOWN AT A TIME, AND THEY ROTATE THE CLEANUP SO NO CRIMINALS CAN CONCENTRATE ON ONE AREA FRO LONG. WHEN THEY DID IT IN OUR LITTLE TOWN WHICH BY THE WAY NOW HAS A POP OF 54000, UP FROM 28000 WHEN WE ARRIVED 4 YEARS AGO.
THEY REALLY DID A JOB AND CONTINUE TO DO SO.
THE PAPER PUBLISHES EACH ARREST AND EACH COURT HEARING AND WHAT HAPPENED IN EACH CASE SO YOU CAN FOLLOW IT ALL. WE HAVE A SMALL DAILY NEWS PAPER CALLED THE DISPATCH AND THEY DO PRETTY WELL WITH LOCAL STUFF.

WE HAVE THE GROWING PAINS OF A SUDDEN SPURT IN GROWTH.
BUT THER ARE ADVANTAGES WE HAVE AN IN N OUT AND A MIMIS AND AN OLIVE GARDEN AND MANY MEXICAN RESTAURANTS , APITA SHOP AND SEVERAL SANDWICH PLACES. WE HAD THIS GREAT LITTLE PLACE CALLED BANDANA'S WHICHSERVED GREAT BURGERS AND SALADS AND SOUPS WITH A BEAUTIFUL PATIO OUT DOORS WITH THE CACTI AND FOUNTAINS AND ALL BUT NOW THEY HAVE CHANGED HANDS ANITS A DIFFERENT PLACE NOT YET CONVERTED INTO WHATEVER PLACE IT WILL BE I WONDER IF THEY WILL KEEP THE CHARM OF THE OLD PLACE.
ONE OF MY FAVOIRITE PLACES IS THE CACTUS RETAUARANT ITS AN OLD ADOBE HOUSE AND THEY HAVE AN OLD TIME MUSUEUM AND A CACTUS GARDEN THATS AMAZING, I REALLY LIKE IT BUT POP DOESNT.
THERE ARE A LOT OF PLACES I HAVE NOT BEEN CUZ DAD DOESNT LIEK TO EXPLORE STUFF LIKE ME.
ANYWAYS IM SOON GONNA GO SEE THAT FRANCISO GRANDE PLACE OUT OF CURIOSITY.

Friday, December 26, 2008

CHRISTMAS AT OUR HOUSE

WELL WE HAD 5 FOLKS OVER FOR CHRISTMAS MY SON HIS WIFE AND OUR GOOD SON WHO IS ADOPTED . THEY CAME FOR CHRISTMAS EVE DAY AND I FIXED BREAKFAST THEN FOR DINNER I PREPARED PRIME RIB WITH SALAD VEGGIES AND PIE FOR DESSERT. WE OPENED PRESENTS AFTER CLEANUP FROM DINNER THIS YEAR WE DECIDED WE HAVE EVERYTHING WE WANT SO ONLY DVDS AND SMALL GIFTS WERE ALLOWED. COMPANY WENT TO BED EARLY AT ABOUT 830 -930 AND DAD WENT DOWN TOO I STAYED UP TIL 1030 AND FELL ASLEEP SOON AFTER. WE AWOKE AND I HAD MADE A LITTLE PRESENT FOR EACH OF MY KIDS IN THE FORM OF AN ENVELOPE ...WITH A LITTLE IN PRESENT IN IT.
MY GRANDDAUGHTER AND HER HUBBY'S PRESENTS STILL SIT UNDER THE TREE SHE HAD OTHER PLANS FOR CHRISTMAS SO WE WONT SEE HER TIL GOD KNOWS WHEN.

ANYWAY I MAY DEDUCT PARTS OF HER BEST PRESENT FOR EACH DAY I DON'T SEE HER HAHHA.

WHEN SHE WAS UNMARRIED WE COULD ALWAYS COUNT ON SEEING HER ON EACH HOLIDAY BUT NOW... SHE HAS OTHER OBLIGATIONS MUCH MORE IMPORTANT FOR HER. THIS HAPPENS WHEN A CHILD YOU LOVE MARRIES THEY DON'T NEED YOU MUCH ANYMORE DANG IT.
BUT WE HAD A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS NEVER THE LESS I COOKED A TURKEY BREAST AND A HAM FOR CHRISTMAS DINNER WITH MULTIPLE FIXINGS.

EVERYONE HAD A SPECIAL THING THEY DID SINCE WE HAVE A COMPUTER FOR THEM THEY CAN DO THAT OR WATCH THE BIG SCREEN AND IT WAS LOADED WITH HOLIDAY FARE.
WE SAW MIRACLE ON 34TH ST UNTIL WE DECIDED IT WAS BORING AND WE SAW PARTS OF MANY CHRISTMAS SHOWS AND MOVIES WE WATCH LIKE HYPER PEOPLE TALK EAT WATCH PLAY A GAME ETC. IT WAS VERY RESTFUL EXCEPT MY BACK WAS HURTING A LOT DAMN BACK.
BUT WE HAD A LOVING VISIT AND SUNDAY WE WILL VISIT AGAIN IN AW AT WHERE MY SON LIVES.

Monday, December 22, 2008

ANOTHER WEEKEND ANOTHER TIME

WHEN YOU GET OLD,TIME GOES BY SO MUCH FASTER THAN WHEN YOU ARE YOUNG.
YOUNG PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS WAITING FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN OR FOR A SPECIAL EVENT .
OLD PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS WISHING TIME WOULD SLOW DOWN.
WHEN I WAS YOUNG I COULD WAKE UP DASH THRU BREAKFAST THEN READ AWHILE THEN GO SHOPPING , GO TO LUNCH WHILE SHOPPING, TAKE IN A MOVIE , MEET FREINDS FOR A DRINK WHEN I WAS OLD ENOUGH, GO HOME AND TRY ON MY PURCHASES CALL FREINDS CHAT FOR AWHILE, DO HOME WORK, GO OUT TO DINNER, COME HOME WATCH TV AND THEN READ AWHILE AND GO TO BED. AND IT ONLY TOOK ABOUT 15 HOURS.
NOW, I WAKE UP DRINK WATER, FEED THE CAT LET HIM OUT OPEN THE COMPUTER WRITE ON MY BLOG READ MAIL, CHAT WITH A FRIEND OR WRITE AN EMAIL OR TWO, THINK ABOUT BREAKFAST, LET THE CAT BACK IN MAKE SURE HE HAS FOOD,AND I HAVE USED UP ABOUT 3 HOURS BY NOW. AND IM GETTING READY TO REST.
DAD WAKES UP LATER THAN I AND HE RUNS AROUND MAKES COFFEE TALKS TO HIMSELF , I TRY TO LISTEN.
THEN WE GET READY TO GOTO HIS APPOINTMENT WITH THE DENTIST (THIS HAPPENS ONCE A WEEK ) SIT IN THE DENTISTS OFFICE FOR HALF AN HOUR THEN I SIT AND WAIT ANOTHER HOUR WHILE THEY DO SOEMTHING EXPENSIVE TO HIS TEETH.
THEN WE GO TO STARBUCKS OR TO MIMIS DEPENDS, THEN WE HAVE USED UP ANOTHER 2 HOURS THEN WE GO BY THE PHARMACY PICK UP MEDS THEN TO THE POST OFFICE AND PICK UP MAIL, THEN GO HOME, DAD GOES BACK ON HIS COMPUTER, I TURN ON THE TV (ITS ABOUT 230PM BY THEN), HE PLAYS HIS GAME AND WRITES ENDLESSLY ON HIS BLOG , THEN THE JUDGES COEM ON HE EITHER WATCHES OR LISTENS AND IS ON HIS COMPUTER I TAKE A NAP MOST TIMES BY THEN. I WAKE UP AFTER 500PM, I MAY COOK SOEMTHING OR FIX SOEMTHIGN TO EAT BY THEN, IT GETS TO BE AROUND 700PM AND WE LOOK FORWARD TO SPECIAL SHOWS ON TV, THEN END UP IN BED. BY ABOUT 1100 PM OR 100AM. GO TO BED THEN NEXT DAY TUESDAY WE DRIVE TO CHANDLER GOTOT BREKAKFAST GOTO THE BOOK STORE AND READ AND BROWSE FOR A FEW HOURS THEN GOTO TRADEWR JOES AND THEN THE LIBRARY THEN HOME OR WE MIGHT GO TO THE MALL FOR AWHILE THIS WEEK WE HAVE TO SHOP FOR A TURKEY BREAST ROAST CHRISTMAS FOODS AND LAST LITTLE THINGS WE MAY HAVE TO GIVE AWAY.
ALL THESE THINGS HAPPEN IN ABOUT 4 HOURS YOUR TIME AND 12 HOURS MINE.
I GUESS I COULD CALL THIS A DAY IN THE LIFE OF OLD PEOPLE.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

