YESTERDAY I WROTE AN EXTENSIVE BLOG AND WHEN I WENT TO EDIT IT IT DISAPPEARED.
I WROTE ABOUT HOMO HOMO SAPS AND ALL THEIR TRICKY TRICKS AND ABOUT SOME VERY ETHICAL MORAL AND SELF AWARE HOMOS I HAVE KNOWN.
I HAVE WORKED WITH MEN IN THERAPY MOST OF MY DAYS AS A THERAPIST AND MANY MANY OF MY CLIENTS WERE HOMOSEXUAL BY NATURE, A FEW BY CHOICE . BY CHOICE I MEAN TEENAGERS WHO WERE TALKED INTO IT AND FELT VERY ASHAMED OF THEIR EXPERIENCE AND WERE TRYING TO OVER COME THIS SENSE OF SHAME TO GO ON TO A MARRIAGE AND CHILDREN.
MAYBE THE TITLE WASN'T TO THE LIKES OF A PERSON WHO LOOKS AT BLOGS AND MAKES A DECISION NOT TO PRINT IT. IT WAS HOMO HOMO SAPIENS OR HOMO HOMO SAPS.
AT ANY RATE I WANT IT MADE CLEAR THAT HOMOSEXUALS GET THEIR UNPLEASANT STANDINGS FROM FLAMBOYANT, NARCISSISTIC TYPE MALES WHO SEEM TO HAVE THE NEED TO DRAW ATTENTION TO THEMSELVES. THIS MAKES IT BAD FOR THOSE WHO ARE FAIRLY WELL ADJUSTED MEN WHO ARE LIKE THE REST OF US TRYING TO GET BY AND HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE AND WORK AND BE NORMAL .
WELL, YES FOR A NORMAL HOMOSEXUAL IT IS NORMAL
I HAVE 3 SONS AND 2 WERE NOT MARRIED BUT HAD A LONG LIST OF RELATIONSHIPS WITH WOMEN IN THEIR LIVES AND AT TIMES THOUGHT OF MARRIAGE . BOTH WERE HETEROSEXUALS AND WERE COFFEE HOUSE TYPES WHO WENT TO COFFEEHOUSES TO DRINK COFFEE AND USE THE FREE COMPUTER FAST INTERNETS. THEY LEARNED THIS HANGING OUT BEHAVIOR FROM THEIR PARENTS. ACTUALLY , WELL ... ANOTHER STORY ILL TELL LATER.
NOW, WHILE ATTENDING THESE PLACES THEY WERE APPROACHED ON MANY OCCASIONS WITH FLAMBOYANT IDIOTS HOMOSEXUALS WHO WOULD GO TO EXTREME MEASURES TO GET THEIR ATTENTION. MY OLDEST SON RESPONDED BY MAKING THREATS AND YELLING AT THEM AND MY SECOND SON BY IGNORING THEM AS MUCH AS HE COULD. NO MATTER HOW MUCH HE IS BUSY DOING COMPUTER THINGS OR READING THEY APPROACH LIKE DOGS WHO ARE HOMELESS.
IT WAS A SOURCE OF GREAT ANNOYANCE TO HIM UNTIL HIS DAD TALKED HIM INTO FINDING THE HUMOR OF IT ALL. AND OUR SON TELLS STORIES NOW OF HOW HE AVOIDS THE DEVILS.
THIS HAS NOW MADE HIS LIFE EASIER AND MORE INTERESTING.
WHEN WE MOVED BACK TO SACRAMENTO AFTER BEING IN THE WOODS IN SONOMA COUNTY WE HAD A DOWNTOWN HOUSE WE BOUGHT IT WHEN EVERYONE WAS MOVING TO THE BURBS AND RENTED IT OUT AND WHEN WE RETURNED IT WAS OUR ONLY HOME SINCE WE HAD SOLD ALL THE COUNTRY PROPERTIES. AT THE TIME DOWNTOWN WAS JUST BECOMING CAMPY TO LIVE IN AND IN MY DAUGHTER AND MY WANDERINGS DOWNTOWN WE DISCOVERED AN OLD COFFEE HOUSE IN 21ST STREET, AND THERE WERE PEOPLE WHO CAME TO THAT COFFEEHOUSE WE FOUND INTERESTING TO TALK TO, SO WE BEGAN A REGULAR ATTENDANCE THERE BETWEEN MY WORK MY DAUGHTER'S SCHOOL AND BALLET CLASSES .IT BECAME A REGULAR HABIT AND THEN MY HUSBAND AND SONS BEGAN ALSO COMING THERE . SO COFFEEHOUSES THEN BECAME A FAMILY TRADITION.
MANY OTHER FOLKS STARTED SOME AND THEY WERE SUCCESSFUL OR NOT BUT WE CONTINUED OUR VISITS TO THEM DAILY.
I MISS THOSE DAYS BECAUSE WE MADE MANY LONGSTANDING FRIENDSHIPS THERE. WE ARE NOW IN A PLACE WHERE THE ONLY COFFEEHOUSE IS STARBUCKS AND WE ONLY GOT ONE AFTER I WROTE THEM LETTERS ON THE INTERNET TELLING THEM MANY CALIFORNIANS WERE HERE AND WANTING A COFFEEHOUSE.
I HAVE FOUND THAT WRITING MAIL ON THE INTERNET TO PRAISE AND COMPLAIN ABOUT THINGS BRINGS MANY THINGS TO US.
I HAVE RECEIVED FREE CREDIT IN RESTAURANTS AFTER A COMPLAINT AND HAD SHOPPING CARTS AT SAFEWAY REPLACED WHEN I WROTE ABOUT FINDING BABY POOP IN A CART AND ASKED HOW THEY EXPECTED US TO PUT FOOD IN SUCH FILTHY CARTS I EVEN WENT TO ALBERTSONS FOR AWHILE AND SAFEWAY DID GET THE NEW CARTS AFTER THIS.
I WROTE TO FRYS WHEN I SAW THE MARKETPLACE WASN'T C0MING IN AS PROMISED WE NOW HAVE A FRYS MARKETPLACE THAT I LOVE.
NOW , IF SOMEONE COULD START AN OLD FASHIONED COFFEEHOUSE WHERE THE COFFEE WAS THE SAME STRENGTH AS REAL COFFEEHOUSE IN CALIFORNIA AND THE WEST COAST SERVE WE WILL BE IN BUSINESS.
WE HAD A LOVELY PLACE IN THE DOWNTOWN HERE BUT THE COFFEE WAS WEAK AND TASTELESS THEY TRIED TO MAKE MORE MONEY RATHER THAN SERVE EXCELLENT COFFEE.
AT HOME WE USE COFFEE FROM THE COFFEE FOOL WHICH I ORDER SEMIMONTHLY OR MONTH ELY PRN.
IT IS DELICIOUS.
OK THATS ALL FOR NOW.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
ONCE UPON A TIME
ONCE UPON A TIME THERE WERE TWO LITTLE ADORABLE GIRLS WHO VISITED WITH ME .
THEY LOVED TO PLAY WITH DOLLS.
I HAD LOTS OF DOLLS BUT THEIR FAVORITE ONES WERE TWO BABY DOLLS I HAD LEFT OVER FROM MY PRACTICE AS A PSYCHOTHERAPIST. ONE WAS A BOY AND ONE WAS A GIRL AND THEY HAD CORRECT BODY PARTS. AND WITH THEIR MOTHER'S PERMISSION THEY WERE ALLOWED TO PLAY WITH THEM.
INTERESTINGLY ENOUGH, THEY BOTH WANTED THE GIRL DOLL SO TO COMPENSATE FOR HAVING A BOY DOLL THEY DRESSED HIM AS A GIRL.
THESE WERE TWO VERY WISE YOUNG WOMEN WHO ARE NOW IN THEIR TEENS AND LOVE BEING WOMEN.
AND BOTH ARE VERY BRIGHT AND CANDIDATES FOR SCHOLARSHIPS , I WISH THEM A VERY HAPPY GROWNUP HOOD BECAUSE I REALLY LOVE THEM A LOT.
FOR CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR WE GAVE OUR NEIGHBOR'S CHILDREN SOME NICE GIFTS ONE IS A 6 YEAR OLD GIRL AND A 3 YEAR OLD BOY. ON CHRISTMAS MORNING SHE CAME WITH HER MOM TO GIVE US A CHRISTMAS CARD SHE DREW UP FOR US.
