TODAY I AM AT HOME JUST THINKING ABOUT WHAT IS REALLY GOOD AND IMPORTANT IN MY LIFE.
1.MY GRANDDAUGHTER
2.MY HUSBAND
3. MY THREE SONS
4.MY FRIENDS AND RELATIVES
5. MY CAT
6.MY NEW ACQUAINTANCES
7. MY HOME
8.MY ONLINE FOLKS
9.MY SUPER TV
10.MY SOON TO BE NEW STOVE
11.OF COURSE MY BANK ACCOUNT HAHHA
NOW I WONDER HOW MANY FOLKS THINK I'M TOTALLY MATERIALISTIC?
I FORGOT ALL MY TAPES AND BOOKS AND MOVIES HAVING TO DO WITH SPIRITUALITY AND FAITH. WHEN YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT IT MY FAITH IS STILL NUMBER 1 ON THIS TOTAL LIST BUT IT GOES INTO S SEPARATE CATEGORY ALTOGETHER AND IS THE BASIS FOR ALL MY JOY IN THE UPPER LIST. EVERYONE HAS A SEPARATE LIST FOR THIS.
1. MY EXPERIENCE OF FEELING THE HOLY SPIRIT'S PRESENCE IN MY LIFE.
2.MY EXPERIENCE OF WHEN I AM HAVING A THERAPY SESSION WITH A PATIENT AND I AM STUCK AND STOP FOR A FEW MINUTES AND ASK THE HOLY SPIRIT FOR GUIDANCE IT HAS NEVER FAILED ME.
3. MY TOTAL FAITH AND ALL THE COMPONENTS OF IT
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
YOU BETTER FIGHT FOR SOCIAL SECURITY
THE REPUBLICANS WANT TO CUT OUT SOCIAL SECURITY CLAIMING THAT IT CANT SUSTAIN ITSELF WELL, THE REASON IT WONT SUSTAIN IS BECAUSE THE CRIMINAL POLITICIANS STOLE ALL THE MONEY OUT OF IT TO PAY THEMSELVES FOR GOVT CONTRACTS. I AM ADVISING AL YOUNG PEOPLE TO FIGHT FOR IT BECAUSE AS A PERSON NOW ON SOCIAL SECURITY WHO ALSO SAVED ON A 401K SAVINGS RETIREMENT PLAN, ALL MY 401 K MONEY WAS STOLEN BY WALL STREET.
THAT IS NOT GOING TO WORK FOR YOU ANY MONEY YOU PUT INTO A SAVINGS PLAN FOR RETIREMENT IS SUBJECT TO THIEVERY BY POLITICIANS AND THEIR CRONEYS.
FIGHT FOR SOCIAL SECURITY AND FIGHT FOR IT NOT TO BE RAIDED BY POLITICIANS IN THE FUTURE. YOU YOUNG PEOPLE NEED TO WAKE UP ASAP YOU ARE BEING MANIPULATED AND LIED TO.
THIS IS THE ONLY STABLE INCOME US OLD FOLKS HAVE IF YOU HAVE A RAILROAD RETIREMENT YOU ARE IN GOOD SHAPE BUT IN FUTURE ALMOST ALL BIG CORPORATIONS ARE STEALING ALL THESE FUNDS FROM YOU. THEY WONT PAY HEALTH CARE FUNDS AND THEY WONT SAVE YOUR RETIREMENT INVESTMENTS. THEY'RE GONNA TAKE THEM ALL AND SEND THEM TO A SECRET ACCOUNT IN SOME ISLAND SOMEWHERE.
WAKE UP AMERICANS!! YOU ARE BEING SCREWED!!!
THAT IS NOT GOING TO WORK FOR YOU ANY MONEY YOU PUT INTO A SAVINGS PLAN FOR RETIREMENT IS SUBJECT TO THIEVERY BY POLITICIANS AND THEIR CRONEYS.
FIGHT FOR SOCIAL SECURITY AND FIGHT FOR IT NOT TO BE RAIDED BY POLITICIANS IN THE FUTURE. YOU YOUNG PEOPLE NEED TO WAKE UP ASAP YOU ARE BEING MANIPULATED AND LIED TO.
THIS IS THE ONLY STABLE INCOME US OLD FOLKS HAVE IF YOU HAVE A RAILROAD RETIREMENT YOU ARE IN GOOD SHAPE BUT IN FUTURE ALMOST ALL BIG CORPORATIONS ARE STEALING ALL THESE FUNDS FROM YOU. THEY WONT PAY HEALTH CARE FUNDS AND THEY WONT SAVE YOUR RETIREMENT INVESTMENTS. THEY'RE GONNA TAKE THEM ALL AND SEND THEM TO A SECRET ACCOUNT IN SOME ISLAND SOMEWHERE.
WAKE UP AMERICANS!! YOU ARE BEING SCREWED!!!
WAKE UP AMERICA!!!
Saturday, July 24, 2010
A PEEVE
I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT THIS ILLEGAL IMMIGRANT THING THAT HAS EVERYONE SO RILED UP.
ONCE, WHEN I WAS WORKING AT A PRISON HOSPITAL AN ILLEGAL IMMIGRANT CAME INTO MY WARD AND WAS SUFFERING FROM BAD KIDNEYS HE WAS TAKING DIALYSIS 3 TIMES A WEEK, AND AS WE GOT TO KNOW HIM IT WAS DISCOVERED HE ALLOWED HIMSELF TO BE ARRESTED SO HE COULD GET A KIDNEY TRANSPLANT THROUGH THE PRISON MEDICAL SYSTEM.