WHY SATURDAYS ARE GOOD

SATURDAYS ARE GOOD FOR THE WORKING FOLKS BECAUSE YOU GET TO REST OR RUN AROUND AND HAVE FUN OR TAKE CARE OF CHORES YOU COULDNT DO WHILE AT WORK.
ALSO GOOD IF YA GOT A COLD CUZ YOU CAN REST WITH NO FEAR A WORKING PERSON ALWAYS FEELS GUILTY THAT THEY ARE MISSING WORK WHEN THEY ARE SICK, I KNOW ITS NOT FAIR BUT MOST PEOPLE WITH A CONSCIENCE FEEL THAT WAY. I THINK THE FEAR COMES FROM FEAR OF SURVIVAL, THAT WHILE YOU ARE GOEN THEY FIND YOURE NOT NEEDED AND THEY WILL REPLACE YOU. AND IF THIS SHOULD HAPPEN YOU WILL DIE OF STARVATION AND HOMELESSNESS AND COLD AND ETC. WELL, YOU KNOW IF YOU LOOK AT IT.
ALSO IF YOU HAVE A CHRONIC ILLNESS YOU FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE YOU FEEL YOU SHOULD BE DOING SOEMTHING AND NOT LIVING OFF DISABILITY OR A RELATIVE OR ETC....
OK NOW THAT WE LOOKED AT THAT, WHAT DOES A RETIRED PERSON FEEL BECAUSE THEY DONT HAVE TO GO TO WORK? WELL A RETIRED PERSON WORRIES THAT THEIR VERY SMALL NEST EGG WILL BE LOST DUE TO GREEDY DENTISTS WHO LOVE TO CHEAT PEOPLE OUT OF THEIR SACVINGS BY CHARGING OUTRAGEOUS RATES FOR PROCEDURES THEY CREATE WITH THEIR POKING AND PROBING ANYWAY. ONCE THEY FINALLY HAVE GOOD HEALTH INSURANCE THATS WHEN THE GREEDY DENTISTS TAKE OVER THE ROBBERY OF SAVINGS. I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT FOR PROCEDURES WE ONCE PAID $600 FOR THEY NOW CHARGE $6200.UNBELEIVABLE. WHEN I GET TO HEAVEN I WILL SEND ALL DENTISTS TO HELL.

Friday, December 19, 2008

MY MIND JUST WANDERS

I STARTED TO GIVE THE HISTORY OF MY LIFE THEN MEANDERED INTO OTHER STUFF THEN I TELL OF DAILY EXPERIENCES THEN I FORGET WHERE I WAS.
THIS IS THE MIND OF A DUMB BLOND FOLKS AND ALTHO IM NO LONGER BLOND I WAS ONCE FOR 19 YEARS.
I THINK IM PERMANENTLY MENTAlly BLONDED.
MY HAIR IS BECOMING SILVER DOWNGRADED FROM ITS ORIGINAL GOLD.

I SAW A PICTURE OF MYSELF FROM MY DAYS IN SACRAMENTO AND I LOOKED SO OLD AND SO GRIEF STRICKEN THAT I HAVE GIVEN UP ON BEAUTY IDEAS. IM OLD AND MUST FACE IT MY FACE HAS SURRENDERED TO GRAVITY AS WELL AS MY WHOLE BODY WHICH INCIDENTALLY HAS SURRENDERED TO FAT AND FLAB.
SO NOW I CAN EAT ANYTHING I WANT AND AWAIT MY PUNISHMENT THRU DEATH OF ABANDONMENT OF BODY ISSUES HAHHA
WHAT A JOKE ON THE HEALTH EXPERTS HUH?
WELL I AM ALMOST 73 AND I THINK I KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR ME, AND ITS CERTAINLY NOT A DIET FOR LOSING WEIGHT. ANY WEIGHT LOSS WILL ONLY EXACERBATE MY FLAB. BETTER TO HAVE FIRM FAT THAN LOOSE FLAB. NO AMOUNT OF EXERCISE IS GONNA TONE THIS OLD THING UP.
BESIDES LOOK AT ALL THOSE WILD EXERCISORS THEY DIE IN THEIR 50'S AND 60'S.
THEY WEAR OUT THEIR BODIES AND LIVE SHORTER LIVES THAN ME. I PLAN TO GET TO 120 JUST TO ANNOY MY KIDS AND FRIENDS.
WITH THE FLAB AND FAT AND SAGGING JAWLINE. SO THERE.
WELP THATS MY THOUGHT FOR THE DAY.
P.S.
I FULLY PLAN TO ACQUIRE A PLACE IN HEAVEN SHOULD IT EXIST.
AND IF IT DOESNT AND I REINCARNATE I PLAN TO BE BORN AS A TALL WILLOWY BLOND FROM A WEALTHY FAMILY THAT IS GIVEN M,ONEY TO START SOCIAL SERVICE PROGRAMS BY THE DOZENS .
I WILL TAKE CARE OF THE MENTALLY ILL AS BEST I CAN.
AND IF THERES NOTHING AFTER WELL ILL JUST FADE AWAY AND LEAVE BEHIND MY MEMORIES OF MY LIFE IN MY GRAND CHILD.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

ROMAN S WERE PAGANS

Roman Paganism
The religion of Rome

If anything, the Romans had a practical attitude to religion, as to most things, which perhaps explains why they themselves had difficulty in taking to the idea of a single, all-seeing, all-powerful god.
In so far as the Romans had a religion of their own, it was not based on any central belief, but on a mixture of fragmented rituals, taboos, superstitions, and traditions which they collected over the years from a number of sources.
To the Romans, religion was less a spiritual experience than a contractual relationship between mankind and the forces which were believed to control people's existence and well-being.
The result of such religious attitudes were two things: a state cult, the significant influence on political and military events of which outlasted the republic, and a private concern, in which the head of the family oversaw the domestic rituals and prayers in the same way as the representatives of the people performed the public ceremonials.
However, as circumstances and people's view of the world changed, individuals whose personal religious needs remained unsatisfied turned increasingly during the first century AD to the mysteries, which were of Greek origin, and to the cults of the east.

JESUS STUDIED WITH THE BEST MYSTICS

BEFORE CHRIST BEGAN HIS MINISTRY HE TRAVELLED ALL OVER THE EASTERN WORLD AND STUDIED WITH THE MYSTICS OF THAT DAY AND BEGAN HIS MINISTRY AT AGE 30 WHICH ONLY LASTED 3 YEARS, AFTER WHICH HE WAS KILLED BY THOSE CRAZY FNATICAL RELIGIOUS ZEALOTS OF THE DAY. JESUS WAS JEWISH REMEMBER? AND HE SAID HE DIDNT COME TO DESTROY THE LAW BUT TO FULFILL IT. THE ROMANS WERE PRIMARILY WORSHIPPERS OF MANY GODS.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

DO NOT ADJUST YOUR MIND:

DO NOT ADJUST YOUR MIND:IT IS REALITY THAT IS MALFUNCTIONING

CLOAK OF THE ILLUMINATI

I AM READING THIS BOOK NAMED THE ABOVE TITLE.IT IS BY WILLIAM HENRY . THE OTHER NIGHT I WAS WATCHING A PROGRAM ON TELEVISION AND IT WAS ABOUT THE ONE DOLLAR BILL, THE EYE IN THE TRIANGLE AND WHERE THE DESIGN ON THE DOLLAR BILL CAME FROM. IT APPEARS IT IS A DESIGN DEVELOPED BY A MASON AND HAS ALL KINDS OF MEANINGS AND THIS BOOK I AM NOW READING IS ABOUT ALL THIS TOO.
THE MASONS ALLEGEDLY ALL ARE PART OF THE ILLUMINATI CONSPIRACY TO CREATE A ONE WORLD ORDER. AND IT IS ALL RELATED TO CHRIST. CHRIST IS A TITLE IT MEANS "THE ANOINTED".
AT ANY RATE IT IS A FASCINATING BOOK
File:Washington Monument Dusk Jan 2006.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia IT TALKS ABOUT THE PYRAMID ATOP THE MONUMENT AND HOW IT IS MADE SO THAT NO MATTER WHERE YOU LOOK AT IT FROM YOU CAN SEE THE PYRAMID ATOP IT.

