THIS SOMETIMES SUX

YESTERDAY I WROTE A LONG BLOG AND IT DISAPPEARED. I WAS SO MAD!! IT TAKES A LOT OF ENERGY TO WRITE IN HERE AND TO LOSE A WELL THOUGHT OUT, COMPLETED SECTION IS BEYOND UNDERSTANDING.
TODAY I COOK EVERYTHING THAT CAN BE DONE A DAY AHEAD FOR THE BIG DAY. I GOT 2 SMALL TURKEY BREASTS FOR THE KIDS AND TOMORROW WE COOK A REAL TURKEY WHICH WE WILL EAT ALL DAY AND THE BREASTS WILL GO HOME WITH THE BABIES. I WILL PREPARE THE PIES AND THE HAM AND BREASTS TODAY AND MAKE ALL THOSE THINGS READY TO POP IN THE OVEN THEW YAMS AND WELL THE STUFFING IN THE AM BECAUSE WE DON'T WANT ANY GERMS TO SET IN.
THE SALAD AND THE GREEN BEANS COOK TOMORROW. WE NEED THEM CRISPY. AND THE STUFFING WARMS UP TOMORROW AND THE YAMS ALL GO IN THE OVEN . ILL WARM UP THE HAM IN THE SMALL OVEN BEFORE SERVING SEVERAL SLICES AT A TIME WE HAVE THE SPIRAL HAM THING SO ITS EASY.
AND MOST LEFTOVERS WILL GO HOME WITH MY BABY BOY AND MY GOOD SON.