NOW, LEGALLY, YOU CANNOT DENY CARE TO ANY PRISONER IN AMERICA BUT I DID KNOW THAT THAT MAN WHO WAS EXTREMELY RUDE AND VERY DEMANDING OF "HIS RIGHTS" WASN'T GOING TO HAVE AN ORGAN TRANSPLANT WHEN SO MANY LEGAL CITIZENS WERE WAITING FOR THAT ORGAN.
AND HE DIDN'T ARRANGEMENTS WERE MADE FOR HIS DISCHARGE AND DIALYSIS ON THE OUTSIDE IN MEXICO. HE WAS FURIOUS AND WANTED TO SUE BUT HE HAD NO GROUNDS WE HAD PROVIDED HIM WITH REFERRALS FOR CARE UPON DISCHARGE TO MEXICO.
AND I WAS GLAD. THIS WAS A CLEAR ABUSE OF THE SERVICE AS HE HAD BEEN AN ALCOHOLIC DRUG ADDICT AND HAD DESTROYED HIS OWN KIDNEYS WITH HIS BAD BEHAVIOR.
NOW I DON'T THINK ANYONE WHO NEEDS MEDIAL CARE SHOULD BE DENIED IT BUT A CITIZEN HAS FIRST DIBS ON CARE OVER ANYONE WHO IS NOT LEGAL.
AND I FIND IT INHUMAN TO ALLOW PEOPLE TO DIE IN THE HEAT OF THE DESERT, BUT I UNDERSTAND THE DESPERATION TO FIND A BETTER LIFE WHEN YOU ARE POOR AND STARVING AND HAVE NO OPPORTUNITY IN A POOR COUNTRY, BUT THE MONEY SPENT TO ENTER ILLEGALLY COULD BE BETTER SPENT ON FILING FOR LEGAL ENTRY. AND THE PEOPLE WHO BRING THESE PATHETIC HUMAN BEINGS IN THE COUNTRY ILLEGALLY, SHOULD BE MADE TO RETURN THE MONEY THESE PEOPLE PAY THEM FOR THIS ACT SO THEY CAN FILE FOR LEGAL ENTRY. THESE COYOTES AS THEY ARE CALLED SHOULD BE STRIPPED OF EVERY PENNY THEY GOT ILLEGALLY AND THEY SHOULD BE IN A PRISON.
NOW OUR FAMILY HISTORY GOES BACK TO THE CONQUISTADORES OF SPAIN BUT THEY DID TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE NATIVES AND KILLED A LOT OF THEM, BY THE TIME MY GRANDFATHER WAS BORN IT WAS EXPECTED THAT MOST MEN WOULD MARRY A NATIVE WOMAN AS SPANISH WOMEN WERE NOT EXPECTED TO LIVE IN SUCH POVERTY AND BARE BONES LIVING AS SETTLERS DID IN A NEW DEVELOPING COUNTRY, SO OUR CULTURE IS VERY MIXED IN NEW MEXICO MY GRANDMOTHER WAS A NATIVE AMERICAN AND HER FAMILY WAS MY GRANDFATHER WAS A BLUE EYED BLOND MAN WITH DEFINITE CAUCASIAN FEATURES AND ALL OF US CHILDREN WERE EITHER BLOND OR HISPANIC LOOKING. MY HALF BROTHER AND SISTERS LOOK LIKE A MIX MORE TAN THAN I AND I HAD A JEWISH GERMAN FATHER WHO MADE ME BLOND AND HAZEL EYED I COULD BE ANY RACE MOST PEOPLE THINK I AM ANGLO BECAUSE I SPEAK ENGLISH WELL BUT I AM BILINGUAL AND SPEAK SOME SPANISH AS I HAVE FORGOTTEN A LOT SINCE I HAVE BEEN IN AN ENGLISH SPEAKING CULTURE SINCE MY MARRIAGE. I DID USE SPANISH IN MY PROFESSION BUT I DID LOSE A LOT OF IT FROM LACK OF USE.
I CANNOT HELP BUT FEEL THE DEEPEST SYMPATHY FOR ALL THESE PEOPLE FROM THIS SPANISH SPEAKING CULTURE AS I CAN IDENTIFY WITH THEM SO STRONGLY.
I LOVE MY NEW MEXICO BACKGROUND AND I AM PROUD OF MY ANCESTORS,
I AM NOT ASHAMED OF MY BLOOD LINE AND I WILL ALWAYS BE KIND TO ANYONE WHO SHARES THIS WITH ME I CANNOT FEEL ANGER OR RAGE OR ANY NASTY FEELING FOR ANY PERSON OF HISPANIC DESCENT TRYING TO BE AN AMERICAN.
IT IS WRONG TO HATE POOR PEOPLE AND THEY ARE. THE DRUG PEOPLE WHO ARE HISPANIC BELONG ON AN ISLAND IN A PRISON AND GIVEN LIFE SENTENCES FOR HAVING RUINED MILLIONS OF LIVES WITH THEIR PRODUCT. THEY ARE USELESS MEMBERS OF ANY SOCIETY AND DESERVE TO BE REMOVED FOR ALL TIME. I DO NOT IDENTIFY WITH THEM AT ALL.