THAT IS A LINK TO A
PICTURE OF IT IN WIKIPEDIA
IT ALSO SHOWS HOW EVERYTHING IS SOMEHOW TIED TO THE EGYPTIAN TEMPLE MYSTERIES.
AT ANY RATE IT IS QUITE INTERESTING. I BEGAN FINDING IT INTERESTING WHEN I READ THE BOOKS BY ROBERT SHEA AND ROBERT ANTON WILSON IN THE 70'S IT STARTED WITH A TRILOGY OF HIS WRITINGS ONE WAS THE EYE IN THE PYRAMID ONE WAS THE GOLDEN APPLE AND THE THIRD WAS LEVIATHAN. TODAY THE TRILOGY IS AVAILABLE IN ONE LARGE VOLUME.

AT ANY RATE IT CALLED THE ULTIMATE CONSPIRACY BOOK AND WHEN IT WAS PUBLISHED IN 1975 IT TOLD OF MANY THINGS THAT WOULD HAPPEN WITH A TONGUE IN CHEEK SORT OF WAY. BUT IT WAS A PREDICTOR OF WHAT THE US GOVERNMENT WAS GOING TO DO AND RICHARD NIXON WAS IN POWER AT THE TIME. IT SHOWED HIS DOWNFALL AND ALL THE STRANGE THINGS THAT WERE GOING ON ON THOSE DAYS. A VERY AMAZING PROPHETIC SERIES OF BOOKS. AFTER THIS ROBERT ANTON WILSON WROTE ANOTHER TRILOGY AND THEN ANOTHER HE IS AN AMAZING MAN ALMOST A MODERN DAY PROPHET. HE WROTE A TRILOGY AFTER CALLED COSMIC TRIGGER THEN SCHROEDINGER'S CAT , AND MANY MORE AFTER HE IS AN AMAZING PERSON. HE SEEMS NEVER TO RUN OUT OF IDEAS FOR GREAT BOOKS.
HERE IS A LINK TO HIS BLOG
RAW Data
HE STARTED THE DISCORDIAN SOCIETY WHICH BECAME A TONGUE IN CHEEK TYPE OF MEMBERSHIP MY SECOND SON STILL PRACTICES DISCORDIA WHEREVER IDIOCY IS NOTED HE ADDS A NOTE TO IT.

MY HUSBAND AS WELL DOES IT SOMETIMES TO THE POINT WHERE I WANNA HIT HIM WHEN I'M THE BUTT OF HIS DISCORDIA.
AT ANY RATE I WAS DELIGHTED TO REDISCOVER MY YOUTH IN THESE BOOKS THAT I SO MUCH LOVED IN THE 70S AND 80S WHEN THE WORLD SEEMED MORE SANE AND MORE APPROACHABLE AND MORE FUN TO LIVE IN.
IT SEEMS SOMEHOW THE CREATIVITY OF THE 70S HAS SUNK TO THE BOTTOM WHERE WE ARE EATEN UP BY THE MATERIALISTIC BOTTOM FEEDERS OF SOCIETY (THOSE WHO CAN ONLY THINK ABOUT GETTING ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD SO THEY WONT DIE TYPES).
AT ANY RATE I AM THANKFUL TO HAVE LIVED IN THE DAYS WHEN SPIRIT WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN DESIGNER CLOTHES AND JUNK.
AND I SUPPOSE I'M THE DREGS OF WHAT IS LEFT OF THAT SOCIETY.
WHO LISTENS TO PROPHETS NOWADAYS?
WHO EVEN CARES? WHO REALLY WANTS TO SERVE MANKIND QUIETLY ?
EVERYONE REQUIRES A REWARD, A PLAQUE, OR A PAYCHECK. AT ANY RATE READ ABOUT THE REAL WORLD AS IT CONNECTS TO THE SPIRIT FOLKS AN I DON'T MEAN JUST ANY THING READ RELEVANCE.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

GRAMA GOES TO SCHOOL

WHEN I WAS 27 YEARS OLD I DECIDED I NEEDED TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND GET MY DIPLOMA SINCE I DROPPED OUT IN 10TH GRADE DUE TO MY EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS AT THE TIME.
WHEN I WAS 16 I RAN AWAY FROM HOME WITH A GIRLFRIEND AND A GUY FRIEND AND WE WENT ALL THE WAY TO NEW ORLEANS MY GIRLFRIEND DECIDED TO WORK FOR A TRAVELING MAGAZINE SALES GROUP AND SHE PROMPTLY DISAPPEARED ONLY TO RESURFACE IN ORANGE COUNTY CALIF AT HER GRAND MOTHERS HOUSE LATER . WE STAYED AT THIS LADY'S HOUSE UNTIL ONE OF OUR FRIENDS IN SANTA FE TOLD THE COPS WHERE WE WERE AND THEY CAME AND GOT US AND SENT US TO JUVIE UNTIL THEY SENT US HOME. I WENT HOME IN STYLE ON A TRAIN WITH 20 DOLLARS FOR FOOD ON THE WAY.
WHEN WE GOT HOME THE SOCIAL WORKER HAD ME EXAMINED TO SEE IF I WAS STILL "INTACT" SHE WAS MOST PLEASED WITH MY MEDICAL REPORT, BUT GOING BACK TO HIGH SCHOOL TURNED OUT TO BE MORE THAN I COULD BEAR. EVERYONE THOUGHT MY GUY FRIEND AND I HAD SEX AND IF YOU KNEW THIS GUY .. WELL HE WAS SO GAY ACTING NOBODY WOULD HAVE DONE HIM GIRL THAT IS. AND WHAT IS MORE I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO INTEREST IN SEX THEN ANYWAY . SO THE Embarrassment i suffered at school was so bad I quit going and decided to move on with my life. the social worker said I had to get a job and support myself and she would continue to "guide me"
SO I DECIDED IF I HAD TO SELF SUPPORT MYSELF I WOULD LEAVE HER "LOVING CARE" SHE WAS SUCH A MEAN WOMAN SHE DIDNT LIKE ME AT ALL. SHE HAD THESE FLABBY LIPS AND SHE LOOKED LIKE SHE WAS DROOLING ALL THE TIME. HER NAME WAS MRS. FORDHAM. AND SHE WAS ABOUT 65 OR MORE YEARS OLD AND HAD ZERO UNDERSTANDING OF TEENAGED GIRLS.

SO I WENT TO MY MOMS HOUSE AND STAYED WITH HER FOR A SHORT TIME AND WHEN HER EVIL HUSBNAD ALMOST KILLED US I LEFT WITH A FAMILY GOING TO DENVER AND WENT ON MY OWN , BUT I ALREADY TOLD YOU THAT STORY. NOW BACK TO MY FINISHING HIGH SCHOOL AND STARTING COLLEGE.
ANYWAYS I DID FINISH HIGH SCHOOL AND THE AIR BASE HAD EVENING COLLEGE CLASSES AND I DECIDED TO TRY TO GOTOT COLLEGE, I HAD THE IDEA THAT ONLY RICH KIDS WENT TO COLLEGE AND DIDNT THINK I COUOD MAKE IT BECAUSE I WAS POOR. BUT AFTER TAKING 2 CLASSES IN AMERICAN HISTORY AND PASSING I DECIDED IT WAS JUST MORE OF HIGH SCHOOL AND I KNEW I COULD DO THAT.
SO I WENT A FEW CLASSES AT A TIME TO SACRAMENTO CITY COLLEGE AND TRANSFERRED TO CALIFORNIA STATE UNIVERSITY
WHERE I GOT MY BA IN SOCIAL WELFARE AND WENT TO GRAD SCHOOL FO SOCIAL WORK AS WELL . I FOISNISHED MY TWO YEARS FOR MY BA IN 1 1/2 YEARS AND STARTED GRAD SCHOOL THAT FALL.I HAD TO TAKE 7 UNITS OF SUMMER SCHOOL TO FINISH . I WENT THRU 2 YEARS OF GRAD SCHOOL TO GET MY MASTER'S DEGREE IN SOCIAL WORK.
I HAD 4 KIDS AND THEY WERENT WELL CARED FOR DURING THIS TIME AS I WAS SO BUSY THE LAST 2 YEARS.
BUT WHEN I GOT MY FIRST JOB I WAS ABLE TO SPEND TIEM WITH THEM AND TOOK THEN OUT IN THE COUNTRY WHERE I HAD TO GO FOR HOME VISITS AND WE HAD TIME THEN .
MORE LATER I HAVE TO GO DO STUFF. XOXOOXOXO

DAD AGAIN !!!!! AAAAAAARGH

I JUST GOT DONE TAKING PICTURES OF DAD'S PRUNING EFFORTS I WILL POST THEM SOON AS WELL.

WE ARGUE EVERY YEAR ABOUT HIS EFFORTS AT PRUNING. I HAVE READ ABOUT PRUNING AND THEY ALWAYS TELL YOU NOT TO PRUNE UNTIL ALL THE LEAVES HAVE FALLEN DAD PRUNES WHNEVER HE THINKS HE WANTS TO .