SHE WAS VERY EXCITED UNTIL SHE SAW WE HAD COMPANY AND BECAME VERY SHY AND UNABLE TO SPEAK.
THIS FROM A LITTLE CHATTERBOX WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS WITH FOR ABOUT THE PAST 3 YEARS.
AS A RESULT OF OUR FRIENDSHIP WE BEGAN TO GIVE HER GIFTS FOR CHRISTMAS AND THEN RANDOM GIFTS YEAR ROUND , WE USUALLY PUT THE GIFTS OVER THE BACK FENCE TIED TO A STRING.
CHRISTMAS EVE WE HEARD A LOUD PIERCING SCREAM OF EXCITEMENT WHEN SHE DISCOVERED THE BAG HANGING OVER THE FENCE I KNEW IMMEDIATELY IT WAS HER .
SHE IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL CHILD. FOR LACK OF OUR OWN GRAND KIDS WE POACH ON NEIGHBORS .
WE CLAIM EVERY BABY OR LIL KID WITHIN ANY SPACE OF OUR PRESENCE.
WE ARE INDEED LUCKY FOR ALL LITTLE ONES ARE OURS TO ADMIRE AND LOVE FROM A DISTANCE.
AND EACH HAS A UNIQUE MANNER OF RESPONDING TO US WHEN WE SMILE OR WAVE OR CHAT WITH THEM.
THEY LOVED TO PLAY WITH DOLLS.
I HAD LOTS OF DOLLS BUT THEIR FAVORITE ONES WERE TWO BABY DOLLS I HAD LEFT OVER FROM MY PRACTICE AS A PSYCHOTHERAPIST. ONE WAS A BOY AND ONE WAS A GIRL AND THEY HAD CORRECT BODY PARTS. AND WITH THEIR MOTHER'S PERMISSION THEY WERE ALLOWED TO PLAY WITH THEM.
INTERESTINGLY ENOUGH, THEY BOTH WANTED THE GIRL DOLL SO TO COMPENSATE FOR HAVING A BOY DOLL THEY DRESSED HIM AS A GIRL.
THESE WERE TWO VERY WISE YOUNG WOMEN WHO ARE NOW IN THEIR TEENS AND LOVE BEING WOMEN.
AND BOTH ARE VERY BRIGHT AND CANDIDATES FOR SCHOLARSHIPS , I WISH THEM A VERY HAPPY GROWNUP HOOD BECAUSE I REALLY LOVE THEM A LOT.
FOR CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR WE GAVE OUR NEIGHBOR'S CHILDREN SOME NICE GIFTS ONE IS A 6 YEAR OLD GIRL AND A 3 YEAR OLD BOY. ON CHRISTMAS MORNING SHE CAME WITH HER MOM TO GIVE US A CHRISTMAS CARD SHE DREW UP FOR US.
SHE WAS VERY EXCITED UNTIL SHE SAW WE HAD COMPANY AND BECAME VERY SHY AND UNABLE TO SPEAK.
THIS FROM A LITTLE CHATTERBOX WE HAVE BEEN FRIENDS WITH FOR ABOUT THE PAST 3 YEARS.
AS A RESULT OF OUR FRIENDSHIP WE BEGAN TO GIVE HER GIFTS FOR CHRISTMAS AND THEN RANDOM GIFTS YEAR ROUND , WE USUALLY PUT THE GIFTS OVER THE BACK FENCE TIED TO A STRING.
CHRISTMAS EVE WE HEARD A LOUD PIERCING SCREAM OF EXCITEMENT WHEN SHE DISCOVERED THE BAG HANGING OVER THE FENCE I KNEW IMMEDIATELY IT WAS HER .
SHE IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL CHILD. FOR LACK OF OUR OWN GRAND KIDS WE POACH ON NEIGHBORS .
WE CLAIM EVERY BABY OR LIL KID WITHIN ANY SPACE OF OUR PRESENCE.
WE ARE INDEED LUCKY FOR ALL LITTLE ONES ARE OURS TO ADMIRE AND LOVE FROM A DISTANCE.
AND EACH HAS A UNIQUE MANNER OF RESPONDING TO US WHEN WE SMILE OR WAVE OR CHAT WITH THEM.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
MY AUNT MADELINE
I BELIEVE I MAY HAVE MENTIONED MY OLD AUNT MADELINE DOMINGUEZ SHE WAS MARRIED TO A BROTHER OF MY GRANDMOTHER ON MY MOTHER;S SIDE. SHE ALSO WEIGHED ABOUT 400 LBS AND LIVED IN AN OLD GARAGE MADE OVER INTO A VERY SMALL ABODE .
WELL, SHE USED TO LIVE IN A MANSION WHICH WAS NEXT DOOR TO THIS SMALL TINY MINUTE PLACE AND IT HAS RENTALS AND I THINK SHE COLL-E CTED RENT FROM THEM.
I WENT INTO THE MANSION AND LOOKED AROUND ONCE IT WAS A FASCINATING PLACE.
ANYWAY, MY AUNT SEEMED TO BE MY MOTHER'S MENTOR. IN F THIS TEENSY ROOM WHERE SHE LIVED WAS A HUGE BED AND ACROSS FROM THE BED IS A TOILET.
ONCE WHEN MY MOTHER WAS VISITING MY OLD AUNT I WAS IRRITABLE BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE SOMEPLACE ELSE AND WAS CRYING AND COMPLAINING , MY AUNT SUGGESTED TO MY MOTHER THAT I MUST BE CONSTIPATED AND SHE SHOULD TAKE ACTION.
SHE AND MOM DECIDED TO GIVE ME AN ENEMA SO ONE WHOOP WITH THAT THING AND I SAID I WENT I WENT!!
I LIED BECAUSE IT WAS A VERY TRAUMATIC THING FOR ME.
BEING ABOUT 2 OR 3 YEARS OLD IT WAS MY ONLY DEFENSE.
THAT WAS MY LAST EXPERIENCE WITH THAT TOOL.
IN THE HOSPITAL WHEN I HAD MY BABIES I ALWAYS SAID I WENT .
WELL, I NEED NOT COVER THIS SUBJECT ANYMORE, I WAS SHOWING HOW MY MOM AND AUNT WERE THAT CLOSE.
SOME YEARS LATER , MY AUNTS PLACE BURNED DOWN, AND ALL HE INTERESTING THINGS WERE STOLEN FROM THE REMAINS OF THAT SMALL PLACE AND SHE WAS BADLY BURNT AND WA SIN HOSPITAL FOR A LENGTH OF TIME, SO WHEN THEY DISCHARGED HER SHE CAME TO LIVE WITH US.
IT WAS A TERRIBLE TIME FOR US ALL. SHE HAD A VERY BAD ODOR FROM THE HEALING BURNS AND WE CHILDREN WERE NOT TOLERANT OF IT.
EVENTUALLY MY AUNT WENT SOMEWHERE I DON'T REMEMBER WHERE AND I DON'T REMEMBER HER DYING.
BUT I HAD MANY INTERESTING VISITS AT HER HOUSE DURING MY EARLY YEARS. I LIKED TO WATCH HER TEACHING MY MOM TO READ CARDS.
AND IT WAS BECAUSE OF HER MY MOM WAS ABLE TO SUPPORT US WITH THIS SKILL. PEOPLE WOULD COME TOHER FOR A READING MANY TIMES THEY PAID HER 1.00 EACH TIME , AND FOR A LOVE POTION THEY PAID 3.00
I RAN TO TEICHERT'S OUR DIME STORE IN SANTA FE TO BUY EVENING IN PARIS OR ANY PERFUME THAT WAS A DOLLAR A BOTTLE FOR MY MOM TO FILL SMALL BOTTLES WITH TO SELL AS LOVE POTIONS TO HER CUSTOMERS ... AND THEY CAME BACK FOR MORE MANY TIMES SO AT SOME LEVEL THE STUFF WORKED!!!
NOW I HAVE A SISTER BY THE SAME NAME AS MY OLD AUNT, AND SHE ONCE COMPLAINED TO ME ABOUT BEING NAMED AFTER A WHORE, HAHAH I WAS NAMED AFTER A SAINT AND MY OTHER SISTER NAMED FOR THE VIRGINS PAIN AT THE LOSS OF HER SON.