ONCE, WHEN I WAS WORKING AT A PRISON HOSPITAL AN ILLEGAL IMMIGRANT CAME INTO MY WARD AND WAS SUFFERING FROM BAD KIDNEYS HE WAS TAKING DIALYSIS 3 TIMES A WEEK, AND AS WE GOT TO KNOW HIM IT WAS DISCOVERED HE ALLOWED HIMSELF TO BE ARRESTED SO HE COULD GET A KIDNEY TRANSPLANT THROUGH THE PRISON MEDICAL SYSTEM.
NOW, LEGALLY, YOU CANNOT DENY CARE TO ANY PRISONER IN AMERICA BUT I DID KNOW THAT THAT MAN WHO WAS EXTREMELY RUDE AND VERY DEMANDING OF "HIS RIGHTS" WASN'T GOING TO HAVE AN ORGAN TRANSPLANT WHEN SO MANY LEGAL CITIZENS WERE WAITING FOR THAT ORGAN.
AND HE DIDN'T ARRANGEMENTS WERE MADE FOR HIS DISCHARGE AND DIALYSIS ON THE OUTSIDE IN MEXICO. HE WAS FURIOUS AND WANTED TO SUE BUT HE HAD NO GROUNDS WE HAD PROVIDED HIM WITH REFERRALS FOR CARE UPON DISCHARGE TO MEXICO.
AND I WAS GLAD. THIS WAS A CLEAR ABUSE OF THE SERVICE AS HE HAD BEEN AN ALCOHOLIC DRUG ADDICT AND HAD DESTROYED HIS OWN KIDNEYS WITH HIS BAD BEHAVIOR.
NOW I DON'T THINK ANYONE WHO NEEDS MEDIAL CARE SHOULD BE DENIED IT BUT A CITIZEN HAS FIRST DIBS ON CARE OVER ANYONE WHO IS NOT LEGAL.
AND I FIND IT INHUMAN TO ALLOW PEOPLE TO DIE IN THE HEAT OF THE DESERT, BUT I UNDERSTAND THE DESPERATION TO FIND A BETTER LIFE WHEN YOU ARE POOR AND STARVING AND HAVE NO OPPORTUNITY IN A POOR COUNTRY, BUT THE MONEY SPENT TO ENTER ILLEGALLY COULD BE BETTER SPENT ON FILING FOR LEGAL ENTRY. AND THE PEOPLE WHO BRING THESE PATHETIC HUMAN BEINGS IN THE COUNTRY ILLEGALLY, SHOULD BE MADE TO RETURN THE MONEY THESE PEOPLE PAY THEM FOR THIS ACT SO THEY CAN FILE FOR LEGAL ENTRY. THESE COYOTES AS THEY ARE CALLED SHOULD BE STRIPPED OF EVERY PENNY THEY GOT ILLEGALLY AND THEY SHOULD BE IN A PRISON.
NOW OUR FAMILY HISTORY GOES BACK TO THE CONQUISTADORES OF SPAIN BUT THEY DID TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE NATIVES AND KILLED A LOT OF THEM, BY THE TIME MY GRANDFATHER WAS BORN IT WAS EXPECTED THAT MOST MEN WOULD MARRY A NATIVE WOMAN AS SPANISH WOMEN WERE NOT EXPECTED TO LIVE IN SUCH POVERTY AND BARE BONES LIVING AS SETTLERS DID IN A NEW DEVELOPING COUNTRY, SO OUR CULTURE IS VERY MIXED IN NEW MEXICO MY GRANDMOTHER WAS A NATIVE AMERICAN AND HER FAMILY WAS MY GRANDFATHER WAS A BLUE EYED BLOND MAN WITH DEFINITE CAUCASIAN FEATURES AND ALL OF US CHILDREN WERE EITHER BLOND OR HISPANIC LOOKING. MY HALF BROTHER AND SISTERS LOOK LIKE A MIX MORE TAN THAN I AND I HAD A JEWISH GERMAN FATHER WHO MADE ME BLOND AND HAZEL EYED I COULD BE ANY RACE MOST PEOPLE THINK I AM ANGLO BECAUSE I SPEAK ENGLISH WELL BUT I AM BILINGUAL AND SPEAK SOME SPANISH AS I HAVE FORGOTTEN A LOT SINCE I HAVE BEEN IN AN ENGLISH SPEAKING CULTURE SINCE MY MARRIAGE. I DID USE SPANISH IN MY PROFESSION BUT I DID LOSE A LOT OF IT FROM LACK OF USE.
I CANNOT HELP BUT FEEL THE DEEPEST SYMPATHY FOR ALL THESE PEOPLE FROM THIS SPANISH SPEAKING CULTURE AS I CAN IDENTIFY WITH THEM SO STRONGLY.
I LOVE MY NEW MEXICO BACKGROUND AND I AM PROUD OF MY ANCESTORS,
I AM NOT ASHAMED OF MY BLOOD LINE AND I WILL ALWAYS BE KIND TO ANYONE WHO SHARES THIS WITH ME I CANNOT FEEL ANGER OR RAGE OR ANY NASTY FEELING FOR ANY PERSON OF HISPANIC DESCENT TRYING TO BE AN AMERICAN.