SHOPPIN FOR SHOES FOR THE DAD

DAD FOUND OUT THAT HE HAD TO WEAR SPECIAL SHOES TO FLY IN ELOY'S FLY PEN.Skydive Arizona Eloy, AZ Dex Knows.com™ ANYWAYS DAD IS DETERMINED TO FLY AND I CANNOT TALK HIM OUT OF IT. HE HAS ALWAYS WANTED TO FLY HE DREAMS ABOUT IT AND SEES THIS AS A WAY TO DO SO BEFORE HE DIES. I KNOW HES GONNA FLY A LOT AFTER HE DIES SO I DON'T KNOW WHY HES WASTING $80 FOR 4 MINUTES HAHAH.
SO WE WENT TO DILLARD'S AND GOT HIM SOME SHOES AND AFTER WEARING THEM IN THE HOUSE ON THE CARPET FOR ABOUT 25 MINUTES HE FOUND THEY HURT HIS FEET SO WE ARE GOING TO RETURN THEM AND BUY SOME FROM THE INTERNET I FOUND SOME EXTRA EXTRA WIDE ONES ON AMAZON.COM
SO AS SOON AS I GET A NEW CHARGE CARD I WILL BUY THEM MY OLD CARD HAD 2 CHARGES I DIDN'T MAKE ON IT SO NOW I HAVE TO WAIT FOR A NEW CARD AND CHANGE MY PASSWORD. DANG IT TO HECK OLA.
ANYWAYS IT WAS NOT TERRIBLY BAD 12 DOLLARS A MONTH FOR 2 MONTHS FOR HEAVEN KNOWS WHAT AND A LETTER THAT SAID I COULD DELETE CHARGES BY WRITING THEM... IT WOULDN'T TAKE MY LETTER AND A PHONE NUMBER WHERE THEY REFUSED TO ANSWER I SENT THE WHOLE MESS TO THE CARD COMPANY. THEY WILL TAKE CARE OF IT FOR US. THANK GOODNESS.
WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT THE SECURITY OF MY CHARGE CARDS COVERAGE? THEY ARE SO GOOD THAT WAY.
ANYWAYS ITS ANNOYING I NEED TO CHRISTMAS SHOP.
I WENT TO MICHAEL'S AND GOT SOEM DECORATIONS AND GIFT WRAPS FOR CHRISTMAS. IM SO EXCITED I LOVE CHRISTMAS. ONE YEAR WE WENT TO MIDNITE MASS AND IT WAS TORTURE SO WE GO TO MORNING MASSES NOW THEY ARE MORE LOVELY AND I CAN BE AWAKE TO SEE EVERYTHING. NOTHING WORSE THAN FALLING ASLEEP ON A PEW IN CHURCH.
I GOT SOEM WREATHS TO PUT ON THE LIGHTS BY THE GARAGE AND SOEM LITTLE BALLS AND HOLLY AND FLOWERS TO PUT ON THE WREATHS THEY WILL LOOK SO LOVELY I CANT WAIT TIL DAY AFTER THANKSGIVING.
ALSO IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THANKSGIVING I AMD GETTING A TURKY BREAST ROAST AND A HAM TO COOK THE DAY BEFORE AND A REAL TURKEY FOR THE MAIN DAY. ALSO IM COOKING THE STUFFING, THE CRANBERRIES, THE PUMPKIN PIES AND A CHOCOLATE CAKE THE DAY BEFORE.AND THE FRESH VEGGIES AND SALADS ON THE MAIN DAY YUM I LOVE FRESH VEGGIES AND STEAMED ONES A LOT. ALSO THE YAMS ILL COOK BEFORE TOO AND HEAT THEM UP THE MAIN DAY.
ONCE I BOUGHT A COOK BOOK ON A SPECIAL OFFER ON TV BY MARTHA STEWART AND IT TAUGHT ME HOW TO HAVE ALL THE FOOD COME TOGETHER AT ONCE ON HOLIDAYS BUT THEY OVER CHARGED ME FOR IT WHEN I GOT THE BILL SO I SENT IT BACK AND THEY NEVER REFUNDED MY MONEY FOR THE PAYMENT I MADE I WAS SO SAD. IT WAS A WONDERFUL COOK BOOK. AND I REALLY GOT GYPPED . SO MARTHA STEWART IM REALLY SORRY WE ARE NO LONGER FRIENDS.
HAHAH. ANYWAYS I HAVE TO GO SHOPPING ON MONDAY FOR THE HOLIDAYS AND TUESDAY I HAVE A DOCS APPOINTMENT. DARN IT I FORGOT IT WAS A BAD DAY WHEN I MADE IT. BUT I DO NEED SOEM MORE LYRICA FOR MY NERVE PAIN CAUSED BY THE SHINGLES I GOT 7 WEEKS AGO. WILL THEY EVER GO AWAY? ITS SO GRADUAL MY LIL BUMPS FEEL LIKE A BAD SUNBURN AT TIMES. AND SOEMTIMES IM FORCED TO TAKE MEDS SO I CAN SLEEP AT NIGHT OR ELSE ILL BE UP ALL NIGHT. AND FEEL SO BADLY ALL DAY WITH NAPS THAT GO ON AND ON. OK HUFF SAID. HUGS TO ALL

GOD DOES SEE WHAT GOES ON WITH BAD FOLKS!!

AND ADDENDUM TO MY LAST BLOG: RONALD REAGAN HAD ALZHEIMER'S DISEASE THE LAST 2 YEARS AS PRESIDENT AND GOT IT WORSE AFTER HE RETIRED. HE ENDED UP ONE OF THOSE THROWAWAYS HE DETESTED AS WELL. BUT HIS MONEY BUFFERED HIM FROM BAD THINGS HAPPENING TIL HE DIED. NOT SO FOR THE POOR MENTALLY ILL ON THE STREETS.