ALL CATHOLIC TYPE NAMES.
I WILL NEVER FORGET MY OLD AUNT MADELINE SHE WAS A VERY INTERESTING WOMAN IN MY LIFE.
I ALSO HAD A FRIEND NAMED CARLOS NAUMER AND HIS DAD WAS A FAMED ARTIST NAMED HELMUTH NAUMER. I LOVED CARLOS BECAUSE HE WAS KIND AND SUPPORTIVE TO ME THRU GRADE SCHOOL WHEN I WAS BULLIED BY A BIG KID NAMED ------- FORGOT HIS NAME OH JOHNNY WAS IT.
BIG BRUTE HATEFUL AS THE DAY IS LONG HE PICKED ON QUIET SENSITIVE KIDS ALL THAT TIME . I SPENT AS MANY RECESSES INDOORS AS THEY LET ME.
BUT IN TIME WE WERE SEPARATED BACK INTO SMART KIDS AVERAGE KIDS AND SLOW KIDS JOHNNY WENT INTO THE SLOW KID PLACE. I WENT TO THE SMART KID CLASS WITH CARLOS. CARL0S DIED A FEW YEARS AGO IN SANTA FE . HE WAS A VERY DEAR PERSON I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER. HE TOO, WAS AN ARTIST.
WELL, I AM OUT OF MEMORIES FOIR TODAY. WILL DO MORE ANOTHER TIME.
WELL, SHE USED TO LIVE IN A MANSION WHICH WAS NEXT DOOR TO THIS SMALL TINY MINUTE PLACE AND IT HAS RENTALS AND I THINK SHE COLL-E CTED RENT FROM THEM.
I WENT INTO THE MANSION AND LOOKED AROUND ONCE IT WAS A FASCINATING PLACE.
ANYWAY, MY AUNT SEEMED TO BE MY MOTHER'S MENTOR. IN F THIS TEENSY ROOM WHERE SHE LIVED WAS A HUGE BED AND ACROSS FROM THE BED IS A TOILET.
ONCE WHEN MY MOTHER WAS VISITING MY OLD AUNT I WAS IRRITABLE BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE SOMEPLACE ELSE AND WAS CRYING AND COMPLAINING , MY AUNT SUGGESTED TO MY MOTHER THAT I MUST BE CONSTIPATED AND SHE SHOULD TAKE ACTION.
SHE AND MOM DECIDED TO GIVE ME AN ENEMA SO ONE WHOOP WITH THAT THING AND I SAID I WENT I WENT!!
I LIED BECAUSE IT WAS A VERY TRAUMATIC THING FOR ME.
BEING ABOUT 2 OR 3 YEARS OLD IT WAS MY ONLY DEFENSE.
THAT WAS MY LAST EXPERIENCE WITH THAT TOOL.
IN THE HOSPITAL WHEN I HAD MY BABIES I ALWAYS SAID I WENT .
WELL, I NEED NOT COVER THIS SUBJECT ANYMORE, I WAS SHOWING HOW MY MOM AND AUNT WERE THAT CLOSE.
SOME YEARS LATER , MY AUNTS PLACE BURNED DOWN, AND ALL HE INTERESTING THINGS WERE STOLEN FROM THE REMAINS OF THAT SMALL PLACE AND SHE WAS BADLY BURNT AND WA SIN HOSPITAL FOR A LENGTH OF TIME, SO WHEN THEY DISCHARGED HER SHE CAME TO LIVE WITH US.
IT WAS A TERRIBLE TIME FOR US ALL. SHE HAD A VERY BAD ODOR FROM THE HEALING BURNS AND WE CHILDREN WERE NOT TOLERANT OF IT.
EVENTUALLY MY AUNT WENT SOMEWHERE I DON'T REMEMBER WHERE AND I DON'T REMEMBER HER DYING.
BUT I HAD MANY INTERESTING VISITS AT HER HOUSE DURING MY EARLY YEARS. I LIKED TO WATCH HER TEACHING MY MOM TO READ CARDS.
AND IT WAS BECAUSE OF HER MY MOM WAS ABLE TO SUPPORT US WITH THIS SKILL. PEOPLE WOULD COME TOHER FOR A READING MANY TIMES THEY PAID HER 1.00 EACH TIME , AND FOR A LOVE POTION THEY PAID 3.00
I RAN TO TEICHERT'S OUR DIME STORE IN SANTA FE TO BUY EVENING IN PARIS OR ANY PERFUME THAT WAS A DOLLAR A BOTTLE FOR MY MOM TO FILL SMALL BOTTLES WITH TO SELL AS LOVE POTIONS TO HER CUSTOMERS ... AND THEY CAME BACK FOR MORE MANY TIMES SO AT SOME LEVEL THE STUFF WORKED!!!
NOW I HAVE A SISTER BY THE SAME NAME AS MY OLD AUNT, AND SHE ONCE COMPLAINED TO ME ABOUT BEING NAMED AFTER A WHORE, HAHAH I WAS NAMED AFTER A SAINT AND MY OTHER SISTER NAMED FOR THE VIRGINS PAIN AT THE LOSS OF HER SON.
ALL CATHOLIC TYPE NAMES.
I WILL NEVER FORGET MY OLD AUNT MADELINE SHE WAS A VERY INTERESTING WOMAN IN MY LIFE.
I ALSO HAD A FRIEND NAMED CARLOS NAUMER AND HIS DAD WAS A FAMED ARTIST NAMED HELMUTH NAUMER. I LOVED CARLOS BECAUSE HE WAS KIND AND SUPPORTIVE TO ME THRU GRADE SCHOOL WHEN I WAS BULLIED BY A BIG KID NAMED ------- FORGOT HIS NAME OH JOHNNY WAS IT.
BIG BRUTE HATEFUL AS THE DAY IS LONG HE PICKED ON QUIET SENSITIVE KIDS ALL THAT TIME . I SPENT AS MANY RECESSES INDOORS AS THEY LET ME.
BUT IN TIME WE WERE SEPARATED BACK INTO SMART KIDS AVERAGE KIDS AND SLOW KIDS JOHNNY WENT INTO THE SLOW KID PLACE. I WENT TO THE SMART KID CLASS WITH CARLOS. CARL0S DIED A FEW YEARS AGO IN SANTA FE . HE WAS A VERY DEAR PERSON I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER. HE TOO, WAS AN ARTIST.
WELL, I AM OUT OF MEMORIES FOIR TODAY. WILL DO MORE ANOTHER TIME.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
MORE MEMORIES
TODAY WE HAVE TO GO GROCERY SHOPPING FOR CHRISTMAS MEALS IN THE "CITY".
I REMEMBER ONE CHRISTMAS WHEN MY BOYS WERE 4,7, 8 YEARS OLD WE HAD ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY THE 7,8 YEARS OLD BOYS A NEW BIKE BUT THE LITTLEST BOY NOT SO WE BOUGHT A USED BIKE AND FIXED IT UP LIKE NEW OR SO WE THOUGHT, AND HE GOT THAT FOR CHRISTMAS. OMIGOODNESS!!! HE WAS HEARTBROKEN AND REFUSED THE BIKE AND CRIED MOST OF THE DAY.
THAT WAS OUR WORST CHRISTMAS DAY FOR HIM EVER. BUT HE MADE IT UP EATING OUR KIDS LOVED TO EAT, THEY WERE ALWAYS HUNGRY TOO AND SOMETIMES THEY BROUGHT OVER FRIENDS TOO WHO ALL ATE US OUT OF HOUSE AND HOME. THAT HAPPENS WHEN KIDS WANT TO BE IN YOUR HOUSE ALL THE TIME.
ONCE A FRIEND OF OUR KIDS DECIDED TO MOVE IN WITH US, SUITCASE AND ALL BUT I INSISTED THAT I HAD TO NOTIFY HIS PARENTS BECAUSE ITS THE LAW. AND ONLY IF THE PARENTS AGREED TO HIM STAYING COULD HE LIVE WITH US. WELL, HIS DAD CAME FOR HIM WITHIN THE HOUR.
NOW WHAT THESE TWO BOYS HAD OBJECTED TO WAS THE PARENTS HAD MOVED THEM ALL INTO A NUDIST COLONY, AND THEY WERE EMBARRASSED TO LIVE THERE AND THE PARENTS HAD NO CONCEPTION OF WHAT THEY WERE DOING TO THESE KIDS.