IT IS WRONG TO HATE POOR PEOPLE AND THEY ARE. THE DRUG PEOPLE WHO ARE HISPANIC BELONG ON AN ISLAND IN A PRISON AND GIVEN LIFE SENTENCES FOR HAVING RUINED MILLIONS OF LIVES WITH THEIR PRODUCT. THEY ARE USELESS MEMBERS OF ANY SOCIETY AND DESERVE TO BE REMOVED FOR ALL TIME. I DO NOT IDENTIFY WITH THEM AT ALL.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
THE DISHES
WELP HERE GOES... DAD SAID I SOMEHOW GOT HIM TO DO DISHES, ACTUALLY I LIKE TO TAKE CARE OF THEM BY MYSELF CUZ HE DOESN'T PUT THEM IN THE WASHER RIGHT AND I NEVER WASH PLASTIC ITEMS IN THE WASHER CUZ THEY FLIP OVER AND HOLD FOOD DEBRIS.
ALTHOUGH DAD THINKS I WANT HIM TO WASH THE DISHES I DON'T, I WANT TO BE THE ONE WHO CHECKS THE MACHINE AND SEES ITS ALL LOADED SO THEY WASH CLEANLY. IF YOU LOAD IT A CERTAIN WAY THE UPPER DISHES DON'T GET COMPLETELY CLEAN YOU NEED TO SET THINGS SO THE WATER CAN SHOOST UP AND CLEAN IT ALL.
SO MUCH FOR DISHES... TODAY I ASKED DAD TO MAKE SOME COFFEE HE LIKES TO MAKE IT CUZ I MESS UP THE BEAN GRINDING SO I CASUALLY WENT IN THE KITCHEN WHEN MY COFFEE HADN'T COME(HE DOES BRING IT TO ME) NICE DAD. THE WATER WAS IN THE COFFEEPOT AND THE COFFEE WAS IN THE BASKET AND THE POT WAS ON TO MAKE COFFEE SO I HAD TO POUR THE WATER INTO THE TOP AND RESTART THE POT HAHAHHA.
DAD THEN SHOWED ME A CARTOON OF A MAN WHO LANDS ON AN ISLAND AND FINDS A DOOR HE OPENS THE DOOR WHICH GOES UNDERGROUND AND FINDS HIS WIFE THERE AND SHE IS ASKING HIM "HOW COME YOUR KEYS ARE IN YOUR COFFEE CUP?"
HE SAYS " SO I WOULDN'T FORGET WHERE THEY WERE"
THAT IS SO MUCH LIKE DAD I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT . THE WORLD HAS DISCOVERED HIM AND ARE WRITING ABOUT HIM EVERYWHERE!!
HOW MANY OF YOU ARE MARRIEDX TO AN ECCENTRIC MAN LIKE THIS?
LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM ABOUT A GROUP I WAS BEING IN I DON'T KNOW IF I WAS THERE FOR THERAPY AS THE THERAPIST OR AS A CO-THERAPIST WITH MY OLD PSYCHIATRIST FRIEND.
ANYWAYS WE WERE GONNA DO A BIG CONFRONTATION I DON'T KNOW WHAT KIND AND I NEVER FOUND OUT, I HATE DREAMS THAT DON'T HAVE REAL INFO.
I HAD TO INTERPRET IT FREUDIAN STYLE LIKE ALWAYS DO. BUT IT DOESN'T SATISFY ME I MAY SEND IT ON TO MY PSYCHIATRIST FRIEND AND HAVE HIM LOOK AT IT.
DREAMS ARE SO IMPORTANT THEY GIVE YOU INFO ABOUT YOURSELF YOU DON'T SEE CONSCIOUSLY.
I USED TO LOVE TO HAVE PATIENTS TALK ABOUT THEIR DREAMS AND GUIDE THEM TO FINDING OUT THE MEANINGS. THE THERAPIST DOESN 'T INTERPRET BUT GUIDES THE PATIENT TO SEE THE INTERPRETATION.
I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS IN MIND ITS HARD WHAT TO PUT DOWN. WE WENT TO SEE INCEPTION, ABOUT DREAMS AND IT WAS SO INTERESTING THEY WENT FROM ONE DREAM INTO ANOTHER INTO A THIRD INNER DREAM.
I HAVE HAD DREAMS I WAS DREAMING BUT NOT MORE THAN THAT AND I HAVE HAD MULTIPLE DREAMS AT ONCE AND I WROTE THEM ALL DOWN IT WAS AMAZING AT THE TIME.
I LAST HAD AMAZING DREAMS IN 1977. WE HAD LIVED IN OUR RUSTIC CABIN THEN AND IT WAS VERY EARTHY I DREAMED A LOT THEN. THE TREES SEEMED TO SPEAK TO ME IT WAS VERY INTIMATE NATURE STUFF.
ONCE I WAS SITTING BY A NUTMEG TREE BY A STREAM, AND A BREEZE WENT THRU ME AND THE TREE AND IT FELT LIKE THE HOLY SPIRIT TALKED TO ME. IT WAS SO AMAZINGLY INDESCRIBABLE.
I SPENT MANY DAYS ON THE DECK THERE PRAYING FOR ENLIGHTENMENT.
AFTER MY DAUGHTER DIED I LOST MY FAITH AND ALL THESE WONDROUS HAPPENINGS STOPPED. AND I WAS JUST BEGINNING TO GET IT BACK AND HAVING SOME EXPERIENCES AGAIN WHEN MY OLDEST SON DIED.