DAD AGAIN

ONE DAY I WAS SITTING HERE AT MY KEYBOARD WRITING STUFF WHEN I HEARD DAD IN HIS BATHROOM YELLING LOUDLY AND TALKING THE SAME WAY, I THOUGHT WE HAD A HOME INVASION DURING HIS CONSTITUTIONAL , WELL I RAN TO HIS BATHROOM TO SEE WHAT WAS HAPPENING AND I SAID "WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO?"
HE SAID "DON'T INTERRUPT, I HATE IT WHEN YOU DO THAT ...I WAS TALKING to MYSELF"

MORE MADNESS! AFTER THAT IT WOULD HAPPEN WHEN HE WAS PUTTING TOGETHER HIS PUZZLES OR JUST HANGING OUT, HE WORKS THINGS OUT ALOUD HAHHA. REMINDS ME OF KIDS IN SCHOOL WHO HAD TO READ EVERYTHING ALOUD OR THEY WOULDN'T GET IT. NEVER MIND THAT THEY DISTURBED MY THOUGHT PROCESS WHICH DOES BEST IN A QUIET PLACE. ALL THROUGH COLLEGE I ALWAYS WROTE MY PAPERS AFTER THE KIDS WERE IN BED AND DAD TOO. I WROTE SOME PAPERS THAT WERE REALLY GOOD. MY PROFS ALWAYS SAID I MADE A
THESIS OUT OF EVERY ASSIGNMENT. I LOVED TO WRITE AND LINK THINGS TOGETHER IN A FUN WAY. WHEN I WENT TO WORK AT MY JOBS MY SOCIAL ASSESSMENTS READ LIKE NOVELS EVERYONE ENJOYED THEM, WELL.... THEY TOLD ME SO IS HOW I KNOW. I LOVED TO PROBLEM SOLVE WITH CLIENTS AT WORK .ITS A FUN AND CREATIVE THING TO DO I GUESS THAT'S WHY I MISS MY WORK SO MUCH , I HAVE LITTLE PROBLEMS TO SOLVE NOW I'M RETIRED. I PAY BILLS AND ARGUE OVER MISTAKES IN THEM MY ONLY PROBLEM SOLVING LEFT TO ME ANYMORE.
I CAN NOT REMEMBER EXACTLY WHEN I DECIDED TO BECOME A SOCIAL WORKER...I WAS IN COLLEGE AND I WAS TRANSFERRED TO THE STATE UNIVERSITY AFTER JUNIOR COLLEGE I HAD 65 UNITS MOSTLY IN TH SOCIAL SCIENCES THAT'S WHAT WAS MOST FUN, I HAD TO TAKE BIOLOGY AND A FEW SCIENCE COURSES AND A MATH ONE, BUT OTHER THAN THOSE I WAS FREE TO TAKE GOOD STUFF I TOOK ART HISTORY I TOOK ART AND I TOOK PSYCH AND SOCIAL STUDIES MOSTLY SO WHEN I GOT TO THE UNIV. I WAS ASKED TO DO A WORK STUDY PROGRAM FOR Three units OF COURSE I SAID YES, WELL I SPENT SO MUCH TIME DOING THIS I DRAGGED MY KIDS ALONG AND MY HUBBY TOO WHEN HE WAS WILLING WE WENT ON EXCURSIONS WITH MENTAL PATIENTS THAT REAGAN WAS DUMPING OUT OF STATE HOSPITALS WITH A PROMISE THAT THEY WOULD BE WELL SERVED IN THE COMMUNITY AND WE WERE DOING THE TRANSITION WORK FOR THAT. the promised programs never happened Reagan was a LOSER then when he became president he dismantled all the states' mental health hospitals . I WILL NEVER FORGIVE HIM FOR THAT. NOW ALL MENTAL PATIENTS END UP IN PRISONS AND THAT WAS WHERE I WORKED WITH THEM IN MY LAST YEARS OF MY PROFESSION.
NOW PEOPLE WONDER WHY MENTAL PATIENTS ARE WANDERING AROUND HOMELESS AND SICK ON THE STREETS AND NOBODY WANTS THEM AROUND AND WHEN THEY COMMIT A CRIME... LIKE THIS ONE...
A MENTAL PATIENT WAS DUMPED FROM ONE COUNTY TO ANOTHER IN HOPES HE COULD GET SERVICES THERE, HE WAS A SCHIZOPHRENIC MAN ABOUT 30 YEARS OLD AND HE WANDERED INTO A HOUSE WITH THE KITCHEN DOOR OPEN AND HE WENT IN AND MADE HIMSELF A CHEESE SANDWICH, NO ONE WAS AT HOME WHEN HE GOT THERE, BUT THE FAMILY CAME HOME AND FOUND HIM SITTING AT THE KITCHEN TABLE EATING, AND THEY CALLED THE POLICE, HE WAS CHARGED WITH BURGLARY OF A HOME THAT WAS INHABITED AT THE TIME. HE GOT LIKE 4 YEARS PRISON TIME FOR THIS. A SICK MAN WITH NO MEDICATION WHO WAS DELUSIONAL AND HALLUCINATING. PRISON MIND YOU. IF THAT WAS MY SON OR YOUR BROTHER YOU WOULD BE AGHAST! BUT HE WAS POOR AND HAD NO FAMILY WITH DEEP POCKETS AND FANCY LAWYERS. A THROWAWAY HUMAN BEING. PUNISHED FOR BEING HUNGRY AND GETTING FOOD AS BEST HE COULD. I WONDER WHAT JESUS WOULD DO?