I WILL INCLUDE HOW NEIGHBORS PRUNE TO SHOW A CONTRAST OF PRUNIGN TECHNIQUES.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

DREAMS ARE SO INTERESTING+ INNER STUFF

THIS MORNING I WAS HAVING A MOST FASCINATING DREAM OR RATHER THE START OF ONE, WHEN THE PHONE RANG AND IT WAS THE DOCS OFFICE TO REMIND ME OF AN APPOINTMENT FOR TOMORROW. NOW THE DREAM IS TOTALLY GONE AND I'M A BIT CRANKY.
WHEN MY DAUGHTER DIED MANY YEARS AGO, I USED TO DREAM OF HER OFTEN AND SHE WOULD TELL ME THINGS ABOUT WHERE SHE WAS AND WHAT SHE WAS DOING, IT WAS ALWAYS FASCINATING AND ID GET SO HAPPY UNTIL I REMEMBERED SHE HAD DIED. THEN MY HEART WOULD BE SO SAD AND ID MISS HER ALL OVER AGAIN IN PAIN.

I DO KNOW THAT PEOPLE WHO HAVE DIED WILL COMMUNICATE WITH YOU AFTERWARDS, IN VISIONS AND IN DREAMS. THEIR INNER SELF LIVES ON IN THE AFTER WORLD . AND THAT IS WHY I BELIEVE IN MY INNER SELF SURVIVING DEATH. IT IS SEPARATE AND APART FROM THIS BODY.
THE BODY IS LIKE A CAR IT TRANSPORTS YOU WHILE YOU ARE LIVING ON THIS EARTH AND WHEN IT BREAKS DOWN YOU JUST LEAVE IT LIKE AN OLD CAR THAT WONT RUN, I DO BELIEVE THAT REINCARNATION IS VIABLE, AND I DO BELIEVE YOU HAVE A CHOICE TO LIVE AGAIN, THE ONLY PROBLEM IS... WHEN YOU MAKE THIS CHOICE TO LIVE AGAIN YOU START OVER AND DO NOT HAVE A MEMORY OF PAST LIFE OR LIVES, SO YOU HAVE AN OPPORTUNITY TO REDO EVERYTHING LIKE FROM SCRATCH. A LITTLE OF THE WISDOM DOES CARRY OVER, YOU CAN SEE THIS IN BABIES.

ONCE I WAS TAKING CARE OF A LITTLE BABY GIRL WHOSE MOTHER ABANDONED HER INTO HER FATHER'S CARE, SHE WAS ABOUT 6 OR 7 MONTHS OLD WHEN WE STARTED TO HANG OUT TOGETHER. AND SHE WAS SO INNOCENT, LIKE EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD WAS BRAND NEW AND SHE SAW IT ALL AS A MIRACLE AND SEEMED TO NOT GRASP ANYTHING ABOUT IT. THEN ONE DAY SHE BEGAN TO SEEM AWARE AND REALLY ALIVE I SUSPECT THAT THE SPIRIT THAT WAS TO INHABIT HER DID NOT ENTER UNTIL WAY AFTER SHE WAS BORN.
SOME SPIRITS DON'T WANNA GO THRU THE DUMMY BABY STAGE BUT OTHERS JUMP RIGHT IN AND START TO LIVE ENTHUSIASTICALLY AT BIRTH THESE ARE THE BABIES WHO ARE BORN WITH TOTAL AWARENESS OF THEIR SURROUNDINGS.
IF YOU DOUBT MY WORDS START TO OBSERVE BABIES AND WATCH WHAT THEY DO.
THE INNER SELF JUMPS IN WHEN IT CHOOSES TO. THE PARENTS TAKE CARE OF THE BABY UNTIL THIS HAPPENS AND THE SPIRIT DETERMINES WHEN IT WANTS TO PARTICIPATE. BUT ONCE IN THE BEGIN TO LOSE ALL MEMORY OF THE SPIRITUAL WORLD UNLESS THE PARENTS BEGIN TO INSTRUCT THEM THEY HAVE TO FATHOM THE WORLD ON THEIR OWN UNTIL THEY LOCATE THE SPACE WE ARE TALKING ABOUT. SOME SPIRITS NEVER FIND IT BECAUSE THEY HAVE NO INTEREST THESE ARE YOUR TOTALLY MATERIALISTIC SPIRITS. THEY MAY GO TO CHURCH AND PRAY TO GOD, BUT THEY NEVER REALLY GET IN TOUCH WITH THAT INNER CORE WE ARE DESCRIBING. MUCH MORE LATER MY FRIENDS.


Tuesday, December 9, 2008

WHO THE HECK IS....

DID YOU KNOW THAT BARAK WAS AN ISRAELITE LEADER WHO WITH THE PROPHETESS DEBORAH LED THE TRIBES OF ZEBULUN AND NAPHTALE AGAINST THE CANAANITES AND GAINED A NOTABLE VICTORY?
WELL THEY DID.

AND WHO THE HECK IS THIS PERSON WHO TAKES OVER MY BODY AND LIVES ME WHEN I AM ASLEEP?
WHO IS RUNNING MY HEART AND LIVER AND STOMACH AND ALL MY FUNCTIONS? SOMEBODY IS AWAKE IN ME DOING ALL THIS WORK.
MY REAL SELF IS THERE SOMEWHERE AND TALKS WHEN IM NOT TALKING AND SHE AND I ARE DIFFERENT, WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES AND LISTEN SHE IS THERE. THE SILENCE BRINGS A DEEP SURRENDER TO THIS SELF. SILENCE PUTS US IN TOUCH WITH OUR REAL INNER BEING.
OUR MATERIAL SELF HIDES FROM EVERYONE AND USES THE TV TO RELATE TO ITS FAMILY WHAT BETTER WAY TO DO SO, ITS THE SAME FAMILY ITS THERE ON TIME EVERY DAY, IT PROVIDES US WITH A FAMILY WE DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING FOR EXCEPT WATCH AND LISTEN.

LEONARDO DA VINCI ONCE SAID
"WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS LEARNING TO LIVE I FOUND I WAS LEARNING TO DIE".

OUR ELDER ANCESTORS ...OUR GRAND PARENTS AND PARENTS GAVE US EVERYTHING WE HAVE AND YET WE PUT THEM AWAY TO DIE WHEN THEY ARE NEEDING CARE FROM US.

OUR ENVIRONMENT IS SECOND TO WEALTH. IF ITS NOT GOING TO GIVE US WEALTH ITS NOT WORTH ANYTHING AND IF SAVING IT IS JUST GOING TO KEEP IT FOR OUR CHILDREN, AND NOT TO GIVE US SOMETHING, THEN WE DO NOT SAVE IT. WHY SAVE TREES WHENWE CAN GET MONEY FOR THEM WHO CARES IF THE TOPSOIL ERODES AWAY AND THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO GROW ANYTHING ON?
MOTHER NATURE AND HEALTH IS ALWAYS SECOND TO THE ENRICHMENT OF THE GREED IN HUMANITY.
THIS IS DONE BY DENYING THAT GLOBAL WARMING EXISTS AND WHEN THE ARCTIC CIRCLES ARE MELTING WELL... IT HAS HAPPENED BEFORE NOT TO WORRY. SO WE WONT HAVE POLAR BEARS WHO CARES? WHO NEEDS THEM?

SO WE CANT GROW FOOD ANYMORE BECAUSE THE LAND IS FULL OF HOUSES. WHO CARES?
SO WE DON'T HAVE ANY CLEAN WATER WHO CARES? WE HAVE BOTTLED STUFF. SO WE DIE FROM MAD COW DISEASE WHO CARES? WE HAVE TOO MANY PEOPLE ANYWAY AND BESIDES OUR VERY WEALTHY FOLKS CAN GROW ORGANIC EASILY FOR THEMSELVES.
AND IF YOU HAVE ENOUGH MONEY YOU WON'T DIE SO ITS IMPORTANT FOR A FEW PEOPLE TO HAVE ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD SO THEY CAN SURVIVE, AFTER ALL WE ARENT ALL THAT IMPORTANT . WE ARE JUST A PITTANCE ON THE EARTH WHO CARES?

WELL.. I CARE AND GOD CARES THIS EARTH WAS GIVEN TO US TO LOVE AND PROTECT AND KEEP WELL. OUR NEIGHBORS WERE GIVEN US TO LOVE AND PROTECT AND KEEP WELL OUT OF COMPASSION AND LOVE. AND SERVICE TO OUR HIGHER BEING WHOEVER THAT MAY BE.
EVERY CULTURE HAS SOME WAY OF SERVING A HOLY SPIRIT, WHICH IS REACHABLE BY ALL.
GOD IS WITHIN US ALL. WE CREATE THE BODY AND GOD PROVIDES US WITH THE SPIRIT.