WHAT KIND OF TRICKS WAS GOD PLAYING ON ME TAKING AWAY WHAT I LOVED MOST?
IT REALLY DAMAGES YOU. I AM STILL HURTING FROM MY SONS LOSS.
WHEN MY DAUGHTER DIED I HAD EXPERIENCES OF SEEING AND TALKING TO HER AND DREAMING OF HER OFTEN , SO THAT HELPED ME A LOT.
BUT SINCE MY SONS DEATH I HAVE HAD SLIGHT SIGNS OF HIS CONTACT BUT NOT ENOUGH TO MAKE ME HAPPIER LIKE WITH MY DAUGHTER.
WELL ENOUGH OOOEEE OO STUFF. LATER FOLKS..........LOVEYA
ALTHOUGH DAD THINKS I WANT HIM TO WASH THE DISHES I DON'T, I WANT TO BE THE ONE WHO CHECKS THE MACHINE AND SEES ITS ALL LOADED SO THEY WASH CLEANLY. IF YOU LOAD IT A CERTAIN WAY THE UPPER DISHES DON'T GET COMPLETELY CLEAN YOU NEED TO SET THINGS SO THE WATER CAN SHOOST UP AND CLEAN IT ALL.
SO MUCH FOR DISHES... TODAY I ASKED DAD TO MAKE SOME COFFEE HE LIKES TO MAKE IT CUZ I MESS UP THE BEAN GRINDING SO I CASUALLY WENT IN THE KITCHEN WHEN MY COFFEE HADN'T COME(HE DOES BRING IT TO ME) NICE DAD. THE WATER WAS IN THE COFFEEPOT AND THE COFFEE WAS IN THE BASKET AND THE POT WAS ON TO MAKE COFFEE SO I HAD TO POUR THE WATER INTO THE TOP AND RESTART THE POT HAHAHHA.
DAD THEN SHOWED ME A CARTOON OF A MAN WHO LANDS ON AN ISLAND AND FINDS A DOOR HE OPENS THE DOOR WHICH GOES UNDERGROUND AND FINDS HIS WIFE THERE AND SHE IS ASKING HIM "HOW COME YOUR KEYS ARE IN YOUR COFFEE CUP?"
HE SAYS " SO I WOULDN'T FORGET WHERE THEY WERE"
THAT IS SO MUCH LIKE DAD I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT . THE WORLD HAS DISCOVERED HIM AND ARE WRITING ABOUT HIM EVERYWHERE!!
HOW MANY OF YOU ARE MARRIEDX TO AN ECCENTRIC MAN LIKE THIS?
LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM ABOUT A GROUP I WAS BEING IN I DON'T KNOW IF I WAS THERE FOR THERAPY AS THE THERAPIST OR AS A CO-THERAPIST WITH MY OLD PSYCHIATRIST FRIEND.
ANYWAYS WE WERE GONNA DO A BIG CONFRONTATION I DON'T KNOW WHAT KIND AND I NEVER FOUND OUT, I HATE DREAMS THAT DON'T HAVE REAL INFO.
I HAD TO INTERPRET IT FREUDIAN STYLE LIKE ALWAYS DO. BUT IT DOESN'T SATISFY ME I MAY SEND IT ON TO MY PSYCHIATRIST FRIEND AND HAVE HIM LOOK AT IT.
DREAMS ARE SO IMPORTANT THEY GIVE YOU INFO ABOUT YOURSELF YOU DON'T SEE CONSCIOUSLY.
I USED TO LOVE TO HAVE PATIENTS TALK ABOUT THEIR DREAMS AND GUIDE THEM TO FINDING OUT THE MEANINGS. THE THERAPIST DOESN 'T INTERPRET BUT GUIDES THE PATIENT TO SEE THE INTERPRETATION.
I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS IN MIND ITS HARD WHAT TO PUT DOWN. WE WENT TO SEE INCEPTION, ABOUT DREAMS AND IT WAS SO INTERESTING THEY WENT FROM ONE DREAM INTO ANOTHER INTO A THIRD INNER DREAM.
I HAVE HAD DREAMS I WAS DREAMING BUT NOT MORE THAN THAT AND I HAVE HAD MULTIPLE DREAMS AT ONCE AND I WROTE THEM ALL DOWN IT WAS AMAZING AT THE TIME.
I LAST HAD AMAZING DREAMS IN 1977. WE HAD LIVED IN OUR RUSTIC CABIN THEN AND IT WAS VERY EARTHY I DREAMED A LOT THEN. THE TREES SEEMED TO SPEAK TO ME IT WAS VERY INTIMATE NATURE STUFF.
ONCE I WAS SITTING BY A NUTMEG TREE BY A STREAM, AND A BREEZE WENT THRU ME AND THE TREE AND IT FELT LIKE THE HOLY SPIRIT TALKED TO ME. IT WAS SO AMAZINGLY INDESCRIBABLE.
I SPENT MANY DAYS ON THE DECK THERE PRAYING FOR ENLIGHTENMENT.
AFTER MY DAUGHTER DIED I LOST MY FAITH AND ALL THESE WONDROUS HAPPENINGS STOPPED. AND I WAS JUST BEGINNING TO GET IT BACK AND HAVING SOME EXPERIENCES AGAIN WHEN MY OLDEST SON DIED.