DAD ... AGAIN------

TODAY I SAID TO DAD SINCE WE HAVE 2 CASING FOR OUR DLP LAMP FOR OUR TV AND THE LAMPS WITH CASINGS COST SO MUCH MORE THAN THE LAMPS ALONE, WHY DONT WE BUY 2 LAMPS FORTHE MINIMAL PRICE THEY COST AND SELL THEM WITH OUR CASINGS FOR $275 LIKE THE MITSUBISHI PEOPLE CHARGE?
DAD SAYS "OH GOODY WE GET TO GO ON JUDGE JUDY AT LAST!!"
HAHAHHA
TODAY WE WENT TO MIMI'S FOR BREAKFAST AND AN OLD LADY ABOUT 65 SAT IN A BOOTH KTTY CORNERED FROM US AND SHE WAS WEARING A MINISKIRT WITH NO PANTIES!! AAAARGH I GAGGED.
WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE MINI SKIRTS WITH PANTIES ARE ONLY FOR YOUNG GIRLS.
I HATE HAVING MY BREAKFAST RUINED, BUT THEN IT GAVE A LOT TO GOSSIP ABOUT WITH THE WAITRESSES. HAHAH!

LITTLE FRIENDS WHO HAVE GROWN THAT I HAVE KNOWN

MY HUSBAND AND I HAVE HAD MANY FRIENDS THAT STARTED AS BABIES AND ARE NOW EITHER GROWN OR TEENS. MANY OF THEM WE HAVE BABYSAT AND OR JUST LOVED FROM FRIENDSHIP. WE SEEM TO LIKE LITTLE GIRLS A LOT BECAUSE WE LOST OUR ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER 25 YEARS AGO... THE FIRST HORRIBLE, PAINFUL EXPERIENCE IN OUR LIVES, AND WE LOST OUR OLDEST SON LAST SEPTEMBER 19, 2008 THE SECOND AGONY IN OUR LIVES.
THE CHILDREN WHO WE HAVE FRIENDSHIPS WITH HELP A LOT IN MANAGING THE PAIN OF OUR LOSSES.
ONCE MY HUSBAND WAS GIVEN THE EVIL EYE BY A WOMAN IN A COFFEESHOP BECAUSE SHE HAD NASTY THOUGHTS ABOUT HIS PAYING FOR A YOUNGSTER'S COFFEE I WAS THERE AS WELL BUT NOT IN HER SIGHT. THAT WAS A PAINFUL EXPERIENCE FOR BOTH OF US TO HAVE THAT KIND OF TREATMENT WHEN YOU ARE MERELY BEING KIND TO SOMEONE IT'S VERY HURTFUL.
IT WOULD CERTAINLY MAKE LIFE BETTER IF PEOPLE DIDNT JUDGE UNTIL THEY HAVE FULL FACTS.WE HAVE RAISED SO MANY BABIES TO TEENHOOD OR ADULTHOOD INCLUDING OUR GRANDDAUGHTER THAT WE LOVE MORE THAN ANYTHING. NEVER HAVE WE EVER BEEN THOUGHT OF THAT WAY BEFORE .