THIS WAS NOT CONSIDERED A CPS PROBLEM FOR SOME REASON.
I MUST GO NOW TIME TO GET READY FOR MY LONG DAY SEEYALL.
I REMEMBER ONE CHRISTMAS WHEN MY BOYS WERE 4,7, 8 YEARS OLD WE HAD ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY THE 7,8 YEARS OLD BOYS A NEW BIKE BUT THE LITTLEST BOY NOT SO WE BOUGHT A USED BIKE AND FIXED IT UP LIKE NEW OR SO WE THOUGHT, AND HE GOT THAT FOR CHRISTMAS. OMIGOODNESS!!! HE WAS HEARTBROKEN AND REFUSED THE BIKE AND CRIED MOST OF THE DAY.
THAT WAS OUR WORST CHRISTMAS DAY FOR HIM EVER. BUT HE MADE IT UP EATING OUR KIDS LOVED TO EAT, THEY WERE ALWAYS HUNGRY TOO AND SOMETIMES THEY BROUGHT OVER FRIENDS TOO WHO ALL ATE US OUT OF HOUSE AND HOME. THAT HAPPENS WHEN KIDS WANT TO BE IN YOUR HOUSE ALL THE TIME.
ONCE A FRIEND OF OUR KIDS DECIDED TO MOVE IN WITH US, SUITCASE AND ALL BUT I INSISTED THAT I HAD TO NOTIFY HIS PARENTS BECAUSE ITS THE LAW. AND ONLY IF THE PARENTS AGREED TO HIM STAYING COULD HE LIVE WITH US. WELL, HIS DAD CAME FOR HIM WITHIN THE HOUR.
NOW WHAT THESE TWO BOYS HAD OBJECTED TO WAS THE PARENTS HAD MOVED THEM ALL INTO A NUDIST COLONY, AND THEY WERE EMBARRASSED TO LIVE THERE AND THE PARENTS HAD NO CONCEPTION OF WHAT THEY WERE DOING TO THESE KIDS.
THIS WAS NOT CONSIDERED A CPS PROBLEM FOR SOME REASON.
I MUST GO NOW TIME TO GET READY FOR MY LONG DAY SEEYALL.
Monday, December 20, 2010
MONDAY ONCE MORE
WELL.HERE WE GO AGAIN STARTING A NEW WEEK. TOMORROW I WILL SHOP FOR CHRISTMAS MEALS:
CHRISTMAS EVE ; POT ROAST WITH CARROTS ONIONS AND POTATOES
SALAD , TAMALE PIE AND WE HAVE PUMPKIN PIES AND FRUITCAKE COFFEE SODAS AND ETC MANY CHIPS AND DIPS FOR SNACKS WITH GUACAMOLE AND RE FRIED BEANS AND CHEESE
CHRISTMAS DAY:
Turkey breast
stuffing
mashed potatoes gravy
salad
sweet potatoes cranberries
pies and cake for dessert
for breakfast we can have that egg cheese casserole
and bacon and turkey sausage in case anyone wants it
there you go my kids the menu
OK now for history lesson
I HAVE AN OLDER BROTHER, I DO NOT LIKE MY OLDER BROTHER
WHEN I WAS A CHILD HE DESTROYED EVERY TOY I EVER GOT.
WE WERE POOR AND TOYS WERE HARD TO COME BY.
ONCE I GOT A DOLL WITH BLUE EYES AND SHE WAS A BABY AND HAD A STUFFED BODY WITH BREAKABLE ARMS AND LEGS AND HEAD
MY BROTHER TOOK SAID DOLL AND REMOVED THE HEAD TO TAKE OUT THE EYES TO USE AS MARBLES.
I HAD A BABY BUGGY FOR A DOLL MADE OF BAMBOO LIKE WOVEN STUFF IT WAS PAINTED PINK. MY BROTHER TOOK THAT ONE DAY AND FILLED IT WITH NEWSPAPERS AND LIT IT TO PLAY WAR . DESTROYED AGAIN. I LET THE AIR OUT OF HIS BIKE TIRES AND HE BEAT ME SEVERELY FOR THAT.
NEXT I GOT A LITTLE PIANO THAT REALLY PLAYED HE TOOK THAT AND REMOVED THE MARBLE LIKE THINGS IN IT TO PLAY MARBLES WITH ONCE AGAIN.
EACH TIME I CRIED A LOT,BUT HE DIDN'T CARE, MY AUNT WOULD TALK TO HIM EACH TIME BUT HE DIDN'T SEEM TO CARE.
ONCE WE GREW UP I DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM AT ALL. BUT AFTER A VISIT TO A COUSIN SHE ENCOURAGED ME TO FORGIVE HIM
SO WHEN WE MOVED TO ARIZONA I DID INVITE HIM TO STAY FOR A VISIT. WELL,HE CAME AND DURING HIS STAY HE COMMENTED ON HOW WE HAD BOUGHT A HOUSE TO "SHOW OFF" AND WANTED TO HEAR EVERY DETAIL OF MY DAUGHTER'S DEATH I SAID I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THAT AND I KNEW HE KNEW HOW SHE DIED BUT HE SAID I WANT YOU TO TELL ME. I TOLD HIM AGAINST MY BETTER JUDGMENT AND AFTER THIS, I REALIZED HE WAS DOING THIS TO TORMENT ME BY THE LOOK ON HIS FACE.
MANY OTHER NASTY CONVERSATIONS WITH MYSELF AND MY HUSBAND LATER WE DECIDED WE NEVER WANT TO SEE OR SPEAK TO HIM AGAIN.
HE IS A SOCIOPATH OF THE WORST KIND. ONCE HE EVEN SAID IF I DIED HE WAS GOING TO CLAIM ON MY PROPERTY BECAUSE WE ARE RELATED.
HE IS A HALF BROTHER. AND I DENY A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM OF ANY KIND.
THIS IS THE KIND OF RELATIVE ONE MUST STAY AWAY FROM.
AND I PLAN TO SINCE IT IS HARMFUL TO ME.
CHRISTMAS EVE ; POT ROAST WITH CARROTS ONIONS AND POTATOES
SALAD , TAMALE PIE AND WE HAVE PUMPKIN PIES AND FRUITCAKE COFFEE SODAS AND ETC MANY CHIPS AND DIPS FOR SNACKS WITH GUACAMOLE AND RE FRIED BEANS AND CHEESE
CHRISTMAS DAY:
Turkey breast
stuffing
mashed potatoes gravy
salad
sweet potatoes cranberries
pies and cake for dessert
for breakfast we can have that egg cheese casserole
and bacon and turkey sausage in case anyone wants it
there you go my kids the menu
OK now for history lesson
I HAVE AN OLDER BROTHER, I DO NOT LIKE MY OLDER BROTHER
WHEN I WAS A CHILD HE DESTROYED EVERY TOY I EVER GOT.
WE WERE POOR AND TOYS WERE HARD TO COME BY.
ONCE I GOT A DOLL WITH BLUE EYES AND SHE WAS A BABY AND HAD A STUFFED BODY WITH BREAKABLE ARMS AND LEGS AND HEAD
MY BROTHER TOOK SAID DOLL AND REMOVED THE HEAD TO TAKE OUT THE EYES TO USE AS MARBLES.
I HAD A BABY BUGGY FOR A DOLL MADE OF BAMBOO LIKE WOVEN STUFF IT WAS PAINTED PINK. MY BROTHER TOOK THAT ONE DAY AND FILLED IT WITH NEWSPAPERS AND LIT IT TO PLAY WAR . DESTROYED AGAIN. I LET THE AIR OUT OF HIS BIKE TIRES AND HE BEAT ME SEVERELY FOR THAT.
NEXT I GOT A LITTLE PIANO THAT REALLY PLAYED HE TOOK THAT AND REMOVED THE MARBLE LIKE THINGS IN IT TO PLAY MARBLES WITH ONCE AGAIN.
EACH TIME I CRIED A LOT,BUT HE DIDN'T CARE, MY AUNT WOULD TALK TO HIM EACH TIME BUT HE DIDN'T SEEM TO CARE.