WHAT KIND OF TRICKS WAS GOD PLAYING ON ME TAKING AWAY WHAT I LOVED MOST?
IT REALLY DAMAGES YOU. I AM STILL HURTING FROM MY SONS LOSS.
WHEN MY DAUGHTER DIED I HAD EXPERIENCES OF SEEING AND TALKING TO HER AND DREAMING OF HER OFTEN , SO THAT HELPED ME A LOT.
BUT SINCE MY SONS DEATH I HAVE HAD SLIGHT SIGNS OF HIS CONTACT BUT NOT ENOUGH TO MAKE ME HAPPIER LIKE WITH MY DAUGHTER.
WELL ENOUGH OOOEEE OO STUFF. LATER FOLKS..........LOVEYA
Sunday, July 11, 2010
COMPASSION
MY PROFESSION WAS AS A SOCIAL WORKER. I WAS TRAINED TO REFRAIN FROM JUDGEMENT WHEN PRACTICING THERAPY WITH A PATIENT. I AM ALLOWED TO JUDGE FOR MYSELF I AM NOT ALLOWED TO JUDGE THE PATIENT.
I HAVE ALWAYS PRACTICED THIS IN MY PROFESSION. IT TENDS TO CARRY OVER TO MY PRIVATE LIFE IN MANY WAYS I CAN SEE. NO MATTER WHAT JUDGEMENT A PERSON MAKES I TRY TO SEE ANOTHER SIDE OR MORE SIDES TO THE SITUATION. THIS CAUSES ME TO ARGUE WITH MY HUSBAND A LOT HE SUPPORTS JUDGE JUDY IN MOST CASES I ALWAYS TRY TO SEE THE POINT OF VIEW OF THE PERSON SHE MAKES JUDGEMENT UPON, NO MATTER HOW STUPID THE DEFENDENT IS.
I KNOW THAT EVERY MIND IS A WORLD IN ITSELF, MY GRANDFATHER TAUGHT ME THAT AS A 4 YEAR OLD GIRL BEFORE HE DIED.
I AM FORMED THAT WAY. SO NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY I MAY ARGUE WITH YOU. BUT AT THE ROOT OF MY ARGUMENT IS COMPASSION. ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE SAYING THAT ANY POOR PERSON IS NOT ENTITLED TO LIVE OR MAKE A BETTER LIFE FOR HIMSELF.
I GUESS THAT IS WHY I WAS ABLE TO WORK SO SUCCESFULLY WITH CRIMINALS IN PRISONS. BECAUSE I CAN LOOK AT THEIR POINT OF VIEW AND I AM ABLE TO STATE MINE. WHAT THEY DO WITH MY VIEWS IS NOT IMPORTANT BUT I DARE TO HOPE THEY WILL ACCEPT I HAVE THE RIGHT TO HAVE THEM. AS THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO HAVE THEIR OWN OPINIONS .
MY DESIRE IS TO HELP PEOPLE HAVE AN OPEN MIND ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON IN ANOTHER PERSON'S MIND AND LIFE. I AM CERTAINLY NOT SAYING THAT A MURDERER IS ENTITLED TO MURDER I AM SAYING HE IS ENTITLED TO A FAIR TRIAL AND TO STATE WHAT HE BELEIVES IS HIS MOTIVE , I MAY RARELY AGREE WITH HIM BECAUSE OF THE HORROR A MURDER IS TO ME, BUT I WILL ALLOW HIM TO SPEAK OF IT AND NOT STATE MY JUDGEMENT ABOUT HIS ACTIONS. I WILL JUDGE THE ACTION ITSELF AND TRY TO HELP HIM REACH A STATE OF REGRET AND RECONCILAITION WITH HIS ACTION AND A DESIRE TO REACH A STATE OF WANTING FORGIVENESS FROM THE VICTIMS AND FAMILIES AND GOD.
I BELEIVE IN THE TEACHINGS OF JESUS CHRIST. HE TAUGHT THAT LOVE IS THE ONLY ANSWER TO ANY PROBLEM. ONE CANNOT HATE AND FEEL THE LOVE OF GOD OR THE CONNECTION WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT.
WE ARE ALL CREATED BY GOD AND ESPECTED TO CARE FOR ONE ANOTHER AND THTA IS WHY WE ARE HERE TO LEARN TO LOVE AND SUPPORT ONE ANOTHER AND ONLY THEN CAN WE REACH A STATE OF HOLINESS WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT AND CONNECTION WITH GOD THE "ALL THERE IS" IN THE UNIVERSE.
AND YET I STILL HAVE A PROBLEM AT TIMES WITH GETTING ANGRY OR WANTING TO GET EVEN WITH SOEMONE WHO HAS WRONGED ME BECAUSE I AM NOT PERFECT. "HE TEACHES BEST WHAT HE NEEDS MOST TO LEARN" APPLIES TO ME VERY STRONGLY.
I CAN ONLY SAY " PATIENCE, GOD ISNT THEOUGH WITH ME YET". AMEN
I HAVE ALWAYS PRACTICED THIS IN MY PROFESSION. IT TENDS TO CARRY OVER TO MY PRIVATE LIFE IN MANY WAYS I CAN SEE. NO MATTER WHAT JUDGEMENT A PERSON MAKES I TRY TO SEE ANOTHER SIDE OR MORE SIDES TO THE SITUATION. THIS CAUSES ME TO ARGUE WITH MY HUSBAND A LOT HE SUPPORTS JUDGE JUDY IN MOST CASES I ALWAYS TRY TO SEE THE POINT OF VIEW OF THE PERSON SHE MAKES JUDGEMENT UPON, NO MATTER HOW STUPID THE DEFENDENT IS.