NOW I WANT TO TALK ABOUT SANTA FE, NM MY BIRTHPLACE. I LEFT WHEN I WAS 16 YEARS OLD THAT WAS IN 1952. WHILE I WAS THERE I SAW OUR LITTLE TOWN AS AN ADOBE HOUSED PLACE WITH ADOBE WALLS AROUND ALL THE HOUSES. I LIVED IN ADOBE HOUSES ALL MY YOUNG LIFE. THEY WERE VERY CONFORTABLE. WARM IN WINTER HEATED BY WOOD STOVES AND COOL IN SUMMER WHEN THEY BLOCKED THE HEAT SO WELL. I LOVED LIVING THERE . I USED TO SKATE ALL THE WAY DOWNTOWN AND GO TO TEICHERTS DIME STORE AND BUY 10 CENTS WORTH OF CANDY THEN SKATE ALL THE WAY BACK HOME ON ARROYO TENORIO STREET. EVERYTHING WAS RUN MAINLY BY THE NATIVES THERE HISPANICS AND INDIANS AND MEXICANS.
I SAY HISPANICS BECAUSE THEY CAME FROM SPANIARD FAMILIES THAT SETTLED THERE IN THE EARLY 1600'S OF WHICH MY FAMILY IS HEIR TO.
THE MEXICAN COMPONNENT WERE HALF SPANISH AND HALF INDIAN. TODAY , SANTA FE IS LIKE A GIANT ANTHILL AND THE POPULATION IS MAINLY ANGLO FROM OTHER STATES NOT NATIVES AT ALL. THE MAGAZINES ARE ALL WRITTEN AND DRAWN BY ANGLOS THE NATIVE POPULATION IS NEVER INCLUDED IN THE WRITING AND DEVELOPMENT AND HISTORY THEY DESCRIBE IN THE MAGAZINES LIKE THE SANTA FEAN AND THE NEW MEXICAN. IT IS A SAD THING THAT THE REAL PEOPLES ARE NO LONGER THERE TO DO THEIR OWN HISTORY . EVEN THE RECIPES THAT WE LOVED WHEN I GREW UP ARE CHANGED TO ANGLO LIKE FOODS. WE DIDNT EAT SHRIMP OR FISH , WE ATE A LOT OF FRESH VEGETABLES AND BAKED MEAT CARNE ASADA, AND REAL EMPANADITAS MADE THE WAY WE NATIVES MADE THEM. OUR ENCHILADAS WERE THICK AND MEATY AND DELICIOUS AND STACKED NOT ROLLED THE ROLLED STUFF CAME FROM HEAVEN KNOWS WHERE. AND THEY USE SUCH A SKIMPY AMOUNT OF CHILI ON THEM. WE LOVED GREEN CHILIS WITH FRESHLY COOKED BEANS IN AN OLLA. WE COOKED THEM ONCE A WEEK AND BY WEDNESDAY THEY WERE READY TO BE REFRIED AND VERY TASTY TOO. TORTILLAS WERE MADE FRESH 3 TIMES A WEEK. WE ATE MEAT BEEF ON SUNDAYS AND HAD CHICKEN FOR THANKSGIVING. FRIED CALABASITAS WITH ONIONS,GARLIC AND CHILI SEEDS WERE DELICIOUS AND MADE A MEAL IN THEMSELVES WITH BEANS AND TORTILLAS. MAKES MY MOUTH WATER AS I REMEMBER . I STILL MAKE THOSE NOW AND I MAKE ENCHILADAS AND TACOS THE OLD WAY WITH CUT UP STEAK AND FRESH LETTUCE AND TOMATOES AND CHEESE AND ONIONS AND GREEN CHILIS WITH A LITTLE VINEGAR OR FRESH LEMON JUICE ON THE VEGS. THEN A HOT SALSA IF THE GREEN CHILIES WERENT HOT ENOUGH. FRESHLY MADE SALSA ALWAYS.