ONCE WE GREW UP I DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM AT ALL. BUT AFTER A VISIT TO A COUSIN SHE ENCOURAGED ME TO FORGIVE HIM
SO WHEN WE MOVED TO ARIZONA I DID INVITE HIM TO STAY FOR A VISIT. WELL,HE CAME AND DURING HIS STAY HE COMMENTED ON HOW WE HAD BOUGHT A HOUSE TO "SHOW OFF" AND WANTED TO HEAR EVERY DETAIL OF MY DAUGHTER'S DEATH I SAID I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THAT AND I KNEW HE KNEW HOW SHE DIED BUT HE SAID I WANT YOU TO TELL ME. I TOLD HIM AGAINST MY BETTER JUDGMENT AND AFTER THIS, I REALIZED HE WAS DOING THIS TO TORMENT ME BY THE LOOK ON HIS FACE.
MANY OTHER NASTY CONVERSATIONS WITH MYSELF AND MY HUSBAND LATER WE DECIDED WE NEVER WANT TO SEE OR SPEAK TO HIM AGAIN.
HE IS A SOCIOPATH OF THE WORST KIND. ONCE HE EVEN SAID IF I DIED HE WAS GOING TO CLAIM ON MY PROPERTY BECAUSE WE ARE RELATED.
HE IS A HALF BROTHER. AND I DENY A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM OF ANY KIND.
THIS IS THE KIND OF RELATIVE ONE MUST STAY AWAY FROM.
AND I PLAN TO SINCE IT IS HARMFUL TO ME.
Monday, December 13, 2010
AND NOW ITS MONDAY AM
AAAH, I AM TIRED TODAY, I HAVE TO GO TO THE DOCTOR OR ELSE ID SLEEP TIL NOON.
ALL THESE DOCTOR APPTS ARE EATING UP MY LIFE.
ANYWAYS I KEEP THEM IN YACHTS MANSIONS AND VACATIONS NOT TO MENTION THEIR BLEACHED BLOND WIVES TRIPS TO SALONS TO BE BEAUTIFUL.
EVERY DOCTOR I HAVE MET HAD A WIFE LIKE THAT. AND THE DIVORCES I WATCHED !! THEM DOCS GET THE MONEY WHACKED OUTTA THEM AND THEY START TO CHARGE MORE TO COVER IT.
AND ALL THE DOCTORS I WORKED WITH WERE SO EASILY MANIPULATED BY CLEVER WOMEN INTO MARRIAGE. THANK GOD I ESCAPED THAT TRAP.
BECOMING A DOCTOR I MEANT. HAHAH SOCIAL WORKERS HARDLY EVER DIE RICH OR MAKE ENOUGH TO ATTRACT ANYONE EXCEPT A HOMELESS MAN.
ALL THIS IS TONGUE IN CHEEK OR HAVE YOU GUESSED?
MOST DOCTORS DO START OUT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE OR TO MAKE THEIR MILLIONS THE BEST ONES DO BOTH.
WITHOUT A DOCTOR I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE DIED SOONER, SINCE I WAS NOTED TO HAVE A LEAKY VALVE IN MY HEART AND THEY CAREFULLY MONITOR IT FOR ME.
THEY GAVE ME PILLS TO SLOW MY BLOOD PRESSURE ALTHOUGH MY PRESSURE RAN 110 OVER 70 AND PULSE AT 55 TO 60 ALL MY LIFE . NOW MY PRESSURE CANT BE 110 OVER 70 WITHOUT THE PILLS THANKS PILLS YOU HAVE MADE ME REGULAR. THE ONLY TIME MY PRESSURE JUMPS UP IS WHEN THEY PUMP MY ARM UP TO 200 AND THE PAIN DRIVES IT UP. I TELL THEM I ONLY NEED THEM TO GO TO 175 BUT THEY NEVER LISTEN. A VESTED INTEREST IN PROVING MY PRESSURE IS HIGHER THAN IT IS.
MY CHOLESTEROL IS GOOD BUT I TAKE THOSE PILLS TOO DOCS ORDERS BUT THEY ALWAYS KNOW BEST.
I HAD A READING OF 150 THAT IS GREAT READING AND MY TRIGLYCERIDES WERE GOOD TOO. I KNOW HOW TO READ MEDICAL CHARTS I HAD TO READ THEM TO DIAGNOSE MENTAL PROBLEMS IN A HOSPITAL. BUT ONE DOC I HAVE REFUSES TO LET ME SEE MY CHART LIKE ITS A SECRET. HIS HELPERS ORDER ME TO COME IN FOR TESTS AND REFUSE TO TELL ME WHY.
EVEN THOUGH A LAW HAS BEEN PASSED THAT I HAVE A RIGHT TO COPIES OF ALL MY RECORDS I HAVE A HARD TIME GETTING THEM FROM THIS ONE DOC. HIS HELPERS HAVE FULL CONTROL OVER HIM AND PATIENTS. THE TAIL IS WAGGING THAT DOG.
OKAY TIME FOR MY HISTORY LESSON: WHEN I WAS A KID MY MOM ONCE LIVED IN THIS HOUSE THAT HAD DIRT FLOORS. WE OWNED OUR OWN HOUSE, BUT MY UNCLES AND AUNT WANTED IT SO THEY FILED COURT DOCUMENTS SAYING THEY NEEDED MONEY TO HELP ME AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER.
WE DIDN'T GET A CENT THEY KEPT ALL THE RENT FROM IT, WHEN MY MOM FILED A COURT ORDER WE EACH GOT A CHECK FOR 7.00 AFTER A COUPLE OF YEARS OF RENTING IT OUT WHERE THEY TOOK EVERY CENT THEY COUNTERED WITH USING THE MONEY TO MAKE REPAIRS WHAT REPAIRS? IT WAS AN ADOBE HOUSE WITH ELECTRICITY AND A WOOD STOVE FOR HEAT WHEN WE GOT IT BACK ALL OUR FURNITURE WAS GONE AND THE FRONT ROOM FLOOR HAD BEEN RIPPED OUT AND WAS ON THE DIRT. MY MOM HAD THE FLOOR REPLACED I CANT REMEMBER WITH WHAT BUT WE HAD LINOLEUM OVER WHATEVER IT WAS.
OUR WALLS WERE CALSOMINED EACH SPRING THERE. AND I LOVED THE WINDOWS MADE FOR SITTING ON AND LOOKING OUTDOORS. WE HAD A WOOD STOVE IN THE KITCHEN AND THAT WAS THE ONLY HEAT I REMEMBER HAVING. WE USED EMPTY WINE BOTTLES TO PUT HOT WATER IN AND WRAPPED THAT IN A RAG TO WARM OUR FEET IN BED.
I CAN REMEMBER ALL MY LIFE MY UNCLES AND AUNT SUING US FOR THIS HOUSE MY GRANDFATHER LEFT US, THEY SAID HE ONLY LET US HAVE IT BECAUSE HE DIDN'T WANT US KIDS TO BE HOMELESS BUT BY LAW THEY WERE THE ONLY HEIRS ENTITLED TO THE PROPERTY. THIS WAS AN ONGOING HASSLE MY ENTIRE LIFE MY MOM WORRIED ABOUT LOSING OUR HOUSE AND HAVING TO HIRE LAWYERS ALL THE TIME. I GUESS THAT IS WHERE MOST OF OUR MONEY WENT PAYING LAWYERS TO KEEP OUR HOME. WE WERE SO POOR AND ALL OF OUR UNCLES AND AUNT WERE QUITE WEALTHY. GREEDY PEOPLE.
OUR LIVES WERE SO STRESSED AND OUR POOR MOTHER BARELY GOT BY . SHE MARRIED OUR STEP FATHER OUT OF NEED FOR INCOME AND HIS INCOME WAS SPORADIC AT BEST.
WE SPENT MANY RIDES ON THE ROAD IN HIS TRUCK DRIVING DAYS WE RODE IN THE BACK OF THE SEMIS HE DROVE AND HE WOULD LEAVE THE BACK END OPEN AND WE HUNG OUR LEGS OUT AND ATE WHATEVER FRUITS HE WAS DELIVERING ALL THE WAY I REMEMBER EATING SO MANY BANANAS THAT I'M NOT VERY FOND OF THEM ANYMORE. IN PRESENT TIMES WE WOULD HAVE BEEN CONSIDERED ABUSED NEGLECTED KIDS BY THIS MAN AND IN TIME OUR RELATIVES MANAGED TO DO JUST THAT THE ONLY PROBLEM WAS ONLY OUR AUNT WOULD TAKE OUR SISTER IN HER HOME THE REST OF US WENT INTO FOSTER CARE FOR MANY YEARS.