Monday, December 8, 2008

WHO INVENTED THE WWW?

THE PERSON WHO INVENTED THE WORLD WIDE WEB WAS TIM BERNERS-LEE, HE IS AN ENGLISH MATH GENIUS NOTED TO BE ONE OF THE 10 MOST BRILLIANT MEN TODAY.
AND IT WAS IN 1990, I ONLY STARTED TO USE THE WEB IN 1996 . OUR 14 YEAR OLD SON HAD THE FIRST COMPUTER IN OUR FAMILY IN 1977 HE HAD COMPUTER TRAINING IN 1976 AT POINT ARENA HIGH SCHOOL.

WE BOUGHT HIM A COMPUTER I'M NOT SURE WHAT IT WAS MAYBE A COMMODORE OR ATARI I CANT REMMEBER. IT WAS WHEN WE MOVED BACK TO SACRAMENTO AND HE PROMPTLY MOVED INTO A LARGE CLOSET IN OUR DOWNSTAIRS PART OF THE OLD HOUSE WE HAD WHICH HAD BEEN CONVERTED INTO AN APARTMENT . THE KITCHEN HAD A HUGE PANTRY AND THIS HE TURNED INTO HIS OFFICE WHERE HE CREATED GAMES AND EVENTUALLY MADE A PROGRAM FOR DOCTORS FOR BILLING AND ETC. HE WAS ONE OF THE FIRST COMPUTER GEEKS TO BE ON THE SCENE.

THE CAT JUST WOKE UP AND HES HOWLING ITS HIS MORNING RITUAL HE COMES IN FROM THE GARAGE WHICH IS HIS LEGAL RESIDENCE, WALKS TO THE SCRATCHING BOARD DOES A FEW CLAWINGS THEN STARTS TO HOWL AGAIN TO GO OUTDOORS WHERE HE HOPES TO CATCH A BIRD FOR BREAKFAST, THEN COMES BACK IN AND HOWLS SOME MORE AND DEMANDS HIS BREAKFAST.
SPOILED LIL CRITTUR. WHEN WE FIRST MOVED HERE WE SET UP THE GARAGE WITH AN AIR CONDITIONER AND FAN TO KEEP HIM AND NAJA OUR NOW DEAD GIRL CAT FROM COOKING TO DEATH IN THE GARAGE. THE ORIGINAL PLAN WAS TO BUILD AN AIR CONDITIONED CAT HOUSE IN THE BACK YARD BUT AS TIME WENT ON DAD GOT LAZY AND DECIDED THE GARAGE WAS GOOD ENOUGH. AFTER THE SECOND YEAR HE TOOK DOWN THE AC AND JUST LET THEM LIVE IN THE GARAGE AND WHEN IT WAS TOO HOT WE LEFT THEM INDOORS AS LONG AS THEY WOULD STAY.
WHEN WE WENT TO CHANDLER WE LEFT THEM IN THE BIG BATHROOM WITH FOOD AND THEIR POOP BOX SO THEY DIDNT GET ROASTED. NOW HE APPEARS TO HAVE ACCLIMATED TO THE WEATHER AND SEEMS OK AND WE LET HIM IN WHEN ITS OVER 105 DEGREES OUT DOORS. HE ACTUALLY COULD LIVE IN THE HOUSE BUT HE DOESNT CHOOSE TO HE LIKES THE GARAGE.

TODAY I WILL JUST DO A FEW CHORES AND HANG OUT AT HOME TOMORROW WE HAVE TO GO TO MESA SO DAD CAN HAVE HIS GUM OPERATION CHECKED ON AGAIN.







Sunday, December 7, 2008

DEXTERS SECOND TO LAST SHOW

WE WATCHED THE SECOND TO LAST DEXTER SERIES TODAY. HE IS OUR FAVORITE SERIAL KILLER OF SERIAL KILLERS.
ALSO BROTHERHOOD IT IS REALLY A COOL SERIES TOO.
I GUESS THE ONLY WAY TO WATCH SERIALS IS TO BUY THEM IN BULK BY SEASON.
ALSO WE LOVE ENTOURAGE BUT THEY HAVE SUCH SHORT SEASONS.
WE LOAFED ALL DAY. I NAPPED A LOT TODAY I WAS SO TIRED. I MADE A TAMALE PIE AND FOUND WE HAD NO BELL PEPPERS I SENT PA TO THE STORE TO GET SOEM AND HE TOOK TOO LONG SO THE GREEN PEPPERS DIDNT GET INTO THE CASSEROLE WE HAD TO ADD THEM FRESH NOT AS TASTY AS IF THE COOK IN.
I HEARD TWO AND A HALF MEN SINGING I BTTER GO SEE WHAT THOSE NUTS ARE DOIGN TODAY.

Friday, December 5, 2008

my visit to the cardiologist

TODAY I WENT TO MY CARDIOLOGIST BUT I SAW THE NURSE PRACTIONER INSTEAD I HAVE NOT SEEN MY DOCTOR IN ABOUT 1 YEAR. I HAD AN EKG DONE MY BP WAS 110/68 AND MYPULSE WAS 56, HIS RECORDS SHOWED MY CHOLESTEROL WAS HIGH OVER 200 AND WE DISCOVERED HE HAD THE OLDER LABS RATHER THAN THE ONES DONE IN JUNE THIS YEAR WHERE MY CHOLESTEEROL WAS 155 .
I WENT TO THE PRIMARY MD AND ASKED FOR MY LATEST LABS AND SURE ENOUGH THEY WERE 155.
SO I AM IN GOOD SHAPE AND MY GAP IN MY HEART VALAVES HAS BEEN DECREASING SINCE I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH THE PROBLEM IT STARTED AT 5.5 AND NOW IS DOWN TO 4.5 WHICH IS ALMOST NORMAL FOR LEAKAGE.
I WORK ON RELAXATION ALL THE TIME I TAKE DEEP BREATHS WHICH KEEPS MY BP DOWN AND I VISUALIZE THE VALVE CLOSING. IT APPEARS OUR BRAINS ARE STRONGER THAN MEDICAL INTERVENTIONS.
WHAT A MIRACLE WHAT?ANYWAYS IM GLAD IM GETTING HEALTHIER.
I ONCE READ ALL THE BOOKS ABOUT EDGAR CAYCE AND HIS HEALING TECHNIQUES AND NOW I AM APPLYING THEM. IF YOU WANT TO KNOW ALL ABOUT EVERYTHING READ ALL THE BOOKS ABOUT EDGAR CAYCE.
HE WRITES ABOUT HALTH AND ATLANTIS AND REINCARNATION AND GOD AND EVERY POSSIBLE THIUNG YOU CAN IMAGINE. IF YOU GO TO VIRGINIA WHERE HE LIVED THE ASSOCIATION FOR RESEARCH AND ENLIGHTENMENT IS THERE AND ALL THE TRANSCRIBED SESSIONS HE DID ARE AVAILABLE FOR READING. THEY ALSO HOLD TRAININGS YEARLY USUALLY AT ASILOMAR CONFERENCE GROUNDS IN CALIFORNIA AT PACIFIC GROVE. THIS IS A MOST BEAUTIFUL PLACE TO GO .
I USED TO TAKE MY GRANDDAUGHTER THERE EVERY SUMMER WE'D SPEND ABOUT 2 OR 3 DAYS THERE AND GO TO THE BEACH WHICH IS GORGEOUS WITH WHITE SUGAR SANDS AND YOU CAN SEE ALL TYPES OF MARINE CREATURES THERE TIDEPOOLS FULL OF CRITTURS ETC AND WE WOULD GOTO THE MONTEREY AQUARIUM EACH TIME AND CHECK OUT THE CREATURES THERE. ALL TYPE SEA AND BIRD LIFE AND OCEAN LIVING CRITTURS ARE THERE.

WE HAD SO MANY SUMMERS OF ABSOLUTE BLLISS TRAVELING ALL OVER THE WEST COAST WE WENT TO N CALIF TO VISIT MY FRIENDS UP THERE AS WELL.
AND THEN THERE WERE THE BEANIE BABY DAYS WHERE WE HIT MCDONALDS ALL OVER THE CITY TO COLLECT BABY BEANIES SOLD AT MAC DS. HAHAHA I STILL HAVE THOSE .
WE ALSO STARTED A SCRAPBOOK WITH OUR TRAVELS IN IT. THAT WAS BEFORE SOEMOEN DECIDED TO COMMERCIALIZE SCRAP BOOKS AND MAKE IT A PAYING FOR HOBBY. I FIND IT SO SILLY THAT PEOPLE TAKE WORKSHOPS IN SCRAPBOOKING HAHHA .
JUST SAVE FUN STUFF YOU COLLECT AND GLUE IT INTO A BOOK JEEZ!!!