I KNOW THAT EVERY MIND IS A WORLD IN ITSELF, MY GRANDFATHER TAUGHT ME THAT AS A 4 YEAR OLD GIRL BEFORE HE DIED.
I AM FORMED THAT WAY. SO NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY I MAY ARGUE WITH YOU. BUT AT THE ROOT OF MY ARGUMENT IS COMPASSION. ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE SAYING THAT ANY POOR PERSON IS NOT ENTITLED TO LIVE OR MAKE A BETTER LIFE FOR HIMSELF.
I GUESS THAT IS WHY I WAS ABLE TO WORK SO SUCCESFULLY WITH CRIMINALS IN PRISONS. BECAUSE I CAN LOOK AT THEIR POINT OF VIEW AND I AM ABLE TO STATE MINE. WHAT THEY DO WITH MY VIEWS IS NOT IMPORTANT BUT I DARE TO HOPE THEY WILL ACCEPT I HAVE THE RIGHT TO HAVE THEM. AS THEY HAVE THE RIGHT TO HAVE THEIR OWN OPINIONS .
MY DESIRE IS TO HELP PEOPLE HAVE AN OPEN MIND ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON IN ANOTHER PERSON'S MIND AND LIFE. I AM CERTAINLY NOT SAYING THAT A MURDERER IS ENTITLED TO MURDER I AM SAYING HE IS ENTITLED TO A FAIR TRIAL AND TO STATE WHAT HE BELEIVES IS HIS MOTIVE , I MAY RARELY AGREE WITH HIM BECAUSE OF THE HORROR A MURDER IS TO ME, BUT I WILL ALLOW HIM TO SPEAK OF IT AND NOT STATE MY JUDGEMENT ABOUT HIS ACTIONS. I WILL JUDGE THE ACTION ITSELF AND TRY TO HELP HIM REACH A STATE OF REGRET AND RECONCILAITION WITH HIS ACTION AND A DESIRE TO REACH A STATE OF WANTING FORGIVENESS FROM THE VICTIMS AND FAMILIES AND GOD.
I BELEIVE IN THE TEACHINGS OF JESUS CHRIST. HE TAUGHT THAT LOVE IS THE ONLY ANSWER TO ANY PROBLEM. ONE CANNOT HATE AND FEEL THE LOVE OF GOD OR THE CONNECTION WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT.
WE ARE ALL CREATED BY GOD AND ESPECTED TO CARE FOR ONE ANOTHER AND THTA IS WHY WE ARE HERE TO LEARN TO LOVE AND SUPPORT ONE ANOTHER AND ONLY THEN CAN WE REACH A STATE OF HOLINESS WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT AND CONNECTION WITH GOD THE "ALL THERE IS" IN THE UNIVERSE.
AND YET I STILL HAVE A PROBLEM AT TIMES WITH GETTING ANGRY OR WANTING TO GET EVEN WITH SOEMONE WHO HAS WRONGED ME BECAUSE I AM NOT PERFECT. "HE TEACHES BEST WHAT HE NEEDS MOST TO LEARN" APPLIES TO ME VERY STRONGLY.
I CAN ONLY SAY " PATIENCE, GOD ISNT THEOUGH WITH ME YET". AMEN
Thursday, July 8, 2010
MORE STUFF
HUM LET ME SEE...
I HAD A LOTTA STUFF TO WRITE NOW MY MIND WENT BLANK... I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS. I HAVE BEEN SHOPPING FOR MOVIES ON THE INTERNET I LIKE INDIES AND FOREIGN MOVIES. I ORDERED THE GIRL WITH THE DRAGON TATTOO ONE OF THE EVA LS BY VIEWERS IS THAT ALL STORIES BY THIS GUY ARE EXTREMELY VIOLENT .. I ALREADY ORDERED IT THERE ARE ABOUT 3 MORE STORIES BY THE SAME AUTHOR AND 3 ARE MOVIES.
WE HAVE TRIED TO SEE MOVIES OF QUALITY AT OUR LOCAL THEATRES BUT THEY JUST SHOW POP ACTORS AND KID MOVIES . WE DID MANAGE TO SEE SOLITARY MAN WITH MIKE DOUGLAS AT THE CHANDLER FASHION HARKNESS THEATRE. IT WAS A GOOD MOVIE AND ALL THE PEOPLE THERE WERE SENIOR FOLKS.
GROWN UPS LIKE A STORY WITH MEAT WHEREAS KIDS LIKE ACTION PAP.
OUR LOCAL MOVIES ARE FULL OF PAP. AND WE HAVE A LARGE MATURE POPULATION HERE. DON'T THEY EVER LOOK AT THE POPULATION BEFORE MAKING DECISIONS ABOUT MOVIES HERE? NOT VERY BRIGHT WE GO TO SEE A MOVIE HERE AND THE THEATRE HAS ONLY US A LOT OF TIMES AS AUDIENCE TO SEE KID PAP.