I WAS GLAD FOR MY SECOND HOME IT WAS VERY STABLE AND I WAS ALLOWED FREEDOM TO EXPLORE MY SURROUNDINGS AND HANG OUT WITH MY ONE BEST FRIEND. I EXCELLED IN SCHOOL WITH STRAIGHT A'S AN NO ONE WHO EVEN CARED HAHA.
I USED TO LIKE TO WALK DOWN THIS LITTLE STREAM ON GARCIA STREET AND I THINK CANYON ROAD THERE WAS A BRIDGE OVER IT AND I WENT INTO THE STREAM BED TO WALK AND WADE AND IN WINTER I SLID ON THE ICE. IT WAS BEHIND MANY LOVELY HOUSES AND I WOULD LOOK AT THEM AND SEE THE PRETTY GRASS YARDS THAT WENT DOWN TO THE STREAM. AFTER A BIG RAIN IT WOULD REALLY LOAD UP WITH WATER AND THAT WAS A LOT OF FUN TOO BUT YOU ALWAYS HAD TO WATCH FRO BROKEN BOTTLES IN STREAMS BECAUSE SOME IDIOTS ALWAYS THREW THEM IN THERE AND IT CUT OUR FEET. ANYTIME IT RAINED IN SUMMER I WOULD GO OUT TO PLAY IN IT.
THEY HAD NO SEWERS WATER OVERFLOW WAS HANDLED BY LITTLE DITCHES ALONG THE STREETS A VERITABLE FUN AND HAZARD FILLED PLAY GROUND FOR US IN OUR BARE FEET . WE ALL WENT BAREFOOT ALL SUMMER WHAN WINTER CAME WE WOULD HAVE OUTGROWN OUR SHOES. AND WE HAD TO WEAR THOSE DARNED RUBBER BOOTS TO KEEP OUR FEET FROM GETTIGN WET ALL WINTER IN THE SNOW. PROBLEM? THEY WERE TOO SMALL TO GO OVER NEW SHOES AND WE FORCED THEM IN CAUSING MISERY AND BREAKS IN THE RUBBER AND LEAKS INTO OUR FEET.
BUT WE LIVED THROUGH ALL THIS. AND HERE I AM AND THERE ARE MY SIBS ONLY ONE BROTHER HAS DIED... JUNIOR HE WAS THE SWEETEST GENTLEST PERSON I HAVE EVER KNOWN. HE WAS MODERATELY RETARDED. BUT HE WORKED AT A JOB AND HAD A HOME HIS OWN BLESS HIS HEART.
WHEN I LEFT HOME AT MY TENDER AGE I LEFT AND ABONDONED ALL THEM BEHIND BECAUSE THEUR REMINDERS OF MY BAD TIMES KEPT ME AWAY.
I ONLY SAW THEM ALL AT MAMAS HOUSE AFEW TIMES AND AFTER I MARRIED, ONLY ONCE FOR HER FUNERAL . I WAS 23 WHEN SHE DIED AND I HAD 2 TINY BOYS. EVERYONE THOUGHT THEY WERE TWINS BECAUSE THEY WERE SO CLOSE IN AGE. I HAD THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN.
ALL BLOND TOWHEADS AND HAD EITHER BLUE OR GREEN EYES OR A HAZY GREEN AND AMBER.
ALL THESE DOCTOR APPTS ARE EATING UP MY LIFE.
ANYWAYS I KEEP THEM IN YACHTS MANSIONS AND VACATIONS NOT TO MENTION THEIR BLEACHED BLOND WIVES TRIPS TO SALONS TO BE BEAUTIFUL.
EVERY DOCTOR I HAVE MET HAD A WIFE LIKE THAT. AND THE DIVORCES I WATCHED !! THEM DOCS GET THE MONEY WHACKED OUTTA THEM AND THEY START TO CHARGE MORE TO COVER IT.
AND ALL THE DOCTORS I WORKED WITH WERE SO EASILY MANIPULATED BY CLEVER WOMEN INTO MARRIAGE. THANK GOD I ESCAPED THAT TRAP.
BECOMING A DOCTOR I MEANT. HAHAH SOCIAL WORKERS HARDLY EVER DIE RICH OR MAKE ENOUGH TO ATTRACT ANYONE EXCEPT A HOMELESS MAN.
ALL THIS IS TONGUE IN CHEEK OR HAVE YOU GUESSED?
MOST DOCTORS DO START OUT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE OR TO MAKE THEIR MILLIONS THE BEST ONES DO BOTH.
WITHOUT A DOCTOR I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE DIED SOONER, SINCE I WAS NOTED TO HAVE A LEAKY VALVE IN MY HEART AND THEY CAREFULLY MONITOR IT FOR ME.
THEY GAVE ME PILLS TO SLOW MY BLOOD PRESSURE ALTHOUGH MY PRESSURE RAN 110 OVER 70 AND PULSE AT 55 TO 60 ALL MY LIFE . NOW MY PRESSURE CANT BE 110 OVER 70 WITHOUT THE PILLS THANKS PILLS YOU HAVE MADE ME REGULAR. THE ONLY TIME MY PRESSURE JUMPS UP IS WHEN THEY PUMP MY ARM UP TO 200 AND THE PAIN DRIVES IT UP. I TELL THEM I ONLY NEED THEM TO GO TO 175 BUT THEY NEVER LISTEN. A VESTED INTEREST IN PROVING MY PRESSURE IS HIGHER THAN IT IS.
MY CHOLESTEROL IS GOOD BUT I TAKE THOSE PILLS TOO DOCS ORDERS BUT THEY ALWAYS KNOW BEST.
I HAD A READING OF 150 THAT IS GREAT READING AND MY TRIGLYCERIDES WERE GOOD TOO. I KNOW HOW TO READ MEDICAL CHARTS I HAD TO READ THEM TO DIAGNOSE MENTAL PROBLEMS IN A HOSPITAL. BUT ONE DOC I HAVE REFUSES TO LET ME SEE MY CHART LIKE ITS A SECRET. HIS HELPERS ORDER ME TO COME IN FOR TESTS AND REFUSE TO TELL ME WHY.
EVEN THOUGH A LAW HAS BEEN PASSED THAT I HAVE A RIGHT TO COPIES OF ALL MY RECORDS I HAVE A HARD TIME GETTING THEM FROM THIS ONE DOC. HIS HELPERS HAVE FULL CONTROL OVER HIM AND PATIENTS. THE TAIL IS WAGGING THAT DOG.
OKAY TIME FOR MY HISTORY LESSON: WHEN I WAS A KID MY MOM ONCE LIVED IN THIS HOUSE THAT HAD DIRT FLOORS. WE OWNED OUR OWN HOUSE, BUT MY UNCLES AND AUNT WANTED IT SO THEY FILED COURT DOCUMENTS SAYING THEY NEEDED MONEY TO HELP ME AND MY BROTHER AND SISTER.
WE DIDN'T GET A CENT THEY KEPT ALL THE RENT FROM IT, WHEN MY MOM FILED A COURT ORDER WE EACH GOT A CHECK FOR 7.00 AFTER A COUPLE OF YEARS OF RENTING IT OUT WHERE THEY TOOK EVERY CENT THEY COUNTERED WITH USING THE MONEY TO MAKE REPAIRS WHAT REPAIRS? IT WAS AN ADOBE HOUSE WITH ELECTRICITY AND A WOOD STOVE FOR HEAT WHEN WE GOT IT BACK ALL OUR FURNITURE WAS GONE AND THE FRONT ROOM FLOOR HAD BEEN RIPPED OUT AND WAS ON THE DIRT. MY MOM HAD THE FLOOR REPLACED I CANT REMEMBER WITH WHAT BUT WE HAD LINOLEUM OVER WHATEVER IT WAS.