Thursday, December 4, 2008

WHY CAN I NOT POST ANYTHING?

SOMETHING HAS GONE WRONG WITH MY POZSTING AND I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW TO FIX IT HELLPPPP

WHAT????

HELP

MY FRIEND NEIL

I WAS GONNA STEAL A BEAUTIFUL IDEA FROM MY FRIEND NEIL SLADE WHO WROTE A SERIES OF BOOKS AND MANY TAPES AND DVDS ON CLICKING YOUR AMYGDALA FORWARD BUT I DECIDE TO JUST FORWARD HIS DAILY NOTE TO MY FRIENDS WHO READ MY BLOG BECAUSE HES SO RIGHT ON.
I FIRST MET NEIL ON THE ART BELL RADIO SHOW, YOU CAN GO TO THE SITE ON COAST TO COAST.COM AND FIND MANY INTERESTING THINGS TO READ AND SEE. A LOT ARE METAPHYSICAL THINGS AND SOME ARE JUST HUMAN INTEREST THINGS AND MANY PICTURES SUBMITTED BY LISTENERS OF THE PROGRAM ARE IN THER FROM A CHUPACABRA TO AN ALIEN HAHAH. NEVER DULL.
ALSO GHOST PICTURES PEOPLE HAVE SENT IN.
AY ANY RATE HE SENT ME A CHRISTMAS MESSAGE THAT REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART AND ITS SO RIGHT.
I ALWAYS GIVE WHATEVER I MAKE BUT FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS I HAVENT MADE MUCH OF ANYTHING SO I HAVE SENT MONEY BECAUSE WHO AM I TO GUESS WHAT IS DEAR TO ANYONES HEART?
I BUY DVD S ON REQUEST BUT EVERYONE SEEMS TO HAVE EVERYTHIGN THEY NEED AND ANYTHING ELSE IS SO SUPERFICIAL.

I USED TO KNIT THESE SLIPPER SOCKS AND SEND THEMN TO EVERYONE BECAUSE THEY WERE SO PRETTY AND WARM AND YOU CAN EVEN WEAR THEM TO BED THEYRE SO SOFT. I SENT A PAIR TO MY BROTHER INLAW (NOW IN HEAVEN) AND HE TREASURED THEM SO MUCH HE KEPT THEM FOR YEARS AND ALWAYS GOT UPSET WHEN HE COULDNT FIND THEM TO WEAR THEM. HIS NAME WAS DAN.
HE MADE ME SEE HOW MUCH A HANDMADE GIFT IS TREASURED.

I USED TO MAKE MY KIDS A SET OF PJS AND SLIPPER SOCKS AND A TOY I MADE BY HAND OR HUBBY MADE PLUS ONE STORE BOUGHT ITME WE WERENT RICH YA KNOW. MY KIDS WERE SO HAPOPY WITH NEW PJS AND SLIPPERS AND I MADE A DOLL FOR MY DAUGHTER ONE YEAR AND A PINK PILLOW WITH A BIG RED HEART ON IT. AND DAD MADE A TOY HE SAW IN MECHANICS ILLUSTRATED FOR THE KIDS AND GOT THEM SMALL TOOLS THAT WORKED AS WELL.
WE HAD DELICIOUS DINNERS THAT LASTED ALL WEEK AFTER CHRISTMAS AND WE MADE COOKIES AND FRUITCAKE AND I ALWAYS MADE FRESH BREAD AND CINNAMON ROLLS AND CINNAMON BREAD WITH FROSTING ON IT TO LAST ALL WEEK. AND WE HAD MANY FRIENDS OVER TO SIT AROUND AND TALK ON WEEKENDS AND HOLIDAYS WE HAD A LOT OF PARTIES WITH FRIENDS THOSE DAYS.

OUR HOUSE WAS A FAVORITE HANG OUT FOR OUR FRIENDS BECAUSE IT WAS ON A LARGE ACRE PLOT AND WE DID A LOT OF STUFF OUT DOORS WE DID TRUST WALKS AND A LOT OF ACTIVITIES THAT WERE POPULAR AT THE TIME. WE ALSO HAD LOTS OF APPLE TREES FULL OF FRESH APPLES THAT WERE SO DELICIOUS NOT ANY CAN BE FOUND LIKE THEM NOWADAYS.
I WAS TRAINIGNG TO BECOME A PSYCHOTHERAPIST AND WE TRIED ALL THE EXERCISES THAT HAPPENED TO BE PART OF OUR TRIANING. MANY OF MY FRIENDS WERE IN GRAD SCHOOL WITH ME AND WE ALL LOVED WHAT WE DID.
OKAY HERES THE LETTER I GOT FROM NEIL:

Greetings Brain Explorers!
Now that the season of gift giving is upon us--and most of us are brokethe question becomes, how do I generously give happiness during theholidays?That, of course, is what we should be thinking about, rather thanstuffing our stockings with gobs of junk, that we are beingconditioned to buy out of sheer commercially produced guilt and lust.I suggest a THREE STEP approach to intelligent Holiday Glee for all:Step One: Get your perspective straight:I was listening to BBC news last night, and heard a story about anAfrican family- They had to walk four miles a day, to get a gallon ofwater, and that gallon cost them one-half of their daily income.
Years ago I was in the bathtub, and reflecting upon the reality ofjust being able to turn on the tap and get unlimited hot water forpractically nothing- and how I was living in a manner that not evenkings could afford in ancient times, and how such a simple thing istaken completely for granted these days.Tell Madison Avenue to take a hike. This way, you spend what you have,not what you've been brainwashed to think you have to get.
Step Two: Avoid the Empty Greed Grab:I heard another story on talk radio yesterday as well- B. Obama wasbuying a ring for his wife made of a precious metal-- the cost wassomething like $30,000. So, if you've got it, flaunt it, right?Wrong. Wow, what a crappy signal this would send to those of us whocan only afford a ring around our bathtub, eh?It's not about PRICE- it's all about DEPTH of Connection. It's notabout HOW MUCH you spend, it's about HOW you spend.The energy of the personality of the merchant is embedded in what youget and share.

That's where the real VALUE and VIRTUE is.I say, spend money with people you know, people who regularly sharetheir life with you. Exchange green energy with folk who give you morethan just superficial glitter. It's the difference between grabbing a handy fast food bull-only(baloney) Happy Meal- which will ultimately leave you hungry-- or justas easily opting for a Quality Meal that really makes you and yourdinner guests happy. Not just bubble gum, but more yummy whole food.
Step Three: Stick With Active Growing Yeast Yields-Remember when you were a kid, and you got a toy you really wanted, andthen when you finally got it, you got bored in one day?The best things to share and give are those things that don't get old,things you can talk about, things you can mull over, things that makeyou think, things you can use daily, things that last a lifetime,things you can pass along.Smart things are the best.Shop smart- Be happy! :-)

******************************TURNING JAPANESE For those movie fans out there, I've been getting quite acquaintedwith Japanese cinema lately. In America, you don't hear very muchabout films from this part of the world. After watching a lot ofJapanese film, my impression is that this is because it moves at adistinctly different pace than popular US cinema- which by comparisongoes a breakneak speed.Many, if not most Americans just have a short attention span, and theydon't appreciate beautiful photographic composition and subtle storyline. If you don't hit the American viewer with a sledge hammer overthe head- they miss it.And they miss a lot.So-- here's a few recommendations to get you going... I don'tguarantee you'll like these films-- but I sure did (and so has myHollywood screenwriting buddy Jim Mullica, who really is a filmexpert).
Research these films online to get a full description of thestory and style:Live Action: Linda Linda Linda (teen school girls put a rock band together)Marobosi (drama- loss and redemption)Cafe Lumiere (romance)Animation:anything by Myazaki (almost)5 Centimeters Per Second (incredibly beautiful romantic)Mushi (series) (non-violent fables, wonderful!!)Black Cat (series) (action- amazing color and style)Burst Angel (series) (action, a bizarre combination of elements)************Shameless commercial:For gifts- Incredible Value and Price- that give FOREVERThe Brain Book and Music StoreEVERY ORDER INCLUDES A CUSTOM "CLICK YOUR AMYGDALA" lapel button whilequantities last (I've got about 50 of these left only)http://www.neilslade.com/order.htmland the best Bargain OnlineThe Amazing Brain, Brain Feature film, 20 Audio Album content, Bonusesgalore!http://www.neilslade.com/cd.htmlLater!Neilhttp://www.BrainRadar.com