OK WE WENT TO THE MALL YESTERDAY I NEEDED SOME NEW DRESSES AS MY PRESENT BUNCH ARE GETTING PERMANENT STAINS I CANT WASH OUT AND LOOKING FADED AND POOR. THEY JUST DON'T CARRY OLD LADY GAUZE COMFY DRESSES LIKE IN MY YOUTH . USED TO YOU COULD BUY LOVELY COOL GAUZY BILLOWY DRESSES FOR SUMMER EVERYWHERE ESPECIALLY IN BERKELY, NOW THEY DON'T MAKE THEM ANYMORE. ALL THOSE INDIAN SEAMSTRESSES FROM INDIA ARE NOW WORKING IN OUTSOURCE CENTERS WHERE THEY GIVE BAD INFO ON ELECTRONIC COMPUTERS AND ETC. IN THEIR BADLY BROKEN ENGLISH.
OH FOR THE GOOD OLD DAYS !!
I DID MANAGE TO FIND 2 COTTON DRESSES AND I LOOKED OVER MY OLDER ONES AND WASHED 5 OF THEM AND SHOOK THEM OUT TO MAKE THEM FRESHENED. I CANT LOCATE THE CATALOG THAT USED TO SELL THESE TYPES OF DRESSES.
I HAD A MERRY DAY SHOPPING . GOT A NEW NIGHTGOWN WITH VIOLETS ON IT AND SOME MAGAZINES FOR MY SON #2 .
LAST WEEK WE GOT POPS 5 PUZZLES AND A NEW RADIO AND SOME STUFF AT ACE HARDWARE. AND $2500 WORTH OF TEETH.
WE SHOPPED A LOT AND MAYBE SATURDAY WE WILL SHOP FOR OUR BABY GIRL GRANDCHILD IF SHES FREE TO GET TOGETHER.
I THINK ILL STOP NOW AS I'M TIRED OF BEING ONLINE . TALK MORE LATER!!
I HAD A LOTTA STUFF TO WRITE NOW MY MIND WENT BLANK... I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS. I HAVE BEEN SHOPPING FOR MOVIES ON THE INTERNET I LIKE INDIES AND FOREIGN MOVIES. I ORDERED THE GIRL WITH THE DRAGON TATTOO ONE OF THE EVA LS BY VIEWERS IS THAT ALL STORIES BY THIS GUY ARE EXTREMELY VIOLENT .. I ALREADY ORDERED IT THERE ARE ABOUT 3 MORE STORIES BY THE SAME AUTHOR AND 3 ARE MOVIES.
WE HAVE TRIED TO SEE MOVIES OF QUALITY AT OUR LOCAL THEATRES BUT THEY JUST SHOW POP ACTORS AND KID MOVIES . WE DID MANAGE TO SEE SOLITARY MAN WITH MIKE DOUGLAS AT THE CHANDLER FASHION HARKNESS THEATRE. IT WAS A GOOD MOVIE AND ALL THE PEOPLE THERE WERE SENIOR FOLKS.
GROWN UPS LIKE A STORY WITH MEAT WHEREAS KIDS LIKE ACTION PAP.
OUR LOCAL MOVIES ARE FULL OF PAP. AND WE HAVE A LARGE MATURE POPULATION HERE. DON'T THEY EVER LOOK AT THE POPULATION BEFORE MAKING DECISIONS ABOUT MOVIES HERE? NOT VERY BRIGHT WE GO TO SEE A MOVIE HERE AND THE THEATRE HAS ONLY US A LOT OF TIMES AS AUDIENCE TO SEE KID PAP.
OK WE WENT TO THE MALL YESTERDAY I NEEDED SOME NEW DRESSES AS MY PRESENT BUNCH ARE GETTING PERMANENT STAINS I CANT WASH OUT AND LOOKING FADED AND POOR. THEY JUST DON'T CARRY OLD LADY GAUZE COMFY DRESSES LIKE IN MY YOUTH . USED TO YOU COULD BUY LOVELY COOL GAUZY BILLOWY DRESSES FOR SUMMER EVERYWHERE ESPECIALLY IN BERKELY, NOW THEY DON'T MAKE THEM ANYMORE. ALL THOSE INDIAN SEAMSTRESSES FROM INDIA ARE NOW WORKING IN OUTSOURCE CENTERS WHERE THEY GIVE BAD INFO ON ELECTRONIC COMPUTERS AND ETC. IN THEIR BADLY BROKEN ENGLISH.
OH FOR THE GOOD OLD DAYS !!
I DID MANAGE TO FIND 2 COTTON DRESSES AND I LOOKED OVER MY OLDER ONES AND WASHED 5 OF THEM AND SHOOK THEM OUT TO MAKE THEM FRESHENED. I CANT LOCATE THE CATALOG THAT USED TO SELL THESE TYPES OF DRESSES.
I HAD A MERRY DAY SHOPPING . GOT A NEW NIGHTGOWN WITH VIOLETS ON IT AND SOME MAGAZINES FOR MY SON #2 .
LAST WEEK WE GOT POPS 5 PUZZLES AND A NEW RADIO AND SOME STUFF AT ACE HARDWARE. AND $2500 WORTH OF TEETH.
WE SHOPPED A LOT AND MAYBE SATURDAY WE WILL SHOP FOR OUR BABY GIRL GRANDCHILD IF SHES FREE TO GET TOGETHER.
I THINK ILL STOP NOW AS I'M TIRED OF BEING ONLINE . TALK MORE LATER!!
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