OUR WALLS WERE CALSOMINED EACH SPRING THERE. AND I LOVED THE WINDOWS MADE FOR SITTING ON AND LOOKING OUTDOORS. WE HAD A WOOD STOVE IN THE KITCHEN AND THAT WAS THE ONLY HEAT I REMEMBER HAVING. WE USED EMPTY WINE BOTTLES TO PUT HOT WATER IN AND WRAPPED THAT IN A RAG TO WARM OUR FEET IN BED.
I CAN REMEMBER ALL MY LIFE MY UNCLES AND AUNT SUING US FOR THIS HOUSE MY GRANDFATHER LEFT US, THEY SAID HE ONLY LET US HAVE IT BECAUSE HE DIDN'T WANT US KIDS TO BE HOMELESS BUT BY LAW THEY WERE THE ONLY HEIRS ENTITLED TO THE PROPERTY. THIS WAS AN ONGOING HASSLE MY ENTIRE LIFE MY MOM WORRIED ABOUT LOSING OUR HOUSE AND HAVING TO HIRE LAWYERS ALL THE TIME. I GUESS THAT IS WHERE MOST OF OUR MONEY WENT PAYING LAWYERS TO KEEP OUR HOME. WE WERE SO POOR AND ALL OF OUR UNCLES AND AUNT WERE QUITE WEALTHY. GREEDY PEOPLE.
OUR LIVES WERE SO STRESSED AND OUR POOR MOTHER BARELY GOT BY . SHE MARRIED OUR STEP FATHER OUT OF NEED FOR INCOME AND HIS INCOME WAS SPORADIC AT BEST.
WE SPENT MANY RIDES ON THE ROAD IN HIS TRUCK DRIVING DAYS WE RODE IN THE BACK OF THE SEMIS HE DROVE AND HE WOULD LEAVE THE BACK END OPEN AND WE HUNG OUR LEGS OUT AND ATE WHATEVER FRUITS HE WAS DELIVERING ALL THE WAY I REMEMBER EATING SO MANY BANANAS THAT I'M NOT VERY FOND OF THEM ANYMORE. IN PRESENT TIMES WE WOULD HAVE BEEN CONSIDERED ABUSED NEGLECTED KIDS BY THIS MAN AND IN TIME OUR RELATIVES MANAGED TO DO JUST THAT THE ONLY PROBLEM WAS ONLY OUR AUNT WOULD TAKE OUR SISTER IN HER HOME THE REST OF US WENT INTO FOSTER CARE FOR MANY YEARS.
I WAS GLAD FOR MY SECOND HOME IT WAS VERY STABLE AND I WAS ALLOWED FREEDOM TO EXPLORE MY SURROUNDINGS AND HANG OUT WITH MY ONE BEST FRIEND. I EXCELLED IN SCHOOL WITH STRAIGHT A'S AN NO ONE WHO EVEN CARED HAHA.
I USED TO LIKE TO WALK DOWN THIS LITTLE STREAM ON GARCIA STREET AND I THINK CANYON ROAD THERE WAS A BRIDGE OVER IT AND I WENT INTO THE STREAM BED TO WALK AND WADE AND IN WINTER I SLID ON THE ICE. IT WAS BEHIND MANY LOVELY HOUSES AND I WOULD LOOK AT THEM AND SEE THE PRETTY GRASS YARDS THAT WENT DOWN TO THE STREAM. AFTER A BIG RAIN IT WOULD REALLY LOAD UP WITH WATER AND THAT WAS A LOT OF FUN TOO BUT YOU ALWAYS HAD TO WATCH FRO BROKEN BOTTLES IN STREAMS BECAUSE SOME IDIOTS ALWAYS THREW THEM IN THERE AND IT CUT OUR FEET. ANYTIME IT RAINED IN SUMMER I WOULD GO OUT TO PLAY IN IT.
THEY HAD NO SEWERS WATER OVERFLOW WAS HANDLED BY LITTLE DITCHES ALONG THE STREETS A VERITABLE FUN AND HAZARD FILLED PLAY GROUND FOR US IN OUR BARE FEET . WE ALL WENT BAREFOOT ALL SUMMER WHAN WINTER CAME WE WOULD HAVE OUTGROWN OUR SHOES. AND WE HAD TO WEAR THOSE DARNED RUBBER BOOTS TO KEEP OUR FEET FROM GETTIGN WET ALL WINTER IN THE SNOW. PROBLEM? THEY WERE TOO SMALL TO GO OVER NEW SHOES AND WE FORCED THEM IN CAUSING MISERY AND BREAKS IN THE RUBBER AND LEAKS INTO OUR FEET.
BUT WE LIVED THROUGH ALL THIS. AND HERE I AM AND THERE ARE MY SIBS ONLY ONE BROTHER HAS DIED... JUNIOR HE WAS THE SWEETEST GENTLEST PERSON I HAVE EVER KNOWN. HE WAS MODERATELY RETARDED. BUT HE WORKED AT A JOB AND HAD A HOME HIS OWN BLESS HIS HEART.
WHEN I LEFT HOME AT MY TENDER AGE I LEFT AND ABONDONED ALL THEM BEHIND BECAUSE THEUR REMINDERS OF MY BAD TIMES KEPT ME AWAY.
I ONLY SAW THEM ALL AT MAMAS HOUSE AFEW TIMES AND AFTER I MARRIED, ONLY ONCE FOR HER FUNERAL . I WAS 23 WHEN SHE DIED AND I HAD 2 TINY BOYS. EVERYONE THOUGHT THEY WERE TWINS BECAUSE THEY WERE SO CLOSE IN AGE. I HAD THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN.
ALL BLOND TOWHEADS AND HAD EITHER BLUE OR GREEN EYES OR A HAZY GREEN AND AMBER.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
SUNDAY MORNING COMING DOWN BY SAMMI SMITH
IT'S ANOTHER SUNDAY WE ARE MEETING 2 YOUNG FRIENDS FOR MIDDAY DINNER AT OLIVE GARDEN TODAY,
YESTERDAY MY KIDS CAME OVER AND WE WATCHED THE NEW SIMPSON'S THEY HADN'T SEEN AND CHATTED A LOT AND WENT TO MASS.
WHEN THEY GOT HOME I GOT MYSTERIOUS CALL FROM MY DAUGHTER-IN-LAW ASKING ME WHY HAD I DONE IT? I SAID DONE WHAT?
SHE SAID ARE YOU READY?
I SAID GO AHEAD.
SHE ASKED WHY WE SENT THEM A FRUITCAKE WHEN THEY DIDN'T BUY ANY CUZ THEY WERE TOO EXPENSIVE THIS YEAR.
I JUST SAID AND WHY IS A GIFT TO BE DENIED? SHE SAID HER THANK YOUS AND ET AL THEN HANDED THE PHONE TO MY SON
HE SAID what?
I SAID WHAT?
HE SAID NOTHING I SAID NOTHING WE LAUGHED AND SAID I LOVE YOU AND HUNG UP.
MY DAUGHTER IN LAW IS A FUN TOY!!
YESTERDAY MY KIDS CAME OVER AND WE WATCHED THE NEW SIMPSON'S THEY HADN'T SEEN AND CHATTED A LOT AND WENT TO MASS.
WHEN THEY GOT HOME I GOT MYSTERIOUS CALL FROM MY DAUGHTER-IN-LAW ASKING ME WHY HAD I DONE IT? I SAID DONE WHAT?
SHE SAID ARE YOU READY?
I SAID GO AHEAD.
SHE ASKED WHY WE SENT THEM A FRUITCAKE WHEN THEY DIDN'T BUY ANY CUZ THEY WERE TOO EXPENSIVE THIS YEAR.
I JUST SAID AND WHY IS A GIFT TO BE DENIED? SHE SAID HER THANK YOUS AND ET AL THEN HANDED THE PHONE TO MY SON
HE SAID what?
I SAID WHAT?
HE SAID NOTHING I SAID NOTHING WE LAUGHED AND SAID I LOVE YOU AND HUNG UP.
MY DAUGHTER IN LAW IS A FUN TOY!!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I CAN'T REMMEBER A VERY GOOD MEMORY I WAS GOING TO PUT IN HERE
CHRISTMAS 2010 THIS IS WHERE ALL THE FOOD TAKES PLACE WAHOO!!!
AND THE FAMILY ROOM IS WHERE WE OPEN THE PRESENTS
Sunday, December 5, 2010
SUNDAY ROAST
DAD HAS A PUZZLE HE LOVES AND DISCOVERED HE WAS MISSING 6 PIECES TODAY WHEN HE TRIED TO FINSIH IT.
HE HAS ABOUT 100 PUZZLES STACKED IN A CORNER OF THE FAMILY ROOM
AND HES GETTIGN MORE THAN 10 MORE FOR CHRISTMAS AND... HE LOVES ALL OF THEWM SO MUCH HE WONT GIVE ANY AWAY.
THAT CORNER WAS SLATED FOR A BOOK CASE DARNIT.
I GUESS WE WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE IN A MESS UNTIL HE DECIDES TO LEAVE THE PREMISES WHICH HES NOT PLANNING AT ALL!!
SOMETIMNES I FEEL LIKE A TENANT HERE NO SPACE THAT IS ACTUALLY ALL MINE EXCEPT MY BATHROOM WHICH HE ALSO OCCUPIES WHEN WE HAVE COMPANY. HUMMM
AT ANY RATE, WE GOT THE TREE UP AND DECORATED MY DAUGHTER IN LAW AND I AND MY GOOD SON FIXED DADS WIRELESS SERVICE AGAIN.
IT WAS A FULL DAYS WORK FOR HIM. GOD BLESS HIM I NEEDED TO REWARD HIM BUT I FORGOT I WAS SO DEMENTED
WELP CHRISTMAS IS COMING HE CAN GET AN EXTRA PRESENT .
HE HAS ABOUT 100 PUZZLES STACKED IN A CORNER OF THE FAMILY ROOM
AND HES GETTIGN MORE THAN 10 MORE FOR CHRISTMAS AND... HE LOVES ALL OF THEWM SO MUCH HE WONT GIVE ANY AWAY.
THAT CORNER WAS SLATED FOR A BOOK CASE DARNIT.
I GUESS WE WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE IN A MESS UNTIL HE DECIDES TO LEAVE THE PREMISES WHICH HES NOT PLANNING AT ALL!!
SOMETIMNES I FEEL LIKE A TENANT HERE NO SPACE THAT IS ACTUALLY ALL MINE EXCEPT MY BATHROOM WHICH HE ALSO OCCUPIES WHEN WE HAVE COMPANY. HUMMM
AT ANY RATE, WE GOT THE TREE UP AND DECORATED MY DAUGHTER IN LAW AND I AND MY GOOD SON FIXED DADS WIRELESS SERVICE AGAIN.
IT WAS A FULL DAYS WORK FOR HIM. GOD BLESS HIM I NEEDED TO REWARD HIM BUT I FORGOT I WAS SO DEMENTED
WELP CHRISTMAS IS COMING HE CAN GET AN EXTRA PRESENT .
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
DAD AND OTHER FUNNY MEN
MY GF WAS JUST CHATTING WITH ME AND SAID I HAVE TO GO MY HUSBAND CAN'T FIND HIS BOXERS. THEY ARE IN HIS DRAWER WHERE THEY BELONG THAT IS JUST TOO MUCH FOR HIM I MUST GO.
FUNNY I ALWAYS HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM WITH MINE. IT IS A HUSBAND DISEASE THAT STARTS RIGHT AFTER THE WEDDING AND GROWS LARGER WITH TIME. THE HELPLESSNESS IS FOSTERED BY WIFE FINDING ITEMS THAT ARE "LOST"
ALMOST ALL THINGS ARE LOST TO THEM. I AM PREPARING ALL YOU YOUNG WOMEN FOR MARRIAGE AND WHAT TO EXPECT.
MY HUSBAND COULDN'T FIND HIS GLASSES THEY WERE ON TOP OF HIS HEAD, AND HIS SLIPPERS WERE EVEN ON HIS FEET, HE HAS BECOME SO USED TO NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND STUFF HE MISSES IT EVEN WHEN HE IS HOLDING THEM.
WELL NOW YOU KNOW WHAT A WIFE IS EXPECTED TO DO AND YOU MUST PREPARE FOR IT. I ADVISE YOU TO LEARN TO KEEP YOUR BOOKS ESPECIALLY THE CHECK BOOK, BECAUSE IT IS A GOOD IDEA FOR A WIFE TO MANAGE FINANCES AND BE RESPONSIBLE FOR ALL MONEY IN AND OUT AND ADMIT WHEN YOU BUY A PAIR OF SHOES OR WHATEVER FOR THE HOUSE , TELL HUBBY AS SOON AS HE ARRIVES LOOK WHAT I GOT FOR THE KITCHEN WE REALLY NEEDED IT. AND HE WILL SAY UH HUH
IF YOU ASK HIM IN ADVANCE IF YOU SHOULD BUY SOMETHING HE WILL ARGUE ABOUT IT BEST TO BEG FORGIVENESS AFTER THAN TO BEG TO BUY IT. I MEAN IF YOU ARE KEEPING THE BOOKS AND NOT ACTING LIKE MONEY LUNATIC YOU WILL BE TRUSTED AND YOU WILL HAVE PLENTY OF MONEY.
ALWAYS PAY ALL BILLS FIRST FIGURE HOW MUCH FOOD MONEY AND GAS YOU NEED BEFORE EVEN CONSIDERING SPENDING FOR THESE WANTED NEEDS.
KEEP TRACK OF YOUR MONTHLY EXPENSES CAREFULLY. AVOID THE TRAP OF FIGHTING OVER MONEY.
ONLY SPEND WHAT YOU HAVE DON'T CHARGE IF YOU CANT PAY THE CHARGE OFF TOTALLY.
IF YOU DO SPEND AND PAY A MONTHLY BIT ON A CREDIT CARD YOU WILL STAY IN DEBT FOREVER.
OK NUFF SAID
FUNNY I ALWAYS HAVE THE SAME PROBLEM WITH MINE. IT IS A HUSBAND DISEASE THAT STARTS RIGHT AFTER THE WEDDING AND GROWS LARGER WITH TIME. THE HELPLESSNESS IS FOSTERED BY WIFE FINDING ITEMS THAT ARE "LOST"
ALMOST ALL THINGS ARE LOST TO THEM. I AM PREPARING ALL YOU YOUNG WOMEN FOR MARRIAGE AND WHAT TO EXPECT.
MY HUSBAND COULDN'T FIND HIS GLASSES THEY WERE ON TOP OF HIS HEAD, AND HIS SLIPPERS WERE EVEN ON HIS FEET, HE HAS BECOME SO USED TO NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND STUFF HE MISSES IT EVEN WHEN HE IS HOLDING THEM.
WELL NOW YOU KNOW WHAT A WIFE IS EXPECTED TO DO AND YOU MUST PREPARE FOR IT. I ADVISE YOU TO LEARN TO KEEP YOUR BOOKS ESPECIALLY THE CHECK BOOK, BECAUSE IT IS A GOOD IDEA FOR A WIFE TO MANAGE FINANCES AND BE RESPONSIBLE FOR ALL MONEY IN AND OUT AND ADMIT WHEN YOU BUY A PAIR OF SHOES OR WHATEVER FOR THE HOUSE , TELL HUBBY AS SOON AS HE ARRIVES LOOK WHAT I GOT FOR THE KITCHEN WE REALLY NEEDED IT. AND HE WILL SAY UH HUH
IF YOU ASK HIM IN ADVANCE IF YOU SHOULD BUY SOMETHING HE WILL ARGUE ABOUT IT BEST TO BEG FORGIVENESS AFTER THAN TO BEG TO BUY IT. I MEAN IF YOU ARE KEEPING THE BOOKS AND NOT ACTING LIKE MONEY LUNATIC YOU WILL BE TRUSTED AND YOU WILL HAVE PLENTY OF MONEY.
ALWAYS PAY ALL BILLS FIRST FIGURE HOW MUCH FOOD MONEY AND GAS YOU NEED BEFORE EVEN CONSIDERING SPENDING FOR THESE WANTED NEEDS.
KEEP TRACK OF YOUR MONTHLY EXPENSES CAREFULLY. AVOID THE TRAP OF FIGHTING OVER MONEY.
ONLY SPEND WHAT YOU HAVE DON'T CHARGE IF YOU CANT PAY THE CHARGE OFF TOTALLY.
IF YOU DO SPEND AND PAY A MONTHLY BIT ON A CREDIT CARD YOU WILL STAY IN DEBT FOREVER.
OK NUFF SAID
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