HERE IS A READING LIST FOR TEEN GIRLS THAT AMAZON SENT ME....I DON'T KNOW WHY DO THEY THINK IM A TEEN? ISNT THIS ODD? AND AFTER I ADD THIS THEY STEAL MY PURPLE COURIER FONTS THINGS AND I CANT GET THEM BACK.
What I Saw and How I Lied, Graceling, The Hunger Games, Waiting for Normal, Little Brother, Paper Towns, Tender Morsels, The Disreputable History of Frankie Landau-Banks, The Door of No Return, Sunrise Over Fallujah, The Adoration of Jenna Fox, Here Lies Arthur, Becoming Billie Holiday, and Impossible

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

HOW I MET DAD THE HUSBAND ONE AND ONLY

WELL, AFTER JILL AND I BECAME ROOMMATES WE WENT EVERYWHERE TOGETHER. ONE DAY ON SATURDAY BEFORE EASTER WE WENT TO CONFESSION AND WERE WALKING DOWN ARAPAHOE STREET IN DOWNTOWN DENVER WHEN THESE TWO GUYS CAME OUT OF A BAR AND STARTED TO SHOUT AT US , JILL YELLED BACK AND SOON THEY CAUGHT UP WITH US, I WAS VERY RELUCTANT BUT JILL WAS DETERMINED. WE MET TOMMY AND DON, TOMMY WALKED ALONGSIDE ME FOR AWHILE AND SOON I COULD TELL HE WAS MENTALLY CHALLENGED SO I TOLD JILL I DIDNT WANT TO RELATE TO THIS GUY SHE SUGGESTED WE TRADE GUYS SO WE DID. I DIDN'T FEEL ALL EXCITED OVER DON, BUT I WENT ALONG WITH JILL'S PLAN. WE DECIDED TO GOTO THE MOVIES BUT WHEN WE GOT THERE THE GUYS HAD NO MONEY SO JILL AND I PAID FOR THE TICKETS TO SEE "THE ROBE".

THEY PROMISED TO PAY US BACK (SHADES OF JUDGE JUDY),
AND NEXT DAY THEY CAME OVER AND HAD MONEY AND PAID US BACK.
WE WENT TO A PARK CALLED ELYSIAN GARDENS WHICH WAS FREE. IT WAS A VERY BEAUTIFUL PLACE. FLOWERS AND TREES FROM EVERYWHERE THIS WAS SPRING SO THE BUDS WERE OUT AND IT WAS WARM. JILL AND I WALKED EVERYWHERE AND RODE BUSES ELSEWHERE.
DON WAS STARTING TO GET VERY TIRED WITH THE WALKING.
HE DECIDED TO GET A CAR SO HE BOUGHT A 47 STUDEBAKER
IT WAS VERY PRETTY LIEK A SPORTSCAR WITH A DENT IN THE SIDE AAND BLACK BUT IT WASNT A BAD LOOKING CAR IT HAD ONE SEAT LIKE A SPORTSCAR. HE PAID $100 FOR IT. THIS WAS IN 1956.
DON THINKS IT MAY HAVE BEENA 49 BUT I REMMEBER WE LATER GOT A 49 OLDS AND IT WAS MUCH NEWER. MEMORIES ARE FUNNY.

WE BEGAN TO SEE EACH OTHER A LOT AFTER THIS WE DROVE SOEMWHERE I CANNOT REMMEBER WHERE ONE DAY AND THE FAN BELT BROKE WE WALKED TO A GAS STATION ME IN WHITE HIGH HEELS AND MY NEWEST DRESS I HAD NO PROBLEM WALKING IN THEM AS I WORE THEM A LOT.

WE FIXED THE BELT AND WENT ON OUR WAY. IN THOSE DAYS THEY DIDNT HAVE SPECIALIZED BELTS AND PARTS FOR EVERY CAR MOST PARTS SEEMED TO BE MADE FOR ALL CARS. WHAT A SIMPLE TIME IT WAS. NOW YOU HAVE TO GOTO A DEALER AND HE HAS TO ORDER HIS SPECIALIZED PARTS.
WHAT A RACKET.
WE MET SHORTLY AFTER MY 20TH BIRTHDAY AND IT WAS SPRING, WE SAW ONE ANOTHER DAILY, AND IN LATE MAY HE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM I SAID NO TWICE AND HE WAS VERY PUSHY AND PERSISITENT AND THE THIRD TIME HE INSISTED WE GET MARRIED BY THE NEXT TUESDAY OR WE WOULD END IT OR LIKE THAT. OF COURSE HE AT FIRST MENTIONED LIVING TOGETHER OF COURSE NOT A GOOD GIRL DOESNT LIVE LIKE THAT. SO FINALLY I AGREED TO MARRY HIM ON MAY 22ND THE FOLLOWING TUESDAY.
JILL AND TOMMY WERE OUR BEST MAN AND WOMAN AND WE WENT TO ENGLEWOOD AND GOT MARRIED BY A JP.
OH, I HAD TO BUY THE RING IT COST 13.00 CUZ HE WAS BROKE AGAIN. HAHAH IN THOSE DAYS GUYS HAD TO PAY FOR ALL THE DATES REMEMBER?

I MADE MORE THAN HE DID I EARNED ABOUT $50 A WEEK HE EARNED ABOUT $40 EVERY 2 WEEKS
AFTER OUR MARRIAGE I GOT A CHECK FOR $93.30 A MONTH.
AND THAT WAS UP TO OUR WEDDING DAY WHICH I WILL ELABORATE ON LATER I ALMOST GOT AN ANNULMENT THAT VERY DAY.
WE HAVE NOW BEEN MARRIED FRO 52 YEARS

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

MY LIFE STORY CONTINUED

THE REASON I USE LARGE PRINT IS CUZ I NEED IT TO SEE AND I LIKE PURPLE AND VIOLET AND WHITE IS WHY I USE THIS COLOR.
OKAY I LEFT YOU AT MY WASHINGTON STREET APARTMENT LAST TIME.
I LIVED ALONE FOR QUITE AWHILE THEN MY BEST FRIEND AT THE PHONE COMPANY NAMED JILL ASKED TO MOVE IN WITH ME SHE WAS SICK OF HER MOM BOSSING HER AROUND SO I SAID OK.
OUR RENT WENT UP BY 2.00 TO COVER HER ELECTRICITY AND UTILITY USE HAHHA. NOW WE PAID 46.75 A MONTH.
IT WAS A SMALL APARTMENT AND WHEN JILL MOVED IN IT WASNT TOO BAD SHE BEGAN TO DECORATE SOMETHING I NEVER HAD DONE. SHE GOT A PLANT HUNG A PICTURE AND DID A FEW OTHER HOMEY THINGS.
I WONDERED WHY I HAD NEVER THOUGHT OF IT. PERHAPS BECAUSE WHEN YOU MOVE YOU HAVE A BUNCH OF STUFF TO MOVE.
I CANNOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME REMEMBER WHO HELPED ME MOVE MY STUFF THERE.
I HAD NO CAR I RODE THE CITY BUS EVERYWHERE AND DENVER HAD A WONDERFUL BUS SERVICE ALL OVER THE PLACE.
JILL HAD A CAR IT WAS A PINK FORD CONVERTIBLE 1955. SHE HAD FINANCED IT THRU THE CREDIT UNION. SHE WAS SO SICK OF THE PAYMENTS SHE ENDED UP SELLING IT FOR THE BALANCE ON THE LOAN .
BUT WE HAD A LOT OF FUN BEFORE SHE SOLD IT. WE WENT TO VAIL COLORADO AND TO BOULDER WHERE THE COLLEGE BOYS WERE AND WENT TO TULAGI A BAR SORTA PLACE WHERE COLLEGE KIDS HUNG OUT. WE HAD A LOT OF FUN. IN COLORADO 18 YEAR OLDS CAN BUY 3.2 BEER ITS NASTY I NEVER HAVE LIKED BEER.
AND WE WENT TO SHAKEY'S PIZZA PARLOR THE BEST PIZZA THEN AND WHEN I MOVED TO SACRAMENTO IN 1956 WE DISCOVERED THE ORIGINAL SHAKEY'S PIZZA THERE STRANGE HUH?
THAT WAS MY FIRST PIZZA , BEFORE THAT I ONLY ATE NEW MEXICAN AND AMERICAN AND JEWISH FOOD . THERE WAS A JEWISH DELI IN DENVER THAT WAS REALLY GREAT .

IN SANTA FE WHERE I GREW UP THERE WERE A LOT OF JEWISH PEOPLE MY MOM TOLD ME MY DAD WAS JEWISH AND THATS WHY SHE DIDNT PUT HIS NAME ON MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE , THERE WAS SO MUCH PREJUDICE AGAINST JEWISH PEOPLE IN THOSE DAYS .

WELL JILL AND I WERE BOTH CATHOLIC SO WE WNET TO MASS AND CONFESSION AND ALL THAT IT INVOLVED WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER. AFTER AWHILE A SMALL APT CAME OPEN IN OUR LADIES PLACE AND WE GOT OUR TWO GERMAN PALS FROM WORK TO MOVE IN THEIR NAMES WERE SHIRLEY SCHMALTZ AND ROSIE SCHULTZ THEY WERE FROM NORTH DAKOTA AND THEY HAD A KIND A SCANDANAVIAN ACCENT WHEN THEY SPOKE.
NOW OUR APARTMENT HOME WAS COMPLETE WE HAD THOSE TWO, A SINGLE OLDER GIRL ,AND A MOTHER AND DAUGHTER NAMED EGAN MOM WAS THE ONE WHO MANAGED THE APT. THE GIRLS NAME WAS SANDY AND SHE WAS A MESS . SHE WAS RELATED TO THE GOVERNOR OF NEW MEXICO AT THE TIME A NIECE.
I WENT TO SCHOOL WITH THE GOVERNORS GRANDDAUGHTER IN SANTA FE.
EVERYONE WENT EITHER TO CATHOLIC SCHOOL OR PUBLIC SCHOOL I WENT TO BOTH AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER AFTER GRADE 3 I WENT TOTALLY PUBLIC. WE HAD GREAT TEACHERS MOSTLY JEWISH ONES AND THEY WERE VERY VERY GOOD TEACHERS WE LEARNED EVERYTHING, INCLUDING LATIN IN SCHOOL. SUCH A HIGH STANDARD SCHOOL WE HAD. TOTALLY UNLIKE OUR CURRENT ONES. EVERYOEN KNEW ABOUT ANCIENT HISTORY AND CURRENT HISTORY AND WE LEARNED STATE HISTORY, SO WE WERE WELL VERSED IN ALL SUBJECTS. TODAY PEOPLE ONLY GET THE SCHOOLING WE HAD IN COLLEGE.
WE HAD ANTHROPOLOGY AND WE LEARNED OUR BEGINNINGS ABOUT THE NATIVE AMERICANS WITH GREAT REPSECT. WE VISITED ALL THE CAVE DWELLINGS AND PUEBLOS AND REALLY GOT INTO IT A LOT.
WE LEARNED THAT OUR FOREFATHERS WERE FROM SPAIN AND MANY MARRIED THE LOCAL INDIAN LADIES SO WE MANY HAD MIXED BLOOD AND WE FELT VERY IDENTIFIED TO SPAIN AND ALL THINGS FROM THERE. WE SPOKE SPANISH AND ENGLISH WITH NO ACCENTS. ALMOST EVERYONE IN NEW MEXICO WAS BILINGUAL FROM BIRTH.
OK THAT ENOUGH OF MY AUTOBIOGRAPHY FOR TODAY.

HUGS TO ALL MOM GRAMA



DAD IS BACK

WELP I GOT MY SILLY DAD TO THE DOCTOR YESTERDAY AND HE HAD WHAT WAS CALLED A TIA (TRANSIENT ISCHEMIC ATTACK) AND WE ARE ADVISED TO CALL 911 NEXT TIME WE SEE IT HAPPEN AND DAD NEEDS TO TAKE A BABY ASPIRIN EVERY DAY LIKE I DO AS IT PREVENTS CLOTS FROM FORMING.
(WHICH I HAVE BEEN TELLING HIM ALL ALONG) AND OF COURSE HE IGNORED ME.
I HOPE MY SON #3 IS TAKING A BABY ASPIRIN EVERY DAY LIKE I TOLD HIM ALSO.
MY SON # 1 ALSO HAD A PROBLEM WITH HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE AND HE WAS VERY ILL WITH IT AND WAS IN PROCESS OF SEEKING TREATMENT WHEN THINGS WENT SO WRONG FOR HIM.

IT APPEARS THAT ON MY HUSBANDS SIDE THERE IS A SURE FIRE HBP PROBLEM. HIS DAD DIED FROM A STROKE AND HIS GRAMPA DID TOO.
OI HAVE FORTIUNATELY HAD A LOW NORMAL PRESSURE ALL MY LIFE BUT THE CARDIOLOGIST SAYS I HAVE A HEART VALVE THAT LEAKS SO HE MADE ME TAKE THE MEDS TO SLOW DOWN MY BLOOD SO I DONT LEAK AS MUCH, AND MY LAST TEST SHOWED I DIDNT HAVE AS BAD A PROBLEM AS HE FIRST THOUGHT . THIS WAS CAUSED BY MY TAKING HRT (HORMONE REPLACEMENT THERAPY)
I DID NOT WANT IT BUT MY DOCTOR AT THE TIME SAID IT WOULD PREVENT HEART PROBLEMS LATER THEY LEARNED IT CAUSED THEM ...IM AN EXAMPLE I HAD A PREFECTLY HEALTHY HEART TIL I WAS TALKED INTO THIS , I HAD BOTH MY OVARIES WHICH WERE FUNCTIONING PERFECTLY AND YET SHE INSISTED.

SO DOCTORS MAKE HORRIBLE MISTAKES ALL THE TIME. THE PHRAMCEUTICAL COMPANIES TALK THEM INTO IT. DOCS ARE IDIOTS ABOUT MEDS THEY DEPEND ON THOSE GREEDY COMPANIES TO ADVISE THEM.
WHEN I RULE THE WORLD I WILL MAKE DOCS TAKE CLASSES ON MEDS AT LEAST EVERY 2 YEARS LIKE MY LICENSE HAS TO HAVE 36 HOURS OF TRAINING EVERY YEAR TO UPDATE MY EDUCATION .
DOCTORS NEED THAT ALSO FROM PEOPLE WHO CANT PROFIT FROM THE WORKSHOPS VIA THE PHARMCEUTICAL COMPANIES AS THEY DO NOW. ALL THEIR DRUG TRAINING COMES FROM THEM I KNOW I USED TO ATTEND THESE SO CALLED TRAININGS THEY ARE JUST SELLING .
AT ANY RATE IM A VICTIM OF A PHARMACEUTICAL -PLOT TO SELL HRT I WAS HAVING A PERFECTLY NORMAL MENOPAUSE WITH NO COMPLICATIONS WHEN THEY ATTACKED ME.
ANYWAYS IFF I DIE OF HEART VALVE DISORDER ITS THEIR FAULT.
SOMEBODY SHOULD SUE FOR A FEW MILLIONS THE PHARMACIES CO. AND THE KAISER FOUNDATION WHO FOISTED THIS HORROR ON ME.
IM TELLING YOU ALL ABOUT THIS BECAuse women need to be aware of this and so they will not suffer my EXPEREINCE.
IF YOU HAVE A HYSTERECROMY LEAVE YOUR OOVARIES INTACT THEY WILL GET YOU THRU MENOPAUSE WITH NO PROBLEM, SURE YOULL FEEL HOT AT TIMES BUT ITS JUST MOTHER NATURE ITS NOT HURTING YOU TURN UP THE THERMOSTAT TO COOL YOU OFF.
PILLS HAVE RARELY CURED MUCH THE ONLY ONES I RECOMMEND ARE SINUS PILLS AND ANTIBIOTICS.
IF YOU USE NATURES HERBS YOU WILL DO BETTER THEY DOTN DAMAGE YORU BODY LIKE HARSH DRUGS DO. EVERY SINGLE DRUG HAS MANY SIDE EFFDECTS YOU SEE IT ON TV "MAY CAUSE DEATH" IS ONE COSNTANT DISCLOSURE.
OK YOU ARE WARNED.

Monday, December 1, 2008

DADDY'S MENTAL FOG

DAD HAD WHAT APPEARED TO BE A STROKE FOR ABOUT 5 MINUTES YESTERDAY. I CALLED THE HEART DOC AND WAS DADVISED TO TAKE HIM TO THE HOSPITAL HE IS SO BUSY ON HIS BLOG IM HAVING A HARD TIOME GETTING HIM THERE.
I WAS TELLING HIM ABOUT TARAS COMMENT THAT HOUSES ARE REALLY REASONABLE HERE AND HE COUYLDNT FIGURE OUT WHAT I WAS SAYING WHO OUR GRANDDAUGHTER WAS OR OUR GRANSDSON HER HUBBY . IT WAS REALLY STARNGE SO NOW HES DANCING AROUND THE HOUSE SAYING "I GET TO BE THE CENTER OF ATTENTION AGAIN" AND HIS CELL PHONE JUST RANG. LATER DUDETTES AND DUDES