WHEN I WENT BACK 13 YEARS AGO, SANTA FE HAD NO MORE ADOBE HOUSES EXCEPT FOR THE OLD ONES. THE NEW HOUSES WERE MADE TO LOOK LIKE THE ADOBE ONES BUT THEY WERE FAKES ALL OF THEM. AND MOSTLY LOOKED LIKE ALL THE NEW HOUSES IN PHOENIX TILED ROOFS AND PLASTER WALLS AND SHEET ROCKED INNARDS. NO VIGAS OR VEGAS. EXCEPT FOR THE MILLIONAIRES WHO SWOOPED IN WITH THEIR MONEY AND STUFF. MOVIE STARS AND NEW YORKERS AND ALL THOSE ANGLO PAINTERS.
ANYHOW IM NO LONGER IN LOVE WITH SANTA FE IT IS COMPLETELY CORRUPTED BY THE ANGLO POPULATION. SO I DON'T CARE TO LIVE THERE EVER AGAIN. BUT MY HEART ACHES OVER MY LOSS AS WELL. IF THERE ARE OTHER DIMENSIONS I HOPE MY REAL SANTA FE LIVES ON IN ONE OF THEM EXACTLY AS I REMEMBER IT. WITH THE STREETS ALL SO AND EVERYTHING IN WALKING DISTANCE OR SKATING DISTANCE. I REALLY LOVED THE ST. FRANCIS CATHEDRAL AND ALL THE YEARLY PROCESSIONS AND ACTIVITIES OF THE CATHOLIC CHURCH. THE ZOZOBRA BEFORE THE FIESTA WAS A NOT THE GIANT OF THEESE DAYS IT WAS AS BIG AS A MAN MAYBE A BIT LARGER BUT NOT THE HUGE MONSTROSITY IT IS TODAY AND THE CROWDS WERE IN THE HUNDREDS NOT THOUSANDS AS IT IS TODAY. HTHERE WERE NO OFFENSIVE DRUNKS IN MY FIESTAS AND EVERYONE HAD TO HAVE A COSTUME FOR THE FIESTA NO MATTER HOW POOR WE ALWAYS MADE IT. BROOMSTICK SKIRTS AND BATISTE BLOUSES WITH RIBBONS ON THE ARMS AND NECK. WE LOVED THEM. AND THE CONQUISTADORES RODE IN WITH ALL THEIR FANCY OUTFITS ON BIG HORSES. AND MARIACHIS AND DANCING LADIES IN BEAUTIFUL COSTUMES PASSED DOWN FROM THEIR MOMS WITH ALL THESE SPARKLY OUTFITS. EVERY LITTLE GIRL WANTED TO GROW UP AND DANCE LIKE THEM.
MANTILLAS MADE WITH LACE ON HUGE COMBS ...BEAUTIFUL. MY ANCESTRY IS SO COLORFUL. I LOVE MY CULTURE TOO BAD ITS BEEN TAKEN OVER BY FAKES. ANYWAY I STILL COOK THE OLD WAY FOR MY KIDS AND ITS THE ONLY REAL FOOD THEY KNOW. NO RESTAUARNT CAN COMPARE WITH MY HOME COOKING. AND I LOVE TO MAKE IT.
I WILL MAKE SOME FOR CHRISTMAS AND DIETS BE DAMNED!!